So, someone asked if I could write this and I thought what the heck. This fanfiction will be in America's point of view and sometimes Maxon's. I hope you like this, also all rights go to Kiera Cass.
America POV
I can say I am a bad mother. A mother that you would never want. A mother that lied. I have done so much wrong by my sweet girl. My angel that I love so much. It took me twelve years to tell her who her father is. King Maxon. The boy that stole my heart at seventeen to only break it so no man could put it back together. Sure, I am married to Collin.
I love him but not like Maxon. My heart still picks up when I watch the report. I dread the rain because he won't dance with me anymore. I know I did wrong. It's my fault Maxon is married to Kriss. They have two kids together. A son and a daughter. The son's selection is coming up and Adela wants to apply to see if she can get in. She wants to know Maxon. When I told her when she was twelve she was so mad and hurt. It took her a week until she asked why I wasn't married to Maxon.
I remember the night when Maxon asked me to marry him. We weren't going to make love but we did. We made our daughter that night but in the morning, it all went to hell. I remember three months later when I found out that I was indeed with child, I cried and cried. This couldn't be happening. Collin knew that Adela wasn't his but took her anyways.
He was married before me but his wife died in child birth. He had a son-our son Ethan. He wanted Ethan to grow up with a mother and I wanted Adela to grow with a father. We got married shortly after and six months later I had my baby.
Now my baby is nineteen and she is grown up. She looks like her dad in every way. Collin has blonde hair and brown eyes so no one would think that she is Maxon's. But her eyes are a dark brown, her hair blonde like Maxon's. She acts more like Maxon too. She is always so proper and on top of things. She never does anything wrong.
"Mom." Adela comes up to me. Her hair in a bun. She always wears dresses. I do too but being a two is the only reason.
"Yeah." I say. Adela sits down next to me.
"If I join the selection will you be mad?" I look at her puzzled. She looks lost and hurt.
"No, I want you to know Maxon, he is your dad." Adela nods her head. I look down at her hands to see that she has filled out all the paperwork.
"Can you come with me to get my pictures done?" I nod getting up. Adela never had to wear makeup because she never needed it. We walk down to city center where we wait for an hour. She goes in takes her picture coming back out with a smile.
Three long weeks later….
My heart beats fast as I stare at the TV. Maxon is looking at his son with pride. He is telling the country the girls that are picked. Adela has her fingers crossed and she watches him go through the province after province. The funny thing about the prince his middle name is Aspen like Maxon was thanking Aspen for his son. His first Stephan. He looked like his father. His hair is like Maxon's. His eyes too.
"Adela Amberly Singer McKellar." Adela started jumping up and down yelling with joy. Collin squeezed my hand looking at our daughter. She was going to meet her dad and be dating her half-brother. I look at the TV and Maxon is frozen. His jaw tense as he stares at his son. I hear Celeste daughters named called and then Adela is even happier. They are best friends. Collin kisses my cheek saying, "she will be okay." I nod into his chest as he wraps his strong arms around me.
"Maxon won't replace you." I say. Collin tightens his hold on me.
"Maxon will, he is her father." Adela is still jumping up and down and twirling around. I think she might get dizzy but no.
"You will be in the castle in two days if you were selected." Adela just giggles more and more. Collin and I retire to our room early that night. Both of us are not too happy. Collin wraps his arms around my body bringing me into his chest.
"Are you okay?" He asks. I shake my head as I cling to his body. "She will always love us."
"What if Maxon finds out, he can kill me for treason, Collin I could be dead within days." Adela could tell him right away and then he could kill me for treason. Adela would be forced to stay at the palace and die also, because bastard children were not allowed. Maxon could kill us both because I never could ever tell him. It's not like I didn't try. I kept calling the palace again and again but they always said he was busy. I gave up once he was married to Kriss.
The rebel. The rebels knew about me though; they knew about Adela. I have been attacked by them more times than I can count.
"That won't happen, Maxon can't kill my wife. I fund the army America, if he hurts you I will not fund the army." Collin said his voice strong and calm.
"He hates me. He will want me dead after he learns that I have kept him away from his daughter for nineteen years." I cry into my husband shoulder.
"He never answered the phone it's on him." Collin kisses my cheek.
"I just am worried."
"How about I make you stop thinking for a little bit?" Collin asks. I nod at him letting him take over my body. The one thing that Maxon doesn't have on Collin is that Collin knows what to do in bed.
Once we are both too tired to do anything else with our bodies Collin holds me close all night. Saying I will be okay. When morning comes, I feel well rested. We spend the next two days with Adela. She seems sad to leave us but she is happy to meet Maxon. I give her my journal that I wrote while in the castle, it will tell her how to act and be.
Celeste calls me that night going on and on about how the hell did our babies get themselves into this. We both never wanted our children to go into the selection. I wanted my daughter to stay far away from that palace. Luckily King Clarkson died two years ago so my daughter won't need to deal with that.
