It has been 1 month since Clary and Jace escaped Sebastian's clutches. Clary is hiding something, something dark..
Everyone thinks that she's fine but she's not.
Something bad happened while Jace was under Sebastian's control back in the apartment
What will happen when Sebastian kidnaps Clary again?
Will she ever be the same...
This is my first fanfiction ever so please go easy on me and leave a FOLLOW :)
This story is rated M and contains mentions of rape and incest so if that bothers you don't read!
Disclaimer: I don't own The mortal instruments or its characters
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Clary's POV
It's been 1 month since Clary and Jace broke free from Sebastian's clutches.
Clary sits in a small cozy chair watching the rain pouring down. The rain falls steadily down in sync with her tears.
Memories kept coming back, things that she wished she could forget.
Flashes of a tall broad man with white hair and eyes as dark as the night.
eyes you could get lost in if you looked too long.
She closed her eyes taking a deep breath trying to forget the palms of his hands squeezing her hips
She hadn't been able to sleep in a long time. There was no comfort of sleep, only nightmares, and hallucinations of her brother.
As much as she wants to forget she couldn't block out the images that would haunt her every time she closed her eyes.
Her small body is pinned underneath him, her body touching every part of his.
She could hear him let out a growl in pure lust.
He held her wrists in an iron grip over her head as she continued to struggle against the heavy weight of his body.
All of the sudden he leaned down next to her face breathing in her scent.
"You are mine my Clarissa Adele" he whispered in her ear while grinding his hips into her.
Clary's eyes widened in fear.
"N-oo I don-t belong to anyone" Clary stuttered as terror started to corrupt her body.
Before he could respond she quickly brought up her knee where she knew it hurt the most.
He let out a painful grunt in response as he staggered back from her, just enough so that she could push him off and swiftly run towards the door.
She was almost there when something slammed into her from behind making her crash right into the door with a BANG.
Everything was dark for a moment and dizziness washed over her in waves.
She tried to regain her vision by blinking away the black dots that was clouding her eyes. In her blurry state, she could still see the black combat boots walking towards her in heavy strides.
"Little sister why can't you just be a good girl," Sebastian said as he towered above her.
She was suddenly yanked up roughly by the front of her shirt and she could do nothing but to hang in embarrassment.
Her fearful eyes met his demanding cold ones.
"Do you know what happens to bad girls Clarissa?" he said slowly with a dark glint in his eyes.
She tried to hide the terror creeping into her body. All she could do was shake in fear as no words escaped her mouth.
Her brother in annoyance at her weak behavior continued,
"They get punished"
Her brother suddenly walks across the room making her let out a gasp.
He threw her down onto her queen sized bed at the institute before once again settling on top of her.
She tried to fight him off but her brother was ready for her futile attempts.
He swiftly grabbed her wrists and tied them together with a binding rune.
No no no this can't happen Clary thought as her arms were now tied.
She tried to pull at her wrist but the burning made her attempts useless.
"Please Sebastian" she managed to croak out breathing heavy.
She couldn't move an inch with her brother's weight on top of her small body.
Jonathan stopped his ministrations "I want you to call me by my real name" he says huskily.
He managed to take her clothes off and she was met with a flirtatious smile, as her brother's eyes moved up and down her bare body.
She felt her face flare up in embarrassment, not even Jace had seen her naked yet.
'Jonathan Stop" she tried firmly.
Jonathan's hands didn't stop through even as she begged.
"Stop crying my dear sister, can't you see that we are meant for each other?" he said while caressing her cheek.
Reality hit her when her brother was undressed. Jace wasn't going to save her this time.
She felt a new form of panic take over her as she thrashed and screamed in his strong grip.
"No one will hear your screams Clarissa, Its just you and me now," he said between kisses.
Tears run down her large emerald eyes as she tried to plead with him.
Back to reality, she didn't notice how hard she was grabbing her chair. Her knuckles starting to turn white from the pressure and her breathing came out hard and uneven.
She tried to steady her breathing but it was too late as more flashbacks reached her mind.
"Jonathan please stop," Clary said fearfully.
She could feel the vibrating of her brother's large chest as he let out small laughs "But you are so ready for me sister, this is what you want, what you crave" he finished.
"You Are Mine" and with that, he swiftly entered her.
She felt a tearing sensation and the pain that came with it was unbearable.
She cried out as he started to move slowly against her.
"N-oo more Jonathan it h-urts" she cried frantically.
She was met by a stroke of pleasure as Jonathan brought a hand down between her legs.
Clary tried to shake away the horrible flashback that haunted her. She tried pulling at her hair to make it stop.
Never in her life had she felt so utterly disgusted and filthy.
Why did Valentine have to make him a monster?
Jonathan had taken away a piece of her soul, he had finally broken her.
She could feel bile rise up in her throat, and she barley made it to the bathroom before she threw up in the toilet.
After an hour of sitting on the cold bathroom floor leaning against the toilet seat, she heard a soft knock on the bathroom door.
"Clary are you in there?" Jace said with worry in his voice.
It's like her heart stopped beating "I'm fine i'll be out in a minute," she replies hastily.
She composes herself and flushes the toilet before washing off her face in the sink.
Her eyes that used to spark a shining emerald green was now a dull color, and her cheekbones were now more visible.
She takes a deep breath.
I can do this, she repeats over and over in her head.
She can't let him know what happened in the apartment with her brother, it would destroy him.
She had to keep this a secret, she could not stand the shame if everyone knew.
So before she opened the door she made sure to plaster a smile on her face.
I can do this…..
So this is my first chapter I'm sorry if some of you guys didn't like that Jonathan actually got his way with Clary back in the apartment. But it's just an idea I had for quite some time now.
Please review and let me know if you liked it.