Warning: THIS FIC DEALS WITH SENSITVE SUBJECTS. IF YOU ARE IN ONE OF THESE SITUATIONS, DONT LET THE CHARACTERS DECISIONS AFFECT YOURS. SEEK HELP. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THE TOPIC OF ABUSE, AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, THEN DONT READ THIS. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
Hi ppls, I'm baaaaaaaaaack... I know, Im so horrible for not updating loop holes or cherryblossom yet, but I do plan to. Right now though, I'm trying to write somthing other then fluff, so this one is FULL of angst. If your not comfortable with the topics, then dont read it, or bitch about it (At least not to me..)
Disclaimer: I dont own kingdom hearts, if I did there would be no need for yaoi fics (cuz it would all be there......)
Tainted Love: chapt 1
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No one knows me. At least I know they don't.. They may think they do, little do they know though.. Riku rolled over on his bed, trying to muffle the sound of yelling and crying coming from the other room.
"QUIET BITCH, DID I SAY YOU COULD TALK?!"
"Please stop, I'm sorry, please, I'm begging you... PLEASE!!"
The sound of skin being smacked could be heard even in Riku's room. Riku bit down on his lip. He hated his stepdad, absolutly HATED him. It hurt so much hearing the pain in his mother's voice, but it hurt even more not being able to do anything about it. Believe me, he tried to stop him before, but his stepdad was just to strong.. Last time he tried to stop him, he ended with bruises covering his face and abdomen, and a broken rib. Of course he wanted to tell someone. God, did he want to tell someone. But it's not like anything could be done. It sucks having an abusive stepdad, but it sucks even more having one that has authority over the city. Stupid ass mayor..
Riku knew that no one would believe him. Everyone sees the nice, jolly side which he rarly shows at home. Scratch that, NEVER shows at home.
"BITCH, IF YOU MOVE I WILL KILL YOU, AND YOUR DAMN SON! WANT TO DIE?! HUH, WHORE?!
"NO!! NOT RIKU! HE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS!!"
Riku bit down on his lip harder. The tears trickled down his cheeks. Riku knew he wouldnt kill him.. If he did, then he couldnt really threaten his mom.. right.. right?! Riku heard the screaming coming closer.. Nervously, he glanced around the room, looking for some form of anything that he could use to defend himself. He dug through his desk, looking for anything, anything would do... The shimmer of a blade caught his eye.
Found it!
The razor he kept stashed in there. He never used it on any one else, but himself.. Riku stared down at his wrist. Still there..
"Thank God I have pale skin..." He whispered softly to himself. He could point out the scars, all four of them. Each atempt to end it all, each time... failed. There was only one reason he quit, only one reason he tried to hold on to what little life he had left...
Sora.
"I refuse to die before he knows how I feel.." He murmered softly. The energetic brunnette always found a way into his heart, no matter the situation. Ever since they were children, he always knew how to cheer him up. He couldnt help but love him. Sora was the only thing which he held dear to his heart, the only person that gave him hope for the future. The only person keeping him alive..
He jumped to the sound of a crash and glass breaking outside of his door. Please don't come in, please make it stop..
His door flung open.
There he stood. The one person he wanted dead. The one person he wanted gone the most..
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?! Riku looked up at him. He could smell the cheap whiskey on his breath.
"I'm trying to sleep." Riku replied, tears welling up in his eyes.
"QUIET FAG, DID I ASK YOU TO TALK?!"
"No sir.. I'm sorry.."
"THATS RIGHT FAG! NOW GET OVER HERE!"
Riku trembled and slowly walked over to his stepdad, trying not to cry, or show any signs of weakness. He pulled back his arm and punched Riku right in the jaw, a small popping noise soon followed. Riku fell to the floor shaking, and went limp from fear and the pain. He failed to the sound of his mom screaming, "NOOOO!!!"
Ah.. Darkness..
Peacefull, quiet, darkness..
