A/N: Hey all. Nice to see everyone. Inuyasha is, most unfortunately, not mine. He, in fact, belongs to Kagome. No warnings on this one. Just a big boiling pot of angst.
The Void
Darkness…everywhere.
No.
No. Not darkness. Darkness would mean the absence of light. This…void… It is the absence of everything. I can't feel anything. My nose is dead, ears deaf. I can't move.
Where am I?
Nowhere. Sleep.
But why?
Sleep.
How long have I drifted here in the void?
Forever.
No. I know that's not true. I remember. There was light. There was clarity.
There was love.
No. They are nothing. You are nothing. And you have been nothing here forever.
You're wrong. I remember. I was nothing…but it was a different sort of nothing. Unwanted nothing. Tainted and different and therefore nothing. An insect hardly worth the effort of killing. But even then, the nothing was something.
You are bitterness and darkness and hatred. You have been here forever with your aching silence. Accept fate.
…
What if I don't want to be those things?
You are those things. You are the betrayer and the betrayed. You opened your heart and let another cut it out. Accept fate.
No. I didn't… I couldn't… It wasn't supposed to be this way.
It will always be this way. Let the void consume you. Cease your foolishness.
It's not supposed to be this way.
There is light.
There is nothing. Sleep.
But I can see it. I can almost taste it.
You see nothing. You taste nothing. You are nothing.
I am not nothing. I am something.
I can feel it.
I remember. There was a jewel. I took it.
You have always been here. Accept fate.
No. I wasn't supposed to take it…but I did. Because she betrayed me.
There is no one. Become one with the void. Sleep. Cease your foolishness.
I loved her.
The light is growing stronger.
There is no light. There is nothing but emotion. Allow your hatred to consume you.
…But I don't hate her.
Become one with the void.
The light is so close. I can almost touch it. Does this mean I can leave? If the light reaches me, will I escape?
There is no escape. You have been here forever and will be here forever. Accept fate. Sleep.
I won't.
"Anyone! Help!"
The light. It's calling me. I can feel it. I can touch it.
The words. I can hear them. She needs me.
No! You are not supposed to leave! You are here forever!
Kami! Kami, it hurts! My heart is beating. I can feel it. I can feel my fingers. I can move them.
No!
Inuyasha. My name is Inuyasha.
A/N: There will be a companion piece to this that will be a good deal lighter. Expect it in a week or so.