Tonight isn't as cold as it was last night. I am almost too warm right now being out here alone. I am alone for two weeks, until October 5th, 2008, and it is both comforting and sad. If I was still living in Wisconsin with the rest of my friends, I truly would not be alone for these next weeks, but because I am now living in North Carolina with no one but myself and my cat, I am wondering what the fuck I am going to do with myself for the upcoming days. I know most people would be like, well just masturbate or something, but I mean, come on, how long and how often can you do that if your name isn't Janelle? There's a couple people I've met down here that I could potentially ask to come hang out, but because they are guys, they could get the wrong idea, considering I am 5'8", blond and skinny with huge boobs, I mean, I'd rather not open myself up to such an impression as sex. Don't get me wrong, god how I love sex, but really, thats just too much when you've known a guy for only three days, and three of those days you were drunk and hardly remember what the fucking kid looks like.
I've stopped drinking for the time being so I guess we could try it again with a fresh start, but do I really want to talk to some poof that has no idea what he's doing with his life and has only just graduated from high school? Yeah, that pretty much answers itself. Anyway, so I was thinking since I return to Wisconsin in about three weeks, I will do everything I can there, and get the terrible deprivation of sex off my chest and come back to NC with a fresh beginning. Oh god I really should stop even mentioning sex, because it just causes issues with me wanting it more and more. It's hard enough as it is not drinking alcohol, let alone not getting any. Anyway, back to being alone for the next two weeks. It's nice be able to be loud at night and it's also nice not sitting there as my roommate and her fiancé bicker at each other for about twenty minutes at a time. Talk about awkward... I really need to put up some kind of ad in the newspaper or on craigslist about me needing a new place to live, preferably with either only males or only females, no boyfriend and girlfriend in the midst. Anyway, now that I probably have malaria from the bloody mosquitoes out here, I am gonna go inside in hopes that someone will text me or I don't know, touch me. Hahahaha...