Where the sceaming was elliminated in silence..
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Sora ran around the island calling Riku's name. No luck. Where was he? It's getting dark and he hasn't come out for nearly a week. Sora could'nt help but worry. His best friend is missing.
"Where could he be?" He thought puzzled.
No one at Riku's house would answer, no one even came to the door all six times Sora went looking for him. There werent any reasons for avoiding Sora. Sora had numered down practicly every reason for Riku to avoid him, and there was nothing left. If he was sick then would'nt they of answered? Would'nt they want me to come cheer Riku up? Wouldn't they?!
"I could always sneak in... It woudnt hurt anyone.. If I get caught, what are they going to do? Yell at me? So what? If Theres still no word from him by tomorrow, I'm going.. Maybe I'll go over there tonight.."
He continued to walk around until he came to a dock with a little boat tied to the side. Sora could'nt help but smile. It just reminded him of all the good times he had with Riku. Rowing out to the other small islands which surrounded Destiny Island, talking about anything on thier minds, at least Sora thought.
He knew Riku never liked his stepdad. Even though he seemed like a pretty nice guy. But he did trust Riku's judgment and tried to keep away from him. He could see the hatred in Riku's eyes whenever his stepdad came around, especially when he came near Sora.
Sora shrugged and called out Riku's name one last time. Once again, no answer. He peared down at his watch and glimpsed the time. 8:57pm.
"Aww, shit." Sora exclaimed. He was supposed to be at home at 9:00pm. He started jogging, slowly increasing his speed. He turned the corner which lead to his neighborhood, and slowed down when he reached Riku's house. He peared over the gate catiously, and climbed over.
"I'm already screwed enough, so whats the use trying to get home on time, besides, maybe Mom is out." He said to himself while running closer to the side of the house which Riku's room was located.
Sora reached the wall, and peared up. Why did Riku's room have to be upstairs? He looked around for anything to use to climb up to the window. No luck. Hmmm... Sora glanced over to where Riku's shed was located. Quietly, he tiptoed to the shed and opened the rusty door. The door opened with a creak and Sora stepped in.
All over the walls were gardening tools, he looked over to the left corner, damn it, like a shovel would help. He took a step near the back and peered under a cabinet. AHAH! There was a ladder laying there. Sora looked back behind him, slowly and made sure no one heard him. He bent over and lifted the ladder up gently and stumbled a bit due to the weight, out the door. Reaching the wall, he propped the ladder against it. He stepped on the lowest step and started making his way up. A few seconds passed before he made it to the top. He made sure he was balanced and lifted the window up. It slid up effortlessly, and he climbed in. Sora stared. Shattered glass was everywhere, along with..
"Is that... blood?!"
Sora stepped around the room, trying to avoid the glass. "What the fuck happened here?" Sora whispered franticly. Sora reached the desk, which had all of the drawers have been yanked out. Sora found a notebook and peared inside.
It read:
August 28: I hate my life so much. I wish I would just die already! I can't take all the fighting anymore! Hiding everything from friends. I feel horrible for hiding stuff from Sora. But that won't matter much longer. It will all be over soon. Heaven or hell, I don't care, just anywhere but here.
September 18: I slit my wrists today. I just don't care anymore. Maybe the pain will flow with the blood, clense me, wash all away. It's not the first time I have done this. The physical pain distracts me from the pain which stays with me inside. Of course, another failed attempt to die once again. I only fainted, for God knows how long, before the wound started to close. Maybe my time will come soon.
Sora started to tremble. This can't be Riku's, it just can't be! As much as he wanted to stop reading, quit the images from flowing through his mind, he just couldn't. He continued on..
September 29: Constant agueing, constant threats, when will it end? Will it EVER end?! I want out.. I NEED out. I just can't take this anymore. My so called stepdad pushed me down the stairs today. My left arm is definantly broken. I have already bandaged it up. I'm just going to tell every one I fell. I'm pretty sure no one will question that. Hopefully Sora won't see the pain in my eyes. I can't risk anyone knowing. Maybe I wont have to wait for death.. maybe my stepdad will finish the job...
