Woot another HxB one-shot. I don't own Ev or YYH or Seether.

Hiei watched has Botan talked to Yusuke and Kurama the smile on her face was one of the biggest he had ever seen. He knew how she truly felt. She felt guilty about Genkai dying. She blamed herself even though there was nothing anyone could have done. Humans got old and died. That's how it was and that's how it always would be.

"I wanted you to know that
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away...
I keep your photograph and
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain"

Botan came over. "Hiei are you all right? You've just been sitting here this entire time." he stared into her eyes. Hers showed no signs of sadness or anything she was truly feeling. His showed years of pain that he had kept to himself.

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

"Are you going back to Makai soon?" Botan asked. "Hn." was Hiei's reply. He didn't want to freak out the ferry girl if he didn't end up returning. Which was likely because Mukuro loved him but he didn't feel that way to her.

You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore

Botan hugged him. "Even if you do go you'll always come back." it wasn't a question. She knew Hiei would come back. Despite his attempts to hide it she realized he was in love with her. She smiled at him. "I just want to know when you'll come back." and she knew she had fallen for him too.

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

"Onna you don't need to pretend like you care. Your just confused because your feeling guilty and you want someone to be with you while you suffer." Hiei said. Botan looked ready to cry. "But Hiei-" he shook his head.

Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

"I'm not giving my heart away." he said. "I've been through to much to experience heart break. So find another toy onna. I'm not something for you to fuck when your feeling sad." she looked surprised by how blunt he was.

Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away...

"I'm leaving. When you think we can have a normal relationship I'll come back." anger was in Hiei's voice. Before Botan could say anything he was gone. She began crying.

"I do love you."

From his tree Hiei snorted. He was not just going to trust just anyone. Even if he did want her.....

"I love you Botan. Even if you don't feel the same way."

Cause I'm Broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone...
You gone away, you don't feel me here anymore

It's a not so happy ending. All right I hope you liked ^_^ please review.