I dont own, Harry Potter and its characters, JK Rowling does :)
And the song isnt mine either, its "Iris" by The Goo Goo Dolls.
r e v i e w :)
Whole.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
He stared into the flames lost in thought. He longed to be with her, happy and whole. But he knew it could never be. He was, damaged and well… dangerous. He couldn't bear the thought of her living with his reputation, living with him… But, she didn't care. Shed said it plenty of times before…
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
His mined turned to the days when Tonks first joined the order. She was very eager and clumsy, but refreshing. They became friends but nothing more. But one night at Grimmauld place he could sense something was different. As he laughed at her jokes and returned her many smiles, he could feel goose bumps forming on his skin. He couldn't, he wasn't to get involved, he wasn't going to let himself get attached. And with all the strength he could muster, he pushed her from his mind…
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
But the absence of Tonks face in his mind forced the worst memories to replay in his head. The night he thought he'd lost his best friends, flashed horribly in his head. The night he got bitten by Fenrir Greyback, came soon after. The transformations he suffered once a month, the things that made him who he was. He didn't want these things to define who he was, but his grief was too overwhelming, too strong. Tonks didn't need that in her life; she needed someone whole, not like him. If only he could be that man…