I know, I really should be updating 'Lost In a Forest', but I just had to write this song-fic! I've had the idea for almost a month now, and I needed to get out of my system. So, here it is!
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Song: I'm Not That Girl from the musical WICKED
Toph sighed.
Aang and Katara were off by the lake 'splashing in the water' as she liked to put it. Sokka, well, he and Suki went looking for food this morning, and still hadn't returned. It was nearly sunset now.
She had managed to get in a little Earth Bending with Aang, but now it was just her, Momo, and Appa. Toph normally would never have resorted to this, but she knew that Aang did all of the time.
She leaned back, resting her head on Appa, and sighed once more.
Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl.
"Why is it that my life is never how I want it?" Toph asked aloud, causing Momo to jump a little. "I'm only ever noticed for my Earth Bending, and nothing else!"
And she was right. It would be nearly impossible to try and get the fact that Toph was a girl through Sokka's thick head. He only thought of her as an annoying twelve year old master Earth Bender.
Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
Toph closed her eyes, and thought about how she would never really get what she wanted.
She wanted to be noticed not only for her power and strength, but for who she really was. She wanted Sokka to notice her.
But, it would never happen, not in a million years. Zuko could ambush them and actually defeat them, and it still wouldn't happen, for Sokka had Suki. No matter how many times something happened between the two of them, causing Toph to actually blush.
Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in
Toph would do all she could to make Sokka understand who she was, where she stood. She longed to shout, "Look at me! I'm a girl too!" Though, knowing very well that Sokka would much rather be with Suki. She was the one for Sokka; Suki was competent enough to handle him. She was the perfect girl for Sokka, she had managed to comprehend what goes on in his head.
Toph couldn't do much, though. She didn't want to end up like Aang, making a fool of herself just so someone would notice her. Katara already knew who Aang was, she could lock eyes with Aang and smile, and be able to understand everything.
But Sokka, even though with every time he looked at her, and Toph could feel him through the ground staring at her, she knew that it didn't mean a thing. With every touch, mostly Sokka grabbing her in a fight, Toph could feel her arm where Sokka was touching go numb.
Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And heaven knows
I'm not that girl...
"I shouldn't be getting my hopes up." Toph concluded, rubbing Appa's soft fur from behind her.
Appa gave a comforting roar, one that he would always give Aang when he was troubled. But now, now it was Toph's turn.
"Even in my sightless dreams, I shouldn't go too far." Toph said quietly. "I'm only hurting myself."
If only Toph could go back to when she first joined Aang, Katara, and Sokka. Before she felt invisible towards Sokka.
Toph may have been born into a rich family, but she just wasn't born right for Sokka.
He loves Suki, and not her.
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl
Toph breathed in heavily, brushed Momo off of her stomach, and rolled over; drifting into a sorrowful slumber.
I'm not that girl. . .
I was listen to WICKED, as I do almost daily, and I just knew this song would be perfect. I happen to really like how it came out, but I could also use some constructive criticism. Please, tell me what you think. )