"So everything is over, right?" she asked with tears in her eyes. Why it's so hard to tell the truth, what will hurt? I don't want to hurt her. I tried to love her but i'm not that strong to love again. Nothing will ever be as i want it to be. I can't love the person who isn't meant to be love of my life. She's not the person who is the love of my life and i don't think she would ever be. I don't want to use her and lie to her about feelings i don't have. I thought i love her but i didn't. Those were just a lies. I lied to her because i didn't wanted to hurt her but, i guess, i already did. I wonder how did she found out that i don't love her. Who told her about this?
"Alice, unfortunately it's. It's not you, it's me. You know how much i love her and how much i miss her. I know i did wrong things not telling you about not having feeling for you. I'm really sorry. You know how hard it was to me when she died. I can't forget her. I can't blame you for falling in love with me. I know Sarah would love that i'm happy with someone but it's not you. I know i hurt your feelings, i wanted to tell that i don't love you but i was too weak to do that. I want you to be happy but you won't be happy being with me. So now i have to say...goodbye, beautiful!" i kissed her for the last time. I don't want to hurt her with this last kiss but i had to kiss her just to know if i'm doing the right thing, breaking up with her. Yeah i'm doing the right thing. I don't feel anything, even there's no butterflies in my stomach. I slowly moved to door side and walked away not looking back.