Dear Diary,

I love watching "Ghost Whisperer" as I feel 'Melinda' and I are connected. But in the serial Melinda has such a happy ending, I mean everybody is able to understand her and nobody gets hurt. Well here is where I'm different. My story doesn't come with a happy ending…..

I can see ghosts too. People never understood me and neither did my parents nor my sister Stacey or my older brother James. They thought I was crazy and they took me to a psychologist; the doctor's name was Doc Gregory. I thought she was my friend who wanted to help me but I was wrong….the medicines she gave me made me woozy and sleepy. I found out later on that she also thought I was crazy. I felt so betrayed that I stopped talking to everyone especially my parents. I decided that I will leave the house one day…… I get fed up of the daily taunting, the doctors, people calling me crazy, people laughing at me and stuff. I mean who could tolerate that? It was easy for Melinda she had friends and her husband Jim who always knew what to do……but here it's a different story, I have nobody to listen to me or even understand me. I was different and felt I don't belong here……

You want to know what happened?...well before that I have to give you my introduction.

My name is Amanda Millers. I'm 17 and I have one older brother named James and an older sister named Stacey. I have long brown hair I'm slim with brown eyes and I'm fair and I've been told I'm pretty by the guys at school. I am an ace student. I live in New Jersey, and I can see ghosts! Yup like Melinda but she sees them on daily basis I see them occasionally. I also try to help them as I can but sometimes the people are not so understanding…..

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Due to my special powers I have no friends. I only have….I mean had….my grandfather. He's dead but his spirit stays with me. We often talk and I tell him all my problems and he only smiles and gives me just one answer, "Amanda my darling, don't let a few people stop you from what you do. You know you are doing the right thing and even God knows it so don't let them stop you. Remember this, if you stop now then what will happen later on when the things become challenging?" "But grandpa…."

"Who are you talking to Amanda?"

"Gran….I mean nobody mom…"

"Amanda , honey, are you all right? "No mom I'm fine!"

"Are you sure?...well then if that's it then get ready for school you'll be late."

I thought about gradpa's remarks and I didn't understand I mean what could be more challenging then this? He always tells me this. Well I came to know when it was too late. Here's what happened one typical day……



"Earth calling Amanda come in Amanda!" the bus driver shouted.

The driver's shout brought me to reality. I was the last person to get off the bus….mumbling sorry I got off the bus.

As I was walking towards my locker I saw the most popular girl Tracey Myers and the most handsomest guy Ned Boxers talking(more like stuck together with glue if you ask me). Tracey was beautiful had long blonde hair had the figure and face of a model (what I wouldn't give to be in her shoes) and Ned the best football player in the whole school with curly brown hair and cute brown eyes….fair complexion, height 6 foot and… who the heck was that white faced guy all slimy and wet standing near them in red T-shirt and blue jeans looking at me? and…ooooppssss!! Owww! I didn't see the locker door open and hit my head…Oww! The couple who's attention I did not want started laughing at me. Embarrassed I quickly took out my books, shut the locker and walked quickly away.

And the slim guy well he also started following me, "You…You can see me!". I pretended not to notice as I started to run. "No, please you have to help me please! Don't pretend you can't hear me I know you can!"

"Go away", I said through my clenched teeth. "No! I will not! You have to help me please."

He wouldn't leave me alone. I sat on my desk and said, "Go away."

"Excuse me Amanda, but did you say something?"

"No, Mrs. Thomas." "Well good, then get ready for your math's test."

"Please, why wont you look at me?." Slime guy got angry. "I won't leave you until you help me!!"

WHHOOOSSHHH!! The entire class shook and I screamed as he overturned my table. His eyes got bloody red as he whispered in my ear, "Amanda if you don't help me, I'm never leaving you!' with that promise he vanished.

"Amanda….Amanda…..are you all right?"

I shook my head and answered, "Yes Mrs. Thomas."

"Some earthquake we got" , she said while helping me up. Yeah some quake I thought to myself.

You know I hated this…I really did….now I have Slime guy who will haunt me for the rest of my life if I don't help him… he was the reason why I got into this mess. How was I to know that by helping him I would lose the one's I trusted? I sometimes wonder how Melinda would have felt…she would have found some way but me…well…that's a different story…