TITLE: How Am I Supposed To Live Without You

AUTHOR: Gill Shaw

RATING: PG

GENRE: Short Story A/U

DISCLAIMER: Scarecrow and Mrs. King is the property of Warner Brothers and Shoot the Moon Productions. Any other characters belong to me!

FEEDBACK: Positive feedback is always welcome and appreciated. I don't mind negative feedback, provided you leave your email address. If you feel the need to point out errors and typos, please do it via email). Thanks! THANKS: A very big thanks to my wonderful beta Daphne McClenning

SUMMARY: Don't want to give it away so will just say that I hope you enjoy it. Shows how things could have been very different. First fanfic so please be gentle. R&R. Reference is made to the song "How am I supposed to live without you" by Michael Bolton.

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I could hardly believe it When I heard the news today I had to come and get it straight from you They said you were leavin' Someone's swept you heart away

As soon as Lee arrived back to the Agency he knew what he had to do. His time in Europe had made it so much clearer. After two and a half years of working with Amanda he realised he had grown to care about her a great deal maybe on some level he loved her. Sure he had taken the first European case that had came along but only because he was unsure of the new feelings he was experiencing and their near kiss had scared him even more. Could Lee "the no commitment, care free bachelor" really be falling for an all American housewife?

As he walked through the Bullpen he thought to himself "If only I had known that the case was going to take 6 months then I would never have gone. Quick job, my ass. Dr. Smyth was going to pay for this one. Everything had gone down hill from the second he agreed to take the case. When Billy told him he had to leave immediately and was under contact ZERO he was too late to pull out and never got the chance to say good-bye to Amanda.

When Lee reached Billy's office he knocked and walked straight in. He wanted to see Amanda as soon as he could. He sat down and waited for Bill to finish with his call.

"Of course, I'll be there. I wouldn't miss it for the world. Yes, I'll be sure to let him know. Good-bye" After he hung up Billy greeted Lee.

"Welcome back, Scarecrow, thought you had grown tired of old DC." he chuckled.

"Could we get on with this, I would like to see Amanda before she goes home for the night, " said Lee 'Although if I had to drop by her house would it really be such a bad thing? ' He thought to himself.

"Sorry Lee, but Amanda isn't in today and won't be due back for another month or so. That was her on the phone there. There's no easy way to tell you this because I know how much Amanda means to you but...

"But what Billy? What's happened? Lee was growing more anxious by the second. Had she been hurt in the field without Lee to back her up? Or was she leaving because she had found something better to do than the spy business? Finally his questions were answered after what had seemed an eternity.

"She won't be back until late august because she'll be on her honeymoon!! Amanda's getting married Lee! "

"And he's quiet a catch even if I do say so myself, " interrupted Francine as she burst into Billy's office. " I never thought getting drugged on the simplest assignment and landing yourself in the hospital would get such a fine doctors attention but, then again I never thought such a fine doctor would be attracted to a package deal !!! "

"Can it, Francine warned Billy.

Lee's head was spinning from all this new information. But he knew what he had to do. He would go home, freshen up and head over to Maplewood Drive.

TBC