At that Sora threw down the diary. "No more.." He started to whisper. "Please God, NO MORE!" Sora almost fell to the ground from the pain he just read. He caught himself before with only one thing on his mind:
Riku...
Where was he?! Is he ok??? Sora caught his balance, and slowly started to walk near the door. He opened it and heard someone, crying quietly.
"Riku?? Is That you?!" Sora called down the hallway. No response. Sora started to run down the hallway, following the sobs. There was a woman, cradling..
"RIKU!" Sora cried. The woman looked up surprised. "He.. Hello Sora.." She choked through tears. Sora looked down at Riku, and lifted his wrist, feeling for a pulse. There was a small, faint beating of the pulse, he was still alive!
"Wh.. What happened?!" Sora said, trying to sound calm through the tears.
"Tatsuki.. he.. Oh God.." She cried.
"What did he do to Riku?!"
"Please Sora, no time to explain.. Here, take Riku out of here. HURRY!! Before Tatsuki wakes up!"
Sora took hold of Riku, holding him gently in his arms.
"Take the back door out, hes passed out on the floor near the couch, please.. take care of him.. And no matter what, don't let him come back. Tatsuki CAN'T know where Riku is..." Sora nodded, the woman stood up and hugged Sora.
"But what about you? Come with me." Sora pleaded.
"No, I can't, he'd go insane.. just take care of Riku."
"Are you crazy?! COME ON!!" Sora yelled, confused and angry.
"No, just go.."
Sora looked back at the woman, bruised and sore, and ran downstairs.
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Well ppls, whadduya think so far? If you like it so far, please review meh. Hopefully, I will be updating this one MUCH MORE then the others. I actually have half of the next chapter for Loop Holes typed up. A lot has happened since I last posted, I went to Delaware, I'm now single *ques Austin Powers music* ah, you get the point.. ^-^ Hope to hear from you guys. Ba byes for now~
Hi ppls, I'm baaaaaaaaaack... I know, Im so horrible for not updating loop holes or cherryblossom yet, but I do plan to. Right now though, I'm trying to write somthing other then fluff, so this one is FULL of angst. If your not comfortable with the topics, then dont read it, or bitch about it (At least not to me..)
Disclaimer: I dont own kingdom hearts, if I did there would be no need for yaoi fics (cuz it would all be there......)
Tainted Love: chapt 1
***************
No one knows me. At least I know they don't.. They may think they do, little do they know though.. Riku rolled over on his bed, trying to muffle the sound of yelling and crying coming from the other room.
"QUIET BITCH, DID I SAY YOU COULD TALK?!"
"Please stop, I'm sorry, please, I'm begging you... PLEASE!!"
The sound of skin being smacked could be heard even in Riku's room. Riku bit down on his lip. He hated his stepdad, absolutly HATED him. It hurt so much hearing the pain in his mother's voice, but it hurt even more not being able to do anything about it. Believe me, he tried to stop him before, but his stepdad was just to strong.. Last time he tried to stop him, he ended with bruises covering his face and abdomen, and a broken rib. Of course he wanted to tell someone. God, did he want to tell someone. But it's not like anything could be done. It sucks having an abusive stepdad, but it sucks even more having one that has authority over the city. Stupid ass mayor..
Riku knew that no one would believe him. Everyone sees the nice, jolly side which he rarly shows at home. Scratch that, NEVER shows at home.
"BITCH, IF YOU MOVE I WILL KILL YOU, AND YOUR DAMN SON! WANT TO DIE?! HUH, WHORE?!
"NO!! NOT RIKU! HE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS!!"
