Disclaimer: New Moon belongs to Stephenie Meyer

The beginning is from New Moon pg48

"Bella, we're leaving"

I took a deep breath, too. This was an acceptable option. I thought I was prepared. But still I had to ask.

"Why now? Another year…"

'Bella, its time. How much longer could we stay in forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass as thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless.

His answer confused me. I thought the point in leaving is to let his family live in peace. Why did we have to leave if they were going? I stared at him trying to understand what he meant.

"When you say we-" I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct.

I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying to clear it. It took a few minutes to gather my thoughts so I was able to speak.

"Okay," I said. "I'll come with you"

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going…It's not the right place for you"

"Where you are is the right place for me"

"I'm no good for you, Bella"

"Don't be ridiculous" I wanted to sound angry, but it just sounded like I was begging. "You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you," he said grimly.

"Well that's just sucks because you are my world, Edward," I felt like I couldn't breathe. "And you should of thought about the possible outcomes before I fell in love with you," Tears unwillingly pouring down my cheeks, this was a fight I couldn't afford to lose, I could not lose my Edward, even the thought made my knees weak, I grabbed on to a branch to steady myself. "What happened with Jasper was nothing, Edward!"

"Your right," he agreed. "It was exactly what was to be expected"

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay…"

"As long as that was best for you," he interrupted to correct me.

"No! Don't you understand, does the fact that I'm with you mean that I care more for you than my own life, that I allowed myself to be tortured to save you" I choked on almost every word, I wanted to be furious with him for even thinking that I could survive without him.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the word slowly and precise, every word stabbing into my already wounded heart like a butcher knife, his cold eyes never leaving my pain-filled eyes. I could see no remorse at all in his features, he was serious.

"You...don't…want me?" I tried out the words, confused by how they sounded.

"No,"

I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He started back without apology.

"Bella, I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not, I am not human

"Don't do this"

"Your not god for me, Bella"

I opened my mouth to speak, and then closed it again. What was I suppose to say. How am I supposed to react when the person you loved more than your own life doesn't want you anymore? I won't be selfish, I'll give him want he wants, or at least I'll try.

"If…that's what you want"

He nodded once. My whole body went num

"I would like to ask you one favor, if that's not too much" he said.

"Anything"

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid" he ordered. "Do you understand what I'm saying?"

I looked away, did he think I was going to live without him. True love only comes around once and I didn't plan on living any longer to test that theory.

"Bella, do you understand?" he demanded anxiously.

"Edward," It already pained me to speak his name. "Yes, I do understand. But I'm not about to live without you"

Agony touched his face at that moment; I knew he tried hard to hide it.

"Bella, don't be stupid, that won't…" His cell phone buzzed, he held up a finger and turned around before answering.

I thought about how I would die, knowing that this might keep him around. I wouldn't kill myself, it would hurt Charlie, but I could pretend. If that would keep my beloved Edward close then why not?

"Alice… ok… fine, bye" He muttered. Took a deep breathe and turned to me with an agonized expression.

Alice. She had probably seen me attempt to kill myself. She called and told him. I felt ashamed for even thinking that. It would hurt her.

"Juliet could never live without her Romeo; she made a choice not too. I and she are more similar than I thought" He would stay as long as I kept this act up. But was I really that selfish, he didn't want me, I wasn't going to guilt him into a relationship.

"Bella, don't" he couldn't hide the agony in his face this time.

"It's okay, I'm not going to guilt you into a relationship, I'm unselfish enough to put your happiness before mine, just know that I love you Edward, forever and always"

I looked down, tears streaming down my face again. Edward grabbed my waist pulled me tightly against his chest and kissed my lips hungrily. His lips moved urgently, shaping mine. He ran his hand up and down my back, which was more than a physical interaction we ever had, which more than he allowed. He paused.

"Bella, it's impossible to lie to you, I truly love and only want for you to be safe" He muttered.

What does that mean? I was so confused, but I didn't want to question him right now, I needed him too. More than ever. He paused and stared into my eyes.

"You really love me more than your own life?"

"Yes" I whispered breathlessly.

"Than you leave me no other option" He bent his head, pressed his lips to my neck. He took a breath. Before I could even panic, and tell him I wasn't ready. He bit me.

I Screamed.