CHAPTER ONE...
It was happening pain, I keep reliving it. Over and over again, It never stops. I wake up clutching my chest in the spot where my heart is perpetrating, gasping for air and what seems like my life. I quickly pick up my phone from my bedside table and send a text to Augustus, seeing that it is 3:37a.m.
Me: ' Augustus! Are you alright?! Please don't leave me again...' I was sobbing uncontrollably. It was only a matter of seconds until I received a reply.
Augustus: 'Of course Hazel Grace, I'm perfectly fine. What's wrong? Are you okay?!'
Me: 'Yes, I'm fine. I'm so sorry Augustus. I'm sorry I woke you up again..'
Augustus: 'It's fine Hazel Grace, sleep is overrated anyway' I can just imagine the cocky grin on his face. 'Is it the nightmare again?'
For the past week I've been having nightmares. Just terrible, excruciating nightmares. Of course my oxygen tank and cannula doesn't help one bit, in fact it makes it worse. The nightmares are always of Gus either dying or have already died. Just seeing him in that kind of pain, and seeing his high-self esteem morph into the total opposite... I was forced to go to a Support Group in The Literal Heart Of Jesus, (In a church basement), a couple months ago by my parents. And that's where I met Augustus Waters. Before I met Gus at Support Group, I would'nt have cared if cancer took me out of this world. But now, now it's different
Me: 'Yes, I'm so so so very sorry Augustus. I don't know what's wrong with me, why I keep having the same nightmare over and over again every night. This is the sixth night in a row I have woken you up'
Augustus: 'Hey, hey It's fine Hazel Grace.. I'm fine. And I'm never going to leave you. I love you.
I can't help but smile at those last three words, "I love you".
Me: 'I love you too, talk to you later today?' I chew my lip, anxiously waiting for his response.
Augustus: '...Hazel Grace, You know me well. Is there ever a day we don't go without speaking or hanging out? Of course I will talk to you later today. Text me later today so we can meet up... Okay?'
Me: 'Okay.'
Augustus: 'Okay. Sweet dreams'
Me: 'Okay.'
Augustus: 'OMG! Stop flirting with me, Hazel Grace!'
And with that, I put down my phone. Just laying there with the goofiest grin on my face. Then slowly I drifted off to sleep with nothing but good dreams.
I hope you enjoyed! Please review so I know whether to continue or not. Thank You for your time :) ~Alexis
