So here I am, Uzimaki Naruto.
Current state: the definition of pathetic.
Why am I pathetic? You ask.
Well, wouldn't you call a teenage boy who hasn't left his house in three weeks, not even for school, just because of a little crush, pathetic? Not only that, but said teenage boy is also currently sitting in his living room, in his boxers, writing in his journal (it's not a fucking diary!) and eating uncooked ramen out of the package.
Yeah, pathetic.
Especially the ramen part. Its not that I'm too lazy to cook it, but like I said, its been three weeks since I've left the house (yeah, I was talking about me, gods, your slow) and I don't have any dishwashing soap.
No soap means no clean pans, no clean pans means no cooked ramen.
Yeah, this blows.
To top it all of, that voice in the back of my head (so I have problems, okay. It's a personality disorder, leave me alone!) Keeps laughing at me, and telling me I'm blowing this waaay out of proportion.
'It's just a little crush, Naruto-chan. You've had them before. You'll get over it, so stop being so pathetic.'
'Who the fuck are you calling pathetic! You're not even a real person!'
'At least I'm not the crazy one talking to himself.'
'Grrrrr…'
Anyways, back to the world outside my head, so yeah. This is getting really annoying. I mean, at the rate this is going, I'm going to be a sophomore forever. Unfortunately, I can't go back just yet. I might not be able to go back until he graduates.
Yeah, HE. As it my crush. If you got a problem with it, then go fuck yourself.
Its not just school either, I mean, what If I did venture off to the store, what if he just happened to be grocery shopping as well. That would be pretty awkward.
It wouldn't be awkward just because I like him, yeah, that was bad enough.
The worst part is, he knows.
Its not like I confessed or anything. Its not that I'm shy, its just that, well, I'm kind of a guy. That and I'm pretty sure he doesn't swing that way. I mean, I didn't think that I did, until that night with Sasuke.
But that's another story. To sum it up, I went to a party, he got drunk, and I was just a little buzzed and well… say "goodbye" to virginity.
Hey! Don't look at me like that. Its not like I was HIS first, and at least I didn't lose it to my older brother!
Anyways, well that ended up making things a lot more complicated. Not only because that made me realize how much I really do like guys (Gods, Sasuke was hot!), but now my old rival and friend is chasing after me.
I don't mean to sound like a total slut or anything, but It didn't mean anything. It was just one of those things that happens when teenagers mix with alcohol.
And I wasn't even on top.
And so, because of that damned Uchiha, I started thinking more and more about that sexy (and kind of scary) new guy in my chemistry class. That turned into a little crush, then a huge one, and after a month, I was even using the word "Love" in my mental conversations.
Even if it is love, I sure didn't want him to know. I was content just talking with him once in a while, but then Sasuke had to ruin it.
I can't really blame him entirely, because I was the one who shouted "Damnit Sasuke, can't you understand, I don't love you, I love Gaara!" while the said redhead was, for some reason, right behind me.
So yeah, I fucked up, and now I can't leave my house.
I miss Ichiraku…