Once Collin and I got use to the house by ourselves. Ethan is in Europe to study so he only comes at Christmas and my birthday. So now it was Collin and I, we used this to have sex anywhere we thought looked good. The island in the kitchen. The couch. The backward. The shower. The pool. I mean we never really had time to really love each other's bodies before.
When Adela was in me Collin would not touch me. I mean he would sometimes touch down there but he would not enter another woman when she had someone else's child in her. Now we never stopped touching and feeling. We tried for more kids but after Adela was born and what happened I always lost the baby. But that was okay. My kids are enough.
It had been three long weeks since Adela had left and the prince was already down to the elite. Celeste daughter made it and mine.
"My daughter cannot marry anything that came from Kriss." Celeste complained. We both hated Kriss and wanted to kill her at times. Like when she invited everyone else that was in the selection but me. Celeste was so mad and Elise they both didn't go. We stayed in and watched movies. I was eight months along already so going out was not an option.
"She won't, have you talked to her?" I ask.
"Yeah, she likes him! I mean how? We always taught her that the royals sucked."
"She is smart, hey but what about that guy she was seeing?" I ask.
"Oh, she dumped him when she got in." Celeste says.
"She is like her mother." I wink. Celeste and I laugh as the report goes on.
"Hello, Illéa." Gavril starts. He looks so old now. His grey hair. "Prince Stephan has made history today. This has never been done before but the parents of the elite will be invited to the palace to get to know him and his parents. For Lady Adela and Lady Kira their mothers they already know King Maxon and Queen Kriss already. But if I do remember Lady America and Lady Celeste never came to our loved Queen and King wedding, so King Maxon how do you feel about seeing them again?" I think I am going to be sick.
"Well when I was having my selection I liked Lady America and Lady Celeste a lot, they were both beautiful and caring women. I was saddened when they could not attend my wedding but that was a long time ago and I just want to know what they did with their lives. I know they have had two beautiful daughters but what else?" Maxon says.
"Lady Kira, Lady Adela what have your mothers been up too?" Gavril asks. Celeste swears under her breath. Both our girls look up, faces red.
"My mother Mrs. McKellar has had a wonderful life. My brother and I are proud of her. After she nearly got killed after the selection she went on to help other people, fives, sixes, sevens and even eights that people attack. She has clinics for them all over the country. She made something good after something bad. She is amazing." Adela says.
"I had no idea she was attacked; did they guy ever get arrested?" Gavril asks. I feel sick when Adela looks to the ground.
"We are not allowed to say his name around mom, I think she is watching this right now. He was someone close to her, she didn't much care for him but what he did to her, because of something so stupid. Mom still shakes when someone says his name. He never got caught. I have no idea what he did to her, but she never says anything. My dad knows but he won't say anything either. It had something to do with trying to kill me. I was still in my mother and she was walking home after work. My dad hated that she worked." Adela sighs. "My mother was hated by the country for saying that she thought the caste should be removed. Many angry twos. All I know is he wanted her to pay for opening her mouth and she did. I was born early and almost died. After that my dad had guards with my mom at all times, still to this day."
"Did you ever meet him?" Gavril asks.
"No, I only know his name."
"And what about your mother Lady Kira." Celeste turned off the TV.
"What did your daughter just do?" Celeste asks. I look up at her tears rolling down my face.
"She just told the whole country her grandfather tried to have me killed but failed." I whisper.
"King Clarkson is in hell now for what he did." Celeste mumbles. I look down at my hands.
"I hope, but what if Maxon starts asking her questions?" Celeste looks at me, her eyes big.
"She wanted him to know, she wants him to pay."
"That doesn't sound like my daughter." I say right away. Celeste nods but her eyes look like they are thinking.
"Adela has been stuck in that palace without telling a single soul that Maxon is her father, he looks like a good dad what if she's mad. I mean Collin is great but she knows the story. That you tried to tell Maxon but he wouldn't bother talking to you. Maybe she wants him to know every bad thing that's happened to you, all the times Kriss tried to kill you. She wants him to pay." I shake my head and close my eyes.
"Celeste, she is going to get us killed for treason."
"No she won't." Celeste says. "She is smart like her mom." I nod my head but fear takes hold of my body. That fear holds me until I am in the car on the road to the palace.
"Honey, he won't find out." Collin says kisses my cheek.
"But I just feel so powerless."
"You don't need to Maxon won't lay a finger on you." Collin brings me so I am wrapped around his warm arms.
"Did you remember to pack her photo stuff, she wants." I ask.
