Chapter 1: Reality

Present day 3:00 am

"I have finally understood the reality of it all. I was leaving in a world of fantasy, of princesses and castles. How absurd of me not to understand this before. I think I have even lost my mind in the process; I am going crazy so crazy. What is wrong with me? Is it too hard to understand that this is way too complicated? Is this the end of the beginning or is it finally the end?"

All of these thoughts crossed Emily's mind from one moment to another. This is the 6th time she had been in the hospital this year. There was nothing wrong with Emily, the problem was that little rebel girl she was in love too. The blonde manage to make Emily feel like the world was in her hands, yet it made her feel like the worst piece of shit that had ever existed in the world. How many times more would she have to see her like this? How many times? She was broken, she was not her anymore. In her battle to save the blue eyed blonde she had lost herself. Could it be possible that she was going to quit like others had done in the past. Could it be that she was going to ignore the situation as many of them had already done. Maybe it was time for her to forget about the blonde girl. Maybe this was the time when she would finally stop loving her and be just her friend. Maybe this was the time when she would disappear from the blonde's life and start her life far away in Germany, France or maybe even the USA. Who knew what was going to happened, all she knew was that this was breaking her in pieces.

7:05 pm January 2013

"Are you ok Ms. Fitch" the doctor ask with a serious look in his face

"Yes, I am. Is she ok? What happened?" Asked the redhead worried for her beloved girlfriend.

"Are you aware that Ms. Campbell does drugs?" The look in Emily's face changed immediately. It was impossible, she had promise she had stopped it. She promised she would not do it anymore, for her, for Emily, for them. Why did this have to happen in this specific moment? Why did everything have to be so fucked up?

"She used to" said Emily trying to hold the break in her voice. " She has been clean for a while now. I am not sure how long."

"Well results show different Ms…"

"Matty please stop, I am your friend"'

"Emily, this is serious problem. Ms. Campbell was here 2 months before because she overdosed and when I talked to her I told her that next time she would probably not be as lucky as she was that time. Here we are again and I am not sure what we can do to help her" Matty put his hand on Emily's shoulder and looked her straight in the eyes " I would do everything as possible to save Naomi, you know that Ems, but you have to be aware that this situation is very serious. I had to induce her in a coma so she could be able to survive, yet the chances of her getting out of this mess are limited. She is in a ventilator and her longs are only working to a 10%."

"What does the ventilator has to do with anything? I mean, why did she have to use a ventilator on the first place?"

Matty looked at Emily, hold his breath and sighted trying to think how to answer her question "I guess you haven't seen your girlfriend in a while Emily. She had pneumonia and with the drug abuse all she did was make it worst. When her friend brought her here she was completely hallucinating and she had no idea who she was or what she was doing in here. She was claiming that Russians were trying to get her." Matty looked back to the room to see Naomi on the bed "Emily she was dead for 2 minutes, I almost couldn't bring her back to life. You know she is my friend too. I worry about her, but she has been doing all the wrong decisions. What is worst Emily, is that she has apparently kept us away of her life so we don't bother her with the same subject over and over again."

Matty had been a good friend of Naoms and Emily for a long time now. If he was being serious about the situation it was a sign to be worried. "Why Naomi, why?" asked Emily to herself "what can I do for her Matty? Tell me, what can I do?"

"For now there is nothing to do Ems. I would say just to wait for the best. I promise I will do everything as possible to save her Emily. I know how important she is for you, and you know how important she is for me"

Present day

" Ems,Ems, Emsy.. Emily answer me" Matty was in front of Emily. She was unaware of his presence because she was way to concentrated thinking about the events of 12 months ago.

"How is she Matty?"

"She is doing better. She was able to wake up. Do you want to see her?" What kind of question was that? I mean, Emily wanted to see her but she was so angry that a second voice in her head was telling her to leave Naomi alone. "She wants to see you Ems. You were the first thing, the first person she asked for". Emily nodded and followed Matty to Naomi's room, but that feeling was still growing in her, the feeling of anger"

"Ems" the blonde seemed genuinely happy of seeing her girlfriend "come closer I want to touch you. I need you here close to me". Emily took the sit on the side of Naomi's bed but she avoided any contact with the blonde. "What is wrong Ems?"

"What is wrong? What is wrong? WHAT IS FUCKING WORNG? Are you shitting me Naoms?"

"Calm down Emily this is a hospital. Chill out, I didn't want to offend you"

"Naomi you were supposed to stay away of it. You promised, you gave me your word"

"Well, sorry"

"'well sorry' is that all you have to say? Naomi I am close to lose you, can you understand that?"

Naomi looked away and for a moment Emily felt like slapping her girlfriend right in the face. How could she be so stupid and not realized that she was breaking Emily's heart? How did she dear to treat her like that? After all they had been together Emily felt like she deserved more. She didn't want tons of money or houses, or materialistic things; she wanted her girlfriend and a future with her. Was that too much to ask? Was it too much to ask for a clean girlfriend who would put everything for their relationship?

"Ems stop it please. It is nothing so serious I have survive to this before"

"Yes and fucking Cook did a great job in covering you in that one too. You were supposed to be clean but no he had to help you to go back to the bad habits right babes? Well then fuck off Naoms, FUCK THE HELL OFF"

"Ems, please"

"No Naomi it is too late. I hope you enjoy your happiness, I am done". With those words Emily got out of Naomi's room, walking slowly little tears were making their way down the redhead's cheeks. She was suffering once again for love. Maybe this was the end, no, this was the end. Naomi and she were not meant to be together, at least not anymore. It was time for her to try to build up her life again. She was heartbroken and desolated. She started running and running until she got to a house with a blue door. She knocked at the door and a beautiful brunette opened the door for her.

"Effy I can't, I fucking cant anymore" Even when Effy was Naomi's best female friend she had a great link and past with Emily. She stretched her arms to her and before Emily could say anything else she kissed her in a hard but yet sweet manner. Emily kissed her back and the brunette made sure to hug the redhead with all her strength. "I am here Ems, it is ok. You are more than welcome to stay here" with that Emily came into the house and the brunette closed the door behind them.

Effy knew Emily and her had no future together, they were just part of the past. This didn't mean that Emily was not a very important part of her life. Effy loved Emily like she had never loved anyone before but now her love for her was the love of an ex- lover. She loved her with all her strength and she would be there to support her in these difficult moments. She would support her once more so she would be able to find her way back to Naomi.

"How did you screw up this time Naoms? How did you screw up this time?" was all the brunette was thinking.