Riku bit down on his lip harder. The tears trickled down his cheeks. Riku knew he wouldnt kill him.. If he did, then he couldnt really threaten his mom.. right.. right?! Riku heard the screaming coming closer.. Nervously, he glanced around the room, looking for some form of anything that he could use to defend himself. He dug through his desk, looking for anything, anything would do... The shimmer of a blade caught his eye.
Found it!
The razor he kept stashed in there. He never used it on any one else, but himself.. Riku stared down at his wrist. Still there..
"Thank God I have pale skin..." He whispered softly to himself. He could point out the scars, all four of them. Each atempt to end it all, each time... failed. There was only one reason he quit, only one reason he tried to hold on to what little life he had left...
Sora.
"I refuse to die before he knows how I feel.." He murmered softly. The energetic brunnette always found a way into his heart, no matter the situation. Ever since they were children, he always knew how to cheer him up. He couldnt help but love him. Sora was the only thing which he held dear to his heart, the only person that gave him hope for the future. The only person keeping him alive..
He jumped to the sound of a crash and glass breaking outside of his door. Please don't come in, please make it stop..
His door flung open.
There he stood. The one person he wanted dead. The one person he wanted gone the most..
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?! Riku looked up at him. He could smell the cheap whiskey on his breath.
"I'm trying to sleep." Riku replied, tears welling up in his eyes.
"QUIET FAG, DID I ASK YOU TO TALK?!"
"No sir.. I'm sorry.."
"THATS RIGHT FAG! NOW GET OVER HERE!"
Riku trembled and slowly walked over to his stepdad, trying not to cry, or show any signs of weakness. He pulled back his arm and punched Riku right in the jaw, a small popping noise soon followed. Riku fell to the floor shaking, and went limp from fear and the pain. He failed to the sound of his mom screaming, "NOOOO!!!"
Ah.. Darkness..
Peacefull, quiet, darkness..
Where the sceaming was elliminated in silence..
______________
Sora ran around the island calling Riku's name. No luck. Where was he? It's getting dark and he hasn't come out for nearly a week. Sora could'nt help but worry. His best friend is missing.
"Where could he be?" He thought puzzled.
No one at Riku's house would answer, no one even came to the door all six times Sora went looking for him. There werent any reasons for avoiding Sora. Sora had numered down practicly every reason for Riku to avoid him, and there was nothing left. If he was sick then would'nt they of answered? Would'nt they want me to come cheer Riku up? Wouldn't they?!
"I could always sneak in... It woudnt hurt anyone.. If I get caught, what are they going to do? Yell at me? So what? If Theres still no word from him by tomorrow, I'm going.. Maybe I'll go over there tonight.."
He continued to walk around until he came to a dock with a little boat tied to the side. Sora could'nt help but smile. It just reminded him of all the good times he had with Riku. Rowing out to the other small islands which surrounded Destiny Island, talking about anything on thier minds, at least Sora thought.
He knew Riku never liked his stepdad. Even though he seemed like a pretty nice guy. But he did trust Riku's judgment and tried to keep away from him. He could see the hatred in Riku's eyes whenever his stepdad came around, especially when he came near Sora.
Sora shrugged and called out Riku's name one last time. Once again, no answer. He peared down at his watch and glimpsed the time. 8:57pm.
"Aww, shit." Sora exclaimed. He was supposed to be at home at 9:00pm. He started jogging, slowly increasing his speed. He turned the corner which lead to his neighborhood, and slowed down when he reached Riku's house. He peared over the gate catiously, and climbed over.
"I'm already screwed enough, so whats the use trying to get home on time, besides, maybe Mom is out." He said to himself while running closer to the side of the house which Riku's room was located.
Sora reached the wall, and peared up. Why did Riku's room have to be upstairs? He looked around for anything to use to climb up to the window. No luck. Hmmm... Sora glanced over to where Riku's shed was located. Quietly, he tiptoed to the shed and opened the rusty door. The door opened with a creak and Sora stepped in.
