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Chapter 1- Just Maybe
I could feel the warm liquid starting to bath the rest of my arm as I stared at the direction of its flow. The crimson fluid trickled down on to my leg, dampening my holy jeans. The pain that I feel is so settling that my only reaction to it is quietly leaning back and relaxing in the ecstasy. My head rested on a rock behind me while I just kept my wrist on my lap. Next to me I could hear the sound of a creek, the rapids crashing against the shores.
-Why am I always so weak?- I thought to myself. I, Arisa Uotani, the bad ass yankee from Kaibara High. I could never fight back against my dad. I could never stop myself from lying to the ones I cared about, never stop lying to him.
I sighed loudly, glancing quickly at my wrist to be sure that I hadn't lost too much blood. But what did it matter? So what if I died? Whether or not anyone cared about me, they would eventually get over it.
I sighed again, looking through the trees to where I could see a small light in the distance. Yes, I was trespassing on Sohma property and the house I was looking at belongs to Shigure, Yuki and Kyo Sohma's cousin. It was also the home of my dear friend Tohru.
The wind started to pick up and it became evident that it was fall: I could hear the fallen leaves on the ground dancing. The blood on my wrist kept coming, so I sluggishly rolled over on to my stomach and placed my wrist in the freezing cold water, watching it turn a dull red and drift away. I had my head on it's side, elevated to see over a rock next to my face, but now I was too tired to watch myself be drained and frozen in the night. I placed my head on the ground, leaving my hand in the water.
Maybe I had let myself bleed out too long. Maybe I should have stopped it earlier. My eyes could no longer stay open; I was too tired to move and all my body wanted to do was rest.
If it weren't for my father's constant abuse, I probably wouldn't be here right now. If my life would have just worked out like Kyoko said it would, maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't have been so lonely. Maybe I wouldn't have to resort to cutting myself. Just maybe.
My mind began to wonder off into a dream. I smiled, ah, another dream of what my life could have been like, if I didn't make the wrong decisions, I had been born into a different family, if I had someone that could love me. Not the type of love Saki and Tohru game me, but intimate warming love from the opposite sex. The only guys in my life were either to far away or too set on pricking fights with me. Yeah, that pretty boy Yuki and that dumbass Kyo…
Kyo… My mind loved wandering to fantasies to him but I knew he loved Tohru, my dearest friend…
In the background of this fantasy, I could hear footsteps on leaves and twigs along with the movement of tree branches. How odd, in my dream I was in a beautiful courtyard by a fountain and bushes. How were these sounds there?
"Uotani?" I heard it all around me but everywhere I looked, I could not find the person I knew that the voice belonged to.
"Arisa Uotani?" I heard it again but now I began to panic. My dream was slowly slipping away. I was finally hearing Kyo Sohma calling out to me and I was unable to come to his call. My vision of the walls and paintings around me started to fade away. I reached out my right hand, pitifully hoping that I could hold onto this false reality for just a little while longer.
Cold splashes of water began falling on top of me and something soft and warm in closed my arms. My dream world completely faded and I could feel my surrounding, the forest. My eyes shout open and my body bolted upright. My arm that I had earlier rested in the water was being held by someone.
I turned my head and stared into the most amazing thing; Kyo Sohma's eyes. But they did not hold the usual angry, alert look but instead a look of worry, sadness, and confusion. I could do nothing but stare into those eyes until panic consumed me.
"Arisa... What the hell...?" Kyo began looking down at her wrist, which was a pale white-blue and bore the six new cuts she inflicted that evening.
"Were you trying to kill yourself?" Kyo, always straight to the point. He looked up at me again, gripping my hand harder.
I was still so shocked that I didn't know what to say. I wasn't intending to kill myself but how had it looked to him?
"I... I fell asleep laying here..." I began but I started to lose it.
"What the hell does it matter to you orange-top?!?! Why do you always have to get into other people's business?!" I shouted, completely changing my attitude. I had to get him away, there was nothing he could do for me.
Not anymore.
Kyo's POV
I found her lying there next to the creek I often passed on my evening walks. I thought she was dead, lifeless next to the stream. All I could think to do was to go to her, the girl that always acted so tough, so untouchable.
