Author note: I wrote this preface after writing the other chapter to clarify how Edward decided he was capable of changing Bella. Thanks for reading.
Preface:
Edwards POV.
I have been giving it a lot of thought, I know that one of the reasons I left her in the first place was because I didn't want this kind of life for her, or to condemn her to lived like I do, to be
what I am, but after thinking it through, why not?, It makes sense, doesn't it? She wants this, doesn't she?, and I want her.
I kept walking in circles in my room. -Oh God, I don't know if I'm thinking straight. I have been in hell since I left. Each day seems like a millenium. I feel like I'm suffocating and the only thing that can give me peace and make me feel alive and happy is Bella. I shaked my head to try and clear my thoughts. -What am I doing?, What am I thinking?- I sighed.
My family said that I can do it, Alice said she'd seen it, but what if they are wrong? What if I kill her? I took a deep breath to calm myself, maybe they're not. Besides, I did it before, didn't I?. I did it when James bitted her, I was able to take the venom out of her system and even though her blood tasted like heaven; and God knows how much I wanted to keep drinking, I stopped. I did it because I love her and because I couldn't live if I'd killed her.
I stopped in front of the mirror and saw my reflection feeling more confident than I have ever felt before. Maybe I'm capable of doing this after all, I thought to myself. I walked to the window, jumped out of the room and looked back to see my house one more time before I started running… running fast toward Forks, toward my Bella.