All over the walls were gardening tools, he looked over to the left corner, damn it, like a shovel would help. He took a step near the back and peered under a cabinet. AHAH! There was a ladder laying there. Sora looked back behind him, slowly and made sure no one heard him. He bent over and lifted the ladder up gently and stumbled a bit due to the weight, out the door. Reaching the wall, he propped the ladder against it. He stepped on the lowest step and started making his way up. A few seconds passed before he made it to the top. He made sure he was balanced and lifted the window up. It slid up effortlessly, and he climbed in. Sora stared. Shattered glass was everywhere, along with..
"Is that... blood?!"
Sora stepped around the room, trying to avoid the glass. "What the fuck happened here?" Sora whispered franticly. Sora reached the desk, which had all of the drawers have been yanked out. Sora found a notebook and peared inside.
It read:
August 28: I hate my life so much. I wish I would just die already! I can't take all the fighting anymore! Hiding everything from friends. I feel horrible for hiding stuff from Sora. But that won't matter much longer. It will all be over soon. Heaven or hell, I don't care, just anywhere but here.
September 18: I slit my wrists today. I just don't care anymore. Maybe the pain will flow with the blood, clense me, wash all away. It's not the first time I have done this. The physical pain distracts me from the pain which stays with me inside. Of course, another failed attempt to die once again. I only fainted, for God knows how long, before the wound started to close. Maybe my time will come soon.
Sora started to tremble. This can't be Riku's, it just can't be! As much as he wanted to stop reading, quit the images from flowing through his mind, he just couldn't. He continued on..
September 29: Constant agueing, constant threats, when will it end? Will it EVER end?! I want out.. I NEED out. I just can't take this anymore. My so called stepdad pushed me down the stairs today. My left arm is definantly broken. I have already bandaged it up. I'm just going to tell every one I fell. I'm pretty sure no one will question that. Hopefully Sora won't see the pain in my eyes. I can't risk anyone knowing. Maybe I wont have to wait for death.. maybe my stepdad will finish the job...
At that Sora threw down the diary. "No more.." He started to whisper. "Please God, NO MORE!" Sora almost fell to the ground from the pain he just read. He caught himself before with only one thing on his mind:
Riku...
Where was he?! Is he ok??? Sora caught his balance, and slowly started to walk near the door. He opened it and heard someone, crying quietly.
"Riku?? Is That you?!" Sora called down the hallway. No response. Sora started to run down the hallway, following the sobs. There was a woman, cradling..
"RIKU!" Sora cried. The woman looked up surprised. "He.. Hello Sora.." She choked through tears. Sora looked down at Riku, and lifted his wrist, feeling for a pulse. There was a small, faint beating of the pulse, he was still alive!
"Wh.. What happened?!" Sora said, trying to sound calm through the tears.
"Tatsuki.. he.. Oh God.." She cried.
"What did he do to Riku?!"
"Please Sora, no time to explain.. Here, take Riku out of here. HURRY!! Before Tatsuki wakes up!"
Sora took hold of Riku, holding him gently in his arms.
"Take the back door out, hes passed out on the floor near the couch, please.. take care of him.. And no matter what, don't let him come back. Tatsuki CAN'T know where Riku is..." Sora nodded, the woman stood up and hugged Sora.
"But what about you? Come with me." Sora pleaded.
"No, I can't, he'd go insane.. just take care of Riku."
"Are you crazy?! COME ON!!" Sora yelled, confused and angry.
"No, just go.."
Sora looked back at the woman, bruised and sore, and ran downstairs.
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Well ppls, whadduya think so far? If you like it so far, please review meh. Hopefully, I will be updating this one MUCH MORE then the others. I actually have half of the next chapter for Loop Holes typed up. A lot has happened since I last posted, I went to Delaware, I'm now single *ques Austin Powers music* ah, you get the point.. ^-^ Hope to hear from you guys. Ba byes for now~