Disclaimers: Sadly not mine. Lyrics belong to others as well.

Author: CrimsonWhisper(formely wizard inc.)

Authors notes: All the song lyrics belong to others, and since I'm going to use a lot of diff lyrics im not going to credit each set of lyrics but id be happy to provide song/CD info for anyone interested. This fic is for my girl Kelly, thanks for all the help baby doll, and don't worry there will be 'tongues and naughty bits' eventually :):) . I love you sweetheart.

"Even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme, out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find you and I collide.."

She wanted to know, she had to. Why had Olivia taken one of the bullets for her. Her gut told her it was more than just the job. She would never forget her words, or the look on Olivia's face as she lay there bleeding. With no care to her own wounds, Olivia had held her, desperately trying to stop the bleeding. The wounds would have taken her to the grave had Olivia not taken the brunt of the attack. "Hold on sweetheart, please don't leave me." Those words had stuck with Alex.

"Olivia, why did you do it?" Olivia looked at her thoughtfully, 'because your everything to me, because I was falling for you, free falling without a parachute, because I..' Olivia shook her head to shake the errant thoughts.

"I would die for you, you know." she answered. Alex lowered her gaze from Olivia's, her long blond hair covering her face. She felt choked with emotion.

"I know"

"The worst is over now and we can breath again, I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away…

"Olivia?"

Olivia stopped, turning her head towards Alex.

"What?" , she ground out, trying hard to keep the pain from her voice.

"Why do you look at me like that?"

"Like what Alex?", Olivia questioned as she turned to face her fully.

"Like your haunted." Olivia let out a small harsh chuckle.

"Because I am." Although a little voice told her to look away, she kept her gaze locked with Olivia's. "By what?" she asked softly. Olivia held her gaze for a few moments, then she shut them and when they opened again they were wet with unshed tears.

"By what?" Alex asked again.

"By a heart full of you." Olivia replied.

"I lie awake and try to hard not to think of you, but who can decide what they dream?"

Olivia stood on the roof of the precinct, silent and still, letting the cool rain drops slide over her skin. The pieces were coming undone and Olivia could no longer hold back her tears. What she wouldn't give to ease the pain, to hold Alex in her arms. 'hah' she thought bitterly, 'it would only make the slow burn worse, letting her in.' It seamed easier really, to build a mystery around the possessive hold Alex has on her being. It seemed that with every case, with every victim she slipped further, and it was a long way home.

"Liv?" The soft query broke her from her reverie. She turned to see Alex standing before her, hugging herself if only to prevent the cold, wet wind from seeping inside.

"Liv, you ok?" she asked with concern. Olivia turned her face skyward, as if the rain could hold back the truth that threatened to spill from her lips. 'I want you, I want to surround you and never let you go.'

"Yeah, just needed some air, lets get outta this rain."

Alex looked at her a moment longer, a painful curiosity betraying her eyes, then she nodded and turned away.

"I look in the mirror and see your face, if I look deep enough, so many things inside that are just like you are taking over.."

Alex felt overwhelmed, Olivia had merely come to discuss details from the case they were working on, and somehow they ended up saying so much more, between the words that they spoke. She needed some air, before the urge to loose herself in Olivia overwhelmed her. Before Alex reached the door Olivia's hand on her shoulder stopped her. With a shallow breath she turned around. Olivia's hand up to caress her cheek, her other hand pulled their bodies closer. Her forehead came to rest against Alex's , her lips hovered uncertainly. Alex could feel Olivia's unsteady breath against her skin. Her heart felt like it was going to beat right out of her chest. A slight fear started uncoiling inside of her. A fear that this was just a cruel dream of her hearts coincidence, it immobilized her.

"So this is what its like to burn." Olivia said softly. Alex shuddered, she was so close, the urge to bring their lips together almost overwhelmed her as she spoke her next words.

"I wish it didn't hurt like this"

"Me too Alex."

"Like a bad star , I'm falling faster down to her, she's the only one who knows, what it is to burn.."