Her wrists were cut deep and from the looks of her condition, she lost too much blood to function. She had to be transfered to a hospital.
Once I got her out of the water, I sat myself next to her, pulling her onto my lap, elevating her head. But all she did was look up at me with those stone eyes, but I could see. The longer we kept eye contact, the more I could see her shield cracking and her emotions pouring out. Before long, her eyes shut and she grabbed my shirt with her free hand and brought herself closer to my chest. She began to weep, crying warm tears onto me.
If she were to do this even days ago, Kyo would have pushed her away or reveal his secret to her. But now that the curse was lifted, she could be as close to him as he allowed.
Something had definitely gone wrong for her to be this upset. Or was she always this way? I could tell that there were many things she had been hiding, either with her tough attitude or dozens of bracelets.
"Uo-san... Tell me what is going on... You don't have to tell me everything..." I began, stumbling on the right thing to say to her. She stopped sobbing for moments to look up at me with her dark eyes. Though they were drowned in her tears, I could still see the look of a story that she was willing to tell me. But not this time. I just nodded and reached my hand to the back of her head and placed her head back against my chest, but she pushed against me, stopping my force. She continued to stare at me, as though her eyes were telling a story.
Flashback
The room was pitchblack other then a tiny bit of light that came from a streetlight outside the window.
The door to the room suddenly burst open with two figures, one struggling and the other one that cause.
"Let me go you drunk old man!!" The familiar voice of Uotani Arisa yelled, fighting to release her wrists from the man before her.
"Shut up bitch," was all he said before he threw her onto the bed and placed himself on top of her.
"Dad!!" she yelled at him, trying to get him back to reality, even though she knew that he was hardly a father to her.
"Like it matters, you're a worthless daughter, I wouldn't have to resort to this if you didn't kill your mother," He snapped while unbuttoning her pants.
She never asked to be born, she never asked for her mother to die as the result of birthing her. As much as she tried to fight him away, her strength didn't even come close to his. Before she could even find time to scream, to cry, to preform any action toward him, he had already pulled her pants and cotton underwear down to her ankles.
"Stop it!! Let me go!!" She attempted a few last words before he thrusted into her. He had managed to get his own fly unzipped as well.
She screamed out in pain but before it could echo the house, he quickly slapped his hand over her mouther, quieting her cry for help. She could do nothing but jerk under him.
As soon as it started, it ended and she was laying alone on the bed, sore and crying.
"It wouldn't have to be like this if you hadn't been such a worthless child to begin with. Now clean yourself up," he zipped up his pants. "You look disgusting," he walked out of the room.
End of Flashback
I didn't know exactly what to make of this situation. But one thought rose to me.
I smiled down at her and put my free hand on top of her head, running my hair through her silky blonde hair. If I win you have to dye your hair black. I am glad we never went through with any of the bets, her hair was perfect the way it was. The more I looked at her, the more beautiful she looked. When she wasn't beating me up or yelling at me, there was something special about her.
Without taking much time to think, my hand wandered to the ends of her locks and slowly caressed her jaw, slowly advancing onto her chin. With a gentle squeeze, i pulled her chin up lightly before softly placing my lips against hers.
Uotani's POV
My eyes found their way to show surprise, even though I had anticipated what was going to happen. This is what always happened in chick-flicks right? I wanted to laugh inside but was too caught in the moment. His lips felt so nice on mine, so gently, something you wouldn't expect from him, the hot-tempered aggressive orange-top.
Worry settled upon me when he removed his lips and stared back at me. "What the hell did you stop for?" I snapped, not realizing that I was going back to my old defensively harsh voice.
He glared almost nicely. Now how the hell has he pulled that off?
Kyo's POV
To my surprise, she was enjoying this. I didn't need to say anything back but this time she shut her eyes and waited for me. I wasn't going to make her wait. My lips reached down once more and captured hers, still gentle but more hungry then the time before. Our kiss didn't last long before she parted her lips, allowing me to slip my tongue pass her lips.
She laid us back and her hands made their way to the hem of my black shirt. I knew then she didn't want to let go. If she had her choice our bodies would never stop touching and our lips would stay together forever. In my mind I knew it had nothing to do with the fact that it was Kyo Sohma and Arisa Uotani together, it was just a moment and the need to be with someone.
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