"Seriously, he turned around, giving me that look, the one where I know he wants something, he rarely gives it to me if I'm honest, but I know it, he knows how to get to me and does it so well, just with one look." Sara cursed as she got out of the steaming hot shower. She had left work after staying late with Grissom, trying to help him finish his god damn paperwork because he had a seminar he had to go off to this afternoon. Leaving Catherine in charge for three days. "Of course I couldn't say no. And he knew that, Ah! That man!" She had been hurt too many times by the very man she was cursing, in fact right now she was hurting because he couldn't even realise what he was doing to her, he'd say jump and of course she couldn't say no. She could never say no to that man. To Gil Grissom.
Drying down her body, she reached out for her coconut body butter, smoothing it over her freshly shaved legs, and up over her well toned stomach, making sure her body was moisturized before she had to get dressed and pick up Hayden from school, yes, Sara Sidle was a mother of a beautiful blue eyed curly haired boy who was now six years old. And thanks to Grissom she hadn't been able to get any sleep before picking him up. She knew that he was a good kid that would let her have a nap while he was doing his homework.
Pulling on her underwear, then her black pants with a red vest top, she ran a brush through her hair, shaking her head as she looked at her reflection, she looked tired, lately she had been tired a lot but she put it down to overworking and lack of sleep like this morning. Sighing she slipped her feet in her shoes, grabbing her cell phone and keys, she pulled on a light jacket and sunglasses before heading out to her car.
Getting to the school, Sara got out and rested her back against the side as she watched the doors, knowing she had a few minutes to wait, she ran her fingers through her hair and just took time to breathe, then she saw him, the one that she had carried for nine months and cared for ever since, her son Hayden Arthur Sidle-Grissom. Yes that's right, he was Grissom's son too.
The result of a drunken night in San Francisco, of course, Grissom knew he had a son, they even spent most weekends together, Grissom was a hands on father, he had promised Sara that he would be, but Hayden loved spending time at his dad's coming back with stories of what they had been doing or what he had learned about bugs, or science. Grissom was all about teaching him new things, Hayden was like his parents, more of a bookworm rather than an athlete, although he did run like his mom, that was about the only event he would take part in school sports days.
"Mom can I go see dad, I got this book from Miss Andrews and I want to show him." Hayden asked as he approached her, his hands holding out the book about volcanoes to her.
Sara smiled and shook her head, "Sorry buddy, dad is out of town at that seminar today. But when he gets back on Wednesday I can arrange dad to pick you up instead of me." She said opening the back door for him to climb into his booster seat.
"Okay, that would be cool, can I go have dinner with dad too?" He asked with a huge smile on his face as he pulled on his seatbelt, making sure it clicked he picked the book back up and looked at his mom as she sat in the drivers seat.
"I guess, since he's the better cook and all." She said playfully making fun of what Hayden frequently said to her when she made him food that he didn't like.
"YES! I get to have meat with dad!" He grinned, it was the only time he did, Sara never had meat in the house after that night she had spent out in the yard with Grissom and the pig.
Shaking her head, she put the car into gear and began to drive away from the school. "You two are welcome to meat, just keep it away from me." She said shuddering slightly as she looked back at him via the mirror.
"Mom we know you don't like it, that's why dad always making sure when I'm with him he gives me meat." Hayden smirked then looked down at the book. "You know, I have a project coming up, Miss Andrews told us about it today, we have to make a volcano!" He said excitedly. "But dad and I already did that so I'll just take that one into school." He said as matter of factly.
Leaving the meat conversation there, she listened to her son get excited about science, she loved that her son was so passionate about it all, but did feel a little hurt that she hadn't had the chance to help Hayden with the volcano project, not voicing her feelings she smiled covering it up. "Sounds good, dad will drop it off for you I'm sure." She said softly as she pulled into the store car park. "Lets go sunshine, we need more food in the house." She laughed a little as she opened the drivers door and got out of her seat then opened Hayden's door, letting him out then closing it and going into the store.
As the days flew past, Sara in her usual routine of looking after Hayden before her neighbour from across the hall would come sleep on Sara's pull out couch and be there for Hayden while Sara was working, then she'd get home just in time to get him ready for school before she got home to sleep for a few hours then get herself ready and go pick him up. Yes Sara had a pretty good routine going on, On a friday night, Grissom would pick Hayden from the school, then have him all weekend dropping him off at school on monday morning. The one thing about Grissom having him was when he worked, Grissom's mother Betty would stay at the house and look after Hayden.
Life was good, they didn't cross paths often in the world outside work, the occasional phone call about various parent issues, was about it. Sara had grown to like this set up, of course she could still remember the way Grissom's touch had her body on fire. But she couldn't let herself think about that, Grissom had made it clear that they couldn't have a relationship as much as Sara wanted to.
Wednesday morning arrived and Sara was glad to leave the lab, she knew Grissom was home on the seven am flight, she would call him after she had dropped Hayden off at school and ask him to pick Hayden up after school. She loved when Grissom took Hayden through the week as it gave her a chance to get extra sleep and she didn't have to cook which was another blessing.
Dropping Hayden off, Sara was on autopilot until she got in her front door, then slipping her feet from her shoes, she pulled out her cell phone and made her way into her bedroom. She sat down on the edge of her bed and looked through her contacts until she came to Grissom's cell number, knowing that it was best to call him on that number. Listening to the dialing tone, she leaned back on one arm as they other held the phone to her ear. Listening to him answer she smiled to herself, she loved to just talk to him, even if it was just a simple call like today was.
"Grissom." He answered sounding like he had caught a cold or flu.
"Hey, it's just me, Hayden was wondering if you could pick him up from school today?" She asked as she sat up straight, biting at her fingernail slightly.
"Oh hi, sorry… Yeah, sure, I can pick him up, does that mean dinner too?" He asked, then started coughing.
Sara was now concerned. "Yeah he said he was looking forward to meat. Are you okay? You're sounding a little choked up over there." She said softly as her back stiffened. She certainly didn't want Hayden catching any more illnesses, he was still suffering with a runny nose after the last cold he caught last month.
"Ah, meat, I'll have to take him past the store on the way home. I'm okay, just caught the cold that was going around at the seminar, I'll be fine though, I'm over the worst, I could hardly talk yesterday." He admitted as Sara's eyes widened slightly with a smirk on her lips.
"Wow and we missed that delight at the lab!" She sniggered a little. "Okay if you're sure, I mean I could go to the store if you need me to pick up a few things for you, after all, you'll be feeding and doing homework with our son, giving me more time to sleep." She grinned a little, truth be told she was looking forward to getting some decent sleep.
Gil smirked at her comment about the lab missing the fact he had almost lost his voice and her comment on sleep. "I picked up a few things on the way home from the airport, I'll be fine Sara, don't worry about me. So I'll pick up Hayden then do his homework and feed him before having him home for what, seven?" He asked then coughed again.
"I do get to worry, you're my son's father." She stated simply. "Plus I do see you as a friend Griss…" She paused giving them a moment of awkward silence. "Seven is good, gives him plenty of time to shower and get ready for bed." She spoke out, feeling he had no right telling her not to worry, of course she was going to worry, she was in love with him, only he was the one keeping her at arms length, he was the one that said that they couldn't have anything more than a friendship and even that was strained.
"Sara…" He said in a half warning tone. "I'll see you at seven." He ended their call without a goodbye, leaving Sara sitting on the end of her bed almost in tears, he kept doing this, every time she thought they were getting on okay, he would pull back, it was so hard to understand him. She just hoped that Hayden was never going to be as difficult as his father was.