Laying there in his arms, listening to the ocean in front of us...There was no words to describe it. But pure happiness..

Yes, I was happy for the first time in a long time. I was happy with my life. With my family. With my friends. With Derrick.

Derrick. Capital H I M.

He was.. What some people would call.. The love of my life.

He knew all of my problems. All of my insecurities. All of my secrets.

And he still loved me.

And I loved him.

I truly did.

But suddenly everything changed..

Suddenely he wasn't their anymore.

I stayed up in my room for a week crying about what had happened.

No one could help me.

He could.

Only him.

But he wasn't here to.

And just a moment later.. I was put into a mental hospital fo almost committing suicide.

Suddenly.. Everything changed.

I missed my family.

I missed my friends.

I missed him.

His sister had come by my hospital room for a visit.

"Claire, I'm sorry" was what she said

I've heard it before... So many times before.

I would never respond, knowing it would make things worse. But this was Sammi, his sister.

"I'm sorry too" I replied looking into her eyes which were the same puppy-dog like eyes I'd known so well.

"Here" she had said, handing me a note

"He would've wanted you to have this."

She left. Without a goodbye becasue she knew I didn't like goodbye's. I never did.

Opening the note I noticied the handwriting ammeditaly. It was derrick's.

Dear Claire,

I will probably never give you this. Becasue you might think I'm too mushy. But for the first time in my life I actually know what love feels like. It's happy, mushy, gooshy love that I'm feeling. And it's for you... I love you.

I stopped right there not being able to read the rest because my eyes were filled up with tears that I couldnt see. I dropped the note and cried for the first time since I had arrived here. I knew he wouldn't want me to cry over him. But I couldnt help it. I loved him. So much.

I opened the drawer to find my engagment ring and I pickd up the note and dropped it in. I glanced at the ring and picked it up placing it on my finger.

"Forever and always" Derrick had said putting the ring on my finger.

I had replied with a smile and a I love you.

I looked back at the ring. Accepting for the first time that..

He was gone.

He wasn't coming back.

He was gone..

Forever.

Suddenely... Everything had changed.

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