Seven Days to Change Everything
Chapter 1: For the Best
Today I walked in on Kendall taking a shower. I just froze in shock. He was so hot his body was perfect. Then his face was…god don't even get me started. He saw me there just staring at him. I was so embarrassed that I ran without saying anything. I am so pathetic.
I'm getting ahead of myself though.
My name is James Diamond and I am hopelessly in love with Kendall Knight. He is sex on legs and he turns me on like no other. It's getting harder to be around him, when all I want to do is jump his bones and have him fuck me into the nearest surface so I can't walk for days. I can't look him in the eyes most days because I'm scared that I'll snap and either attack him, or confess my love for him.
I've been in love with Kendall for as long as I can remember. I'm keeping this journal as a way to get my frustration out, other than jerking off (which I still do because Kendall is just that fucking hot!) I feel writing this all down will help me be able to at least talk to the blonde Adonis that I live with.
James closed his notebook as someone knocked at the door. He knew it had to be Kendall, but that was odd. Why was he knocking? This was his room too after all, but then again he did catch James starring at him in the shower. Maybe he was nervous about what happened. Maybe he was mad that James had gawked at him like that.
James quickly stashed his notebook away inside the bottom drawer of his desk under a few old magazines and sat back up. He quickly fixed his hair, he wasn't sure who was on the other side of the door but he wasn't taking any chances.
"Come in," James said finding his voice somehow. He was nervous. It could be Kendall on the other side of the door. He could either be very mad at him or very happy. James was sure it was the first rather than the latter. He didn't know how Kendall would react. What if he hated James for liking him.
Kendall walked into their shared bedroom, looking down at the floor. He was nervous too. The tension was so thick in the room you could cut it with a knife.
"Hey... I um want to talk to you," he said slowly.
James froze not sure what to say. What was he supposed to say, 'Yeah I walked in on you in the shower and yes I saw your dick and oh boy was it impressive.' or 'I'm in love with you?' Neither of those would really help this moment.
James was broken from his thoughts when Kendall sat down on the bed next to him. The blonde was waiting for an answer that James didn't want to give. He had to think of something to say and fast. Silence wasn't good.
"Ok," James said lamely. That was all he could get my mouth to say without telling the blonde Adonis everything.
"So," Kendall said drawing the word out.
"Look it was an accident, I didn't hear the shower running and I was shocked, I wasn't staring," James said slowly as the idea formed in his head. He hoped the blonde wouldn't catch his lie. It had really been an accident that James had walked in on him, that part wasn't a lie. He really hadn't heard the shower running and the door wasn't locked. Normally people lock the door when they're in the shower, but he had been staring.
"Really?" Kendall asked arching a brow skeptically at James.
"Yeah," James nodded his head. He wanted him to drop it at that. He didn't want to go into further detail than that.
"Well it's just…" Kendall trailed off.
"What?" James asked confused.
"It's just…nothing," Kendall said shaking his head.
"No it's not," James said shaking his head.
This wasn't like Kendall. He was never at a loss for words. He was always confident and knew just what to say. This was just so unlike him. James knew something was on his mind, he just didn't know what. Kendall wasn't an east person to read sometimes.
"Never mind," Kendall said shaking his head. He moved to stand up. James grabbed his arm, stopping him. He wasn't getting out of this so easily.
Every thought left James' head as he touched the blonde. He felt electricity run up his arm and down his spine. He looked up at Kendall and he was looking at his hand.
Does he feel it too? James thought confused.
"James," Kendall said.
Without thinking James jumped up. He looked the blonde in the eyes before he leaned in and pressed his lips to his in a kiss. Kendall froze for a moment, before he responded. He moved his lips with James' lips in a battle. A moan slipped form James' throat as his arms wrapped around his neck and held the blonde in place. He didn't want this to end or for Kendall to realize what was happening.
Kendall didn't seemed to be coming to his sense any time soon. He pushed James down on the bed and climbed on top of him. James gasped as Kendall ground his hips into his. He felt the blonde's half hard cock. It excited him further than he already was.
Clothes were shed and James was eager for the blonde to finally fuck him. He just hoped Kendall wouldn't stop. He wasn't sure he would be able to handle it if he did. He was too far gone and they needed to finish this. Once with Kendall would be enough if he finished this.
James gasped as Kendall stroked him. Kendall placed two fingers in his mouth. He got them nice and wet for what was to come. James was eager for this part. He had fingered himself several times wishing it was the blonde pounding his hole. This was a fantasy come true and James didn't want to wake up.
Kendall eased the first finger in and James grunted and moved his hips urging the blonde to get on with it. Kendall pumped his finger in and out a few times before adding another. James moaned, moving his hips with Kendall's hand. He was so ready for more. He whined hoping Kendall would get the picture. Kendall continued to finger James.
"Kendaaaalll, more," James whined. Kendall pulled his fingers out and spit into his hand. He spread it over his cock and lined himself up with James' entrance. James started to whine and wiggle his hips.
Kendall thrust into the brunette. James cried out, it was better than he had ever imagined. He had waited so long for this to happen. Now that it was James was in pure bliss. He was in heaven. Nothing was better than this.
Kendall started to move and thrust in and out of the brunette at a fast pace. James moved his hips with Kendall the pleasure overwhelming. James felt himself nearing the edge. He was right there, all he needed was that push to get over. Kendall changed the angle of his thrusts and James saw stars.
"Right there!" James cried out. Kendall hit that spot over and over again. "Kendaaallll!" James moaned in warning. Before he knew it he was covering their stomachs with his seed. A few thrusts later Kendall came filling the brunette with his seed.
Kendall pulled out and fell onto the bed beside James. James laid there in post coital bliss. He didn't want to talk, that would ruin the moment. Kendall would most likely come to his senses.
"James, we can't do this," Kendall said softly.
James sighed, he had seen that coming. He knew Kendall didn't like him that way. He had just given into the moment. Kendall was straight.
"I figured," James said softly turning away from the blonde trying to hide his tears.
"This would be bad for the band, we just…this wouldn't work with everything we have going on," Kendall said.
"I get it, you don't like me that way," James mumbled softly. He had been wrong. He wasn't able to handle the rejection.
"The band is just making it big, this could knock us back…Gustavo would kill us," Kendall said shaking his head.
"It's ok," James said softly not looking at the blond
"Logan and Carlos would be affected too…we just…this isn't a good time for all of this," Kendall said. He got up and got dressed quickly. He left leaving James behind alone.
James laid there fighting back the tears. Kendall didn't want to mess up what they had with the band. He was only looking out for their careers as popstars.
James sat up quickly looked at the door. Kendall never once denied that he didn't like James. All he had talked about was the band and what it would do to them, not to mentioned Carlos and Logan. The other two had grown accustomed to the Hollywood life and liked being in the band. Kendall had after all just fucked the brunette into the mattress.
A plan formed in James mind. He pulled on some boxers and retrieved his journal.
Oh god Kendall is perfect. He just…we had sex and it was amazing. He was perfect and it was more than what I had imagined. It was perfection.
He turned me down though, but he like me. He has to, otherwise he wouldn't have given into my advances. I just have to prove to him that I would make a great boyfriend and that we can be together despite what it would do to the band.
I've got one week to change everything.
So there you go. So this is a request I've gotten from Camperkid18. I know I have so many ongoing fics right now, but I wanted to post this for them. I hope this is what you wanted. Also this chapter might've seemed rushed, but I just wanted to get the basic poly outlined here. There will be a total of eight chapters, seven more after this one for the next seven days. I will try to update regularly, but for those who know me I tend to fall behind sometimes.
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