6/27/2010
My life… well it is very hard to explain. It is crazy, complicated and confusing. But that is just the beginning. The most recent crazy/complicated/confusing event just happened about 15 minutes ago in my own driveway.
Here is how it began: this guy Alex and I were just simply going to go to the park to toss with our lacrosse sticks. Then, we went to the playground to swing. After that, we got ice cream at this place called Aromas. He drove me home and after he put his car into park, he planted three kisses on me. I am not even sure I really like this guy! We went out last summer but I was not expecting another relationship with him. I have never really stopped liking him though. It just took me by surprise. I am afraid that I will doubt myself and then end up hurting him again. I have no idea what to do.
Maybe I should start at the beginning. You might more easily understand how my mind works. I am sixteen years old. I have short blonde hair and blue eyes. I am completely ugly, I could lose a few pounds, and I have braces, even though my friends think differently.
I was bullied all grade school. Life sucked back then. But then again, it has not improved much.
My parents did not get along very well my freshman year of high school. They fought, tears were shed. My brothers worried themselves. Whatever. They still do not get along that great, but we survive.
I hate this ^
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Happiness and sanity comes and goes in my life like storms on a hot summer's day. I never know when it will last for more than ten minutes. I know it is over when I hear my boss give me a 419.
It was always my dream job to be a crime scene investigator. It was also my dream to marry the most amazing guy. Things do not always turn out how you want them to. I am only 24 but single. I know I have a lot of time to sort things out with a guy, but I have no hope. Not a single relationship has ever worked out. They always end badly.
I arrive at the crime scene with a fellow CSI, Bryan. We walk up to the coroner and he informs us that the woman has two gun shot wounds to the back of the head. The gun is in her hand. She is identified as Grace McCoy.
There is no way this is a suicide. The murderer probably wanted it to look like one, but why would a girl shoot herself in the back of the head? Also, when women usually kill themselves, they prefer something that would not mess up their appearance, such as an overdose.