Disclaimer: I don't own Slayers
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I was ten years old at the time. My mother just died and my father had locked himself in his room for a week. That's when I decided that I didn't want to fall in love. All that i saw from it was sadness and weakness. I never want to be weak, I'll remain strong. It was during the time my father locked himself in his room. I was outside practicing my swordsman skills. I didn't want to show it but I was sad, and close to crying.
"Your form's off." Luna's voice broke through my thoughts. I stopped and looked over at her. She was sitting on the back porch watching me practice. She stood up and picked up a sword of her own and faced me. I knew what she wanted. A practice match, that's what she ussual wants to do whenever she see's something wrong with my skills. I came at her with all my strength. Right now I didn't really care if was doing it all wrong, I just wanted to relieave my self of the stress I was feeling, right then.
She blocked my attacks with ease, and soon managed to throw the sword from my hand. I fell to the ground in defeate as my sword stabbed into the ground off to the side of me.
"Lina?" Luna sat down next to me putting her hand on my shoulder. After a moment she smiled.
"It's okay to cry you know."
"No it's not!" I snap, "It shows that you're weak! I don't want to be weak!"
"In a way." Luna said, "But sometimes to be strong you have to cry when needed. It takes alot of strength not to cry, but even more to cry. You just have to know when and where, and right now it's one of those times."
"But...I don't want to..."I whisper. I couldn't help it though. I cried. Mother ment so much to me and now she was gone.
"How did your mther die?" Gourry asked. I looked over at him, recalling the memory.
"Trying to protect me." I responded simply. The whole reason I was telling this to Gourry was because he wanted to know why I try to be stronger than others and why I don't want to love. strange conversation ain't it.
"So you don't want to love because it brings weakness. But doesn't it also make you stronger?" Gourry asked I looked over at him.
"What do you mean?" I ask. Gourry shrugged.
"I was hoping you'd know." he said. My face fell.
"I just said that I believe Love is a weakness! Why would I know how it could make you stronger!" I snap.
"Sorry." Gourry said simply. I glare down at him. he can be such an idiot.
"But anyway, " Gourry continued, "Wouldn't loving your family be a weakness?"
"I...I never thought of that." I said rather shocked. And sometimes he can surprise me with actual smart coments. I look up into the sky. It was a clear day, not to hot not to cold, and not a cloud in sight. It was opne of those days where you want to do nothing but relax. There was a lake infront of us that just sparkled in the sunlight like a new sapphire, and it was so clear you could see all the way to the bottom. I sighed and leaned into Gourry.
"Despite what I say...I'm glad I'm in love with you." I say. Gourry smiled and wrapped his arm around me.
"Me too." He said.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I dunno. I was bored. R&R please.