Riku has been tortured by Ansem and now by the one he thought he loved most. Is there anyone out there who doesn't just want his body?? Could someone really want him for his heart instead of his looks?? Ansem/Riku (mentioned), Sora/Riku, ?/Riku, Rape, Angst, Romance. Yeah and Sora bastardization! I didn't really mean for that to happen it just sorta did but that's okay it makes the story interesting. I will figure out some way to make him the Sora that's caring and sweet again though.

Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or Characters used in this story so don't sue me!!! See I said that I don't own it! You can't sue me! Yeah no suing! Anyway someday I will force Sakura to make plushies of Sora and Riku for me but that doesn't really count.

All flames go to Sakura and Taku so that way they have some heat in their house seeing as Sakura refuses to be touched and they are currently not... AHEM... doing anything at the moment. Poor Taku!

Tears: Hey! What about me! I don't get any action either!

Anyway on with the fic please enjoy!

Tears: Grrr...

Aishiteru mo!

The Meaninglessness of Words

"I love you" He'd said those words so many times trying to coax them from my own lips but he didn't understand. Words were meaningless to me. 'HE' used to tell me he loved me, that I was the world to him, but his every movement, every breath contradicted this statement. I could never bring myself to say "I love you back" to Sora, the words felt so meaningless. They say a picture's worth a thousand words, but words are nothing, you have to use emotion and actions for things to really be meaningful.

Maybe that's why I had stopped talking when I first came back to the island, before Sora returned. When he came back though I forced myself to speak to make him happy, but my voice sounded so warped and strangled, you don't need speak when in darkness for it reads your mind, like how HE read my mind. It's been six months and HIS name is still taboo, I can't stand him! He still haunts my dreams I wake up to see Sora's concerned face hovering over mine; he'd tell me that I was whimpering again in my sleep. I would always reply with "I'm sorry" it seems that all I do now is apologize. I'm no longer brave or strong; no I've been reduced to a thin, pale, weakling. Now I'm the kid who's everyone's younger brother, someone who needs to be protected. Sometimes I find it quite sickening but other times it's a pleasant change.

Well I should stop writing before Sora comes over, no one knows were together. He doesn't want anybody to know at least not yet. He said the people of the island are not ready to find something like this out yet. Sometimes I think it's because he's ashamed of me, ashamed of loving me. Argh! I just hate it sometimes. I feel so worthless.

Riku put his pen down as he heard the front door open. Sighing he dragged his seventeen year-old body to the desk to put away his journal. He loved Sora, but sometimes it seemed like Sora didn't really love him, no matter how many times he said it out loud. It had been six months since Riku returned to the island and three since Sora had, but it head been four years since they had left for their adventure. Apparently there's a time lapse in kingdom hearts and two years in the rest of the world is one year in the place where shadows dwell. This is what caused Riku to be seventeen while everyone else were just about nineteen, in fact Sora's birthday had been the day before he returned.

"I'm home!" Sora called as to be heard, he took off his shoes and entered the dark house. Riku's eyes still hadn't adjusted to the light and so they could not have any on in the house, and when he went outside he'd have to keep his eyes completely covered. In truth they didn't share the house it was Riku's parent's house before they passed away but Sora spent so many nights there that it was practically his home too.

Sora walked into the bedroom to see Riku's backside, the now younger boy was leaning over the desk trying to grab something, his tush sticking out. He was wearing a baggie light blue shirt that was two sizes too big and drooping off of one shoulder with pajama pants that went way passed his feet. His hair which when left down reached his mid back was pulled up in a ponytail. Sora drank in the sight and found that it went down strait to his groin, he was now sporting a fairly large erection. He walked over to Riku and enveloped him in a hug from the back. He felt the other boy shutter as his erection pressed up against the other's delicate body. "I want you soo bad." Sora's sultry voice came out in a whisper right by Riku's ear.

Riku could feel his heart begin to race as Sora's now painfully hard erection rubbed more against his clothed entrance. Sora slipped his hand under Riku's large shirt and found what he was looking for; he began to play with Riku's nipples making them hard. The unsuspecting boy gave a whimper, he knew what was going to happen and how he had no control over the situation. This only drove Sora into more desperation and before Riku had a chance to protest he was already pinned to the bed beneath Sora. Sora captured the silver haired tenshi's lips in a lustful kiss, forcing his tongue into the strawberry flavored cavern. Sora, had some how managed to tie the boy's hands above his head and attach them temporarily to the head board. Riku felt himself be de-clothed by Sora, and then he felt Sora's manhood push against his entrance.

"Sora... I... don't... no, stop" But the lust filled man above him did not listen to his pleas. He gave a strangled cry as Sora drove himself into his small body without any form of preparation or lubrication. Sora continued to drive in faster and harder, blood began to seep through Riku's small opening. Sora felt himself getting closer to climax and began to pump Riku's manhood along with the rhythm. "Noo! I...don't... AHHH!" Riku screamed as his seed spilled out causing his muscles to clench around Sora making his already tight body even tighter causing Sora to come inside of him, "RIKUUU!", he yelled as he reached his peak of ecstasy.

Sora collapsed out of exhaustion on top of a crying Riku. "I love you, my silver haired tenshi..." Sora said before drifting off into sleep, not even bothering to remove himself from Riku. By the time he woke up he would have another large erection. Even though Sora had once again said those three words that were supposed to mean so much he now knew that Sora was lying. He didn't love him! He was just like HIM using his body for his pleasures not caring really about his feelings. Riku cried himself to sleep the pain both to emotionally and physically draining.

Yume: well that's all for now! Sakura you better appreciate this!