A sadish, emoish thing (at first) that I wrote out of pure boredom. I don't own Inuyasha, or Kagome's OOCness please don't kill me...the flashback is kind of similier to episode 154, just with what they say,and some of their actions...Btw: Shes wearing her short sleeved uniform.

She is seen running through the forest, and you can hear her muffled sobs. Her long dark hair, blows in the wind behind her. She is tripping over various things, because her eyes are blinded by tears. She reaches a clearing and continues running toward a well. You do not know what, or who she is running from. She sits on the edge and screams "WHY, WHY INUYASHA! HOW COULD YOU!!" Then she jumps into the well and disappears from view.

...Change in P.O.V...

I jumped into the Bone Eaters Well. I was greeted, with the floating like feel of going five hundred years into the furture. I let my mind race with thoughts as the lights engulfed my body. No, No..NO this..its not true..he didn't...I had seen her try to do it before...but now... I was pulled out of my thoughts as I once again felt ground beneath my feet. I looked around in the darkness and found the rope, I used to pull myself up with. I sat on the edge of the well, my head in my hands sobbing. I tried, but I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I didn't think my life could get any worse. But then I heard my mother's voice..."Kagome?"

Oh no...

I..I can't let her see me like this! S-she'll wanna know what happened..and..NO!! I..I got to do something! I quickly grabbed some dirt from the ground, and rubbed it on my legs and face. I began to worry as I could here my mom's voice getting closer..."KAGOME!?" I squinted my eyes in the darkness, until they caught a glimmer of light. There was broken glass in the corner, I hesitantly got up and walked toward it. I really didn't want to hurt myself but...I needed to make this look believable!

My shaky hands grabbed a piece of glass. I slowly bought it to my arm, stopping about a centimeter away from the skin. Her voice neared closer to the door. I applied pressure and felt the blade as it puntured my skin. The wound I inflicted upon my self, began to drip crimson liquid. The tears came again as I winced, but this time it was pure physical pain. I knew I shouldn't be doing this but...I knew I needed more than one cut...I once again put the glass, now covered in my blood, up to my other arm. This time I quickly swiped the sharp edge against my skin, hoping it would hurt less. It didn't...

I bit my lip so hard to keep from screaming, that it almost bled. I tried to think of something pleasant while I continued, but all I could think about was him, all the cruel things he said, and now leaving me forever. It wasn't just thoughts, it was playing like a movie, over and over again in my mind.

Flashback..

She watched from the Scared tree as he followed the soul collectors. She already knew where, and who they were taking him to. Sighing, she climbed down the tree, and began secretly follow. Running through the forest, out of his sight she used the glimpses of his red haori as her guide. Once he had stopped she concealed herself behind a tree and watched. Kikyou was leaning against the tree, obviously in pain from her last encounter with Naraku. She watched as Kikyou got up, and he was immediately at her side. He kneeled down in front of her, and held her shoulders.

"What are you doing?! You aren't completely healed yet!"

"I-I'm fine, let go..."

"No Kikyou..I can't let you go after Naraku! He'll kill you easily in your condition!"

"I am not meant to be here Inuyasha. I have lived and died, I am nothing but soil and bones.." "It is no longer threating to me that he may kill me..I do not belong in this world..."

"Kikyou don't, don't say those things!"

"Why not, I know that you no longer care for me" "I see how my reincarnation has healed the wounds of your heart...I know that you have developed feelings for her..."

He couldn't help growl that came from his throat. He tightened his hold on her shoulders in frustration.

"DAMN IT KIKYOU LISTEN TO ME! I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR KAGOME!" he paused and lowered his voice

Kagome gasped, and felt tears sting her eyes.

"I've never loved her, she just travels with me, and senses jewel shards." "I've never loved anyone but you.." He said embracing her, Kikyou returned the embrace.

She just stood behind the tree, watching them hold eachother. She wanted to leave, she knew she shouldn't be here. But she couldn't...her knees gave out on her, as she slumped down to the ground. Her face shining with the trails of newly shed tears. She just held onto the tree, and looked back over at them.

"Kikyou, I love you...I am prepared to go into the depths of hell with you." "If that is your wish.."

Kikyou looked at him puzzled than, nodded. They both stood up and Kikyou embraced him once more. He winced as he felt her hands upon his back, digging into his soul. The ground beneath them opened up, a dark aura surounded them.

"Stop..Kikyou I-I want to be...awake" He barely got the words out. He remembered her doing this before. At that time she had made him fall asleep. Well, not really asleep..more like a spell she put him under. One that caused him to loose consciousness.

She watched in horror as the dark lights engulfed them. She desperatly wanted to stop it, she wanted to run out there and just stop it! She could yell his name, that worked last time. This time she wasn't trapped! She tried to open her mouth, but no sound came out. She wanted to scream, but only gasped. She was angry at Kikyou, at Inuyasha, at herself! When had she become so weak!

How could he...If, if she was only a jewel detector than why did he take care of her when she was sick?! Why did he get so goddamned jealous when Kouga touched her?! Why did he always tell her that he feared of loosing her? Wh-Why did he return their kiss at Kaguya's castle? If it was all a lie...

"HOW COULD YOU!" She screamed

She looked over, to see they had disappeared. The only evidence was the ring around the ground where they had stood. She could barely catch the trace of soul collectors vanishing. He went to hell with her...H-He's gone...Forever

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!"

End Flashback..

I felt more tears stream down my face, as I looked down at my arms. They now had about ten cuts on both of them. My gaze landed upon my legs, I didn't leave them untouched. I figured I probably had more cuts there then my arms. I couldn't hear my mother anymore, she was the reason I did this...No thats not right, it was me. I didn't want her to see me upset. I wanted to make it look like I was hurt, so I didn't need tell her what was wrong! I wanted to do this...I wanted to make wounds on my body, to hide the wounds in my heart.

How could I be so, so stupid! I know that shes not the only reason I did this...it was him. He caused me this pain, he caused me to love him...During my flashback I didn't even feel the pain anymore. Both my body and my heart were numb. It just began to feel so natural. I didn't feel guitly about it anymore, I had no regrets for causing myself pain. The way I saw it my life was already over...

I began to feel slightly light headed. I didn't think much about suicide, but at this point it didn't seem like I had a choice. Before I knew it the walls in the well house began to close in on me. I could feel my body swaying back and forth, the room was getting blurry. Then suddenly the doors burst open, filling the room with blinding light. I looked into the light and saw...Inuyasha? No,no its not him, he's in hell with Kikyou. Its just a hallucination,... too much blood loss. I thought. Darkness invaded my vision. But before I lost consciousness, I could have sworn I heard him yell my name. What a cruel image to die with...

A/N: Okay, before people kill me, I just wanna let you know its NOT the end...yep thats right theres a second part! Buuuuutttt in order for people to see it I need to know if people are interested in it. No, I'm not talking about reviews (though they would be greatly apprecaited) Hits yes hits, I just want to know that peoples are reading it, K? Maybe around 200, because my other two fics have around 400. Alrighty, and for those who are still gonna kill me...Just don't give up on it yet..I mean seriously! I'm not as cruel, as you think. The story will have a pleasant ending don't worry :)