"Yeah, it's in the back." Lucy says. Oh, Lucy quit her job at the palace to come help me with the kids. She hated working for Kriss and then Anne and Marry came too. They have less work to do and more money. They only come to the house when it needs cleaning or I need help getting ready for an event. Besides that, they live their lives. They all insisted on coming because they wanted to help me get ready for everything. I couldn't say no. Collin is making us have our own guards because he does not trust Kriss.
"You look beautiful today." Collin says. I look at him giving him a little kiss.
"I try."
"Guys stop being cute." Anne yells. We all laugh as we pull up to the palace. Then all of us go silent. Collin kisses my cheeks and pulls me out of the car. We walk up the long steps slowly. Once we open the door we see Adela. She is in a pink dress. It's short but not too short. Her hair is in a braid. She smiles when she sees us. But when she comes running to us it's weird. She is always proper and this isn't proper.
"Daddy." She yells throwing her arms around him. They hug for a minute then she hugs me.
"Hi, dear." I smile.
"Mom we hate being called dear." She rolls her eyes.
"Good this place hasn't changed you too much." Maxon clears his throat. I look up to see him staring at me. His eyes looking at every part of me. I have aged better than Kriss which makes me a little too happy. Maxon takes a step forward. Adela moves away to her dad's side-Collin's side. Maxon wraps me in a hug. I am taken aback and don't hug back.
"Good to see you old friend." Maxon smiles. I think that I must be in a different world. Maxon is nice to me.
"It's nice to see you again, Maxon-King Maxon." I correct myself. Maxon looks hurt for a second but smiles on.
"And this must be your husband." Maxon puts his hand out. Collin shakes it but doesn't looked thrilled.
"Collin McKellar." Collin says.
"It's nice to meet you." Maxon says "Your daughter is amazing."
"Mom did you bring…" I hold up my hand.
"Yes, we packed everything." Adela smiles and then Kira comes up. "Your mom will be here tomorrow, your brother, I don't even know but he is now being sent to your grandparents for a month."
"A month in hell?" I nod. "Oh, I wish I was there."
"Do you and Celeste hang out often?" Kriss comes up.
"They are like best friends; they do everything together. I mean they are joint at the hip." Kira smiles.
"Yes, we are." I say. Kriss looks hurt.
"So, how are you?" I look to see Prince Stephan come up.
"Good, we are happy that our son is at Oxford and has the highest grades in his classes." Okay, call me a proud mama because I am.
"Really? How old is he?"
"Twenty-one." I say.
"Oh," Kriss says. She knows he isn't mine. Prince Stephan comes up shaking my hand.
"Your daughter is amazing." He says.
"I hope you aren't falling in love with her now." I say.
"Maybe." I feel like throwing up. "But just the sister type of love." He whispers.
"Good, I have to go rest a little bit, the flight was long." I grab Collin's hand.
"I have to inform Maxon about our guards." Collin says. I nod giving him a kiss then walking to… "Lucy." I call. Lucy comes up to me and Kriss gives me an evil look. "Did you find my room?"
"Yes, it's your old one." I nod. My daughter claims she has stuff to do and Kira has a date with the prince. I go into my room going straight to the bed. But then I see the garden and need to go see it. I hop off the bed and go running.
I go to the bench and breathe in the air. I missed this place. The way it made me feel. I feel like I am seventeen again. I hear footsteps coming. I open my eyes to see Maxon. His hands are in his pockets walking to me.
"You look like you did when it was my selection." Maxon says. "I love watching you in the garden. You always look at peace." Maxon sits beside me. "I haven't sat on this bench for seventeen odd years."
"It's a good bench." I say.
"So my son and your daughter." Maxon starts. I stuck up my hand.
"No, that would never work."
"My thoughts too," Maxon says. He places his hand on my knee. I grow still with his touch. "Your husband is wonderful. He has been good to you." I had no idea what Maxon was talking about. "Do you love him?"
"I married him, didn't I?"
"That's not what I mean."
"Yes, I love him." Maxon comes down in front of me on one knee.
"America are you in love with him." I shook my head. "Be with me. It's been to many years and I love you more every day."
"Maxon, what are you talking about?" I ask.
"Stephan and Lynn are not my children; I love them like my own but Kriss can't give me children. I want to be happy with you. I love your daughter and will love your son. America marry me?"
"Maxon I am married." My hands touch his hands "I'm happy. My kids are perfect and kind. My husband loves me for me."
"I love you, America with all my heart. Please marry me." Maxon comes up and kisses me. His lips are better than I remember. I pull back because this is wrong.
"What will happen with Kriss?" I ask.
"Kriss is a rebel, she will die." Maxon says like it's no big deal.
"Don't you love her at all?" I ask.
"No, not the way I should."
"Why do you want me?" I ask.
"Because I can't live without you anymore." Maxon says. "Will you marry me?" He pulls out a ring and my heart beats hard. I don't know what to say.
So that is the first chapter hope you like! Please, please review. I want to know if you like it. See you soon.