Endlessly
Chapter 1: Reminisce
Shinn Asuka went and lied down on a hill close to his house. He needed time for himself since he's one day away from the biggest decision he'll ever make. He thought that the biggest decision he made was joining the war as a ZAFT pilot. He needed to console himself and ask a very big question.
"Will I be able to forget about my past and look forward to a future with her?" He asked aloud
Lately, he's been thinking about him and Stellar. The time they spent together, her flowery scent, her short yellow hair and her ever sparkling pink eyes that shone brightly everytime he looked at them
Shaded by trees, calling out to the wind, I'm lying face down crying
I saw another version of myself that I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in grief of someone who'll never be seen again
Then he remembered the day she past away. He was holding her in his arms in the middle of the battlefield. She was barely alive as she said her last words that made parting with her very difficult for this young pilot.
Please don't go, no matter how much you scream
All it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow
I send the memories in my palm faraway
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming
If only he had the strength and power to protect her then this might have never happened. Now he'll never be able to see this yellow-haired beauty ever again. He thought that he could not go on without her then someone comes along, willing to share his pain with her.
The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently
After his family died he asked God to shed some light to his uncertain life and a miracle. He thought that Stellar was the light God sent him but the light quickly burned down. Then he began to doubt God, he even thought if there was even a God at all. If there is, why is he playing with his heart?
In the pure white unstained by sorrow
The orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost
I'll cross over the far-off, red stained sand
The rhythm of farewell
Then he said to himself that Stellar was not the light God sent him, it was Lunamaria. The girl that fought in the battlefield alongside him. The girl that cried with him after he lost Stellar. The girl that gave him a reason to live again. How stupid of him to only realize it now.
Branded into my memories, on this ever-turning earth
There is something sprouting in remembrance
At first, he didn't thought of Lunamaria as a lover but as a comrade. They were still in military school then. He paid no attention to her, he only focused on being a strong pilot. Then they were sent on the Minerva. He thought of her as a nuisance but she proved to be useful on the battlefield. Stellar was the one who came and was taken away quickly while Lunamaria was the one who came first and stayed.
Sending off the dawn's carriage
These orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it's placed in my hands once more
Please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning…
Everything is clear to him now. He found the answer to the question he asked earlier. You can't escape the past but that doesn't mean that you'll forever be trapped within its grasp.
He stood up to leave only to see Lunamaria making her way to him. He went to her and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
"I was going to head back, what are you doing here?" he asked, expecting the obvious answer
"I went to your- I mean our house but you weren't there. I knew you'd be here, especially when tomorrow is the big day" she replied as she and Shinn sat down together on the soft grass
"Is something bothering you?" she asked. She always knew that Shinn always go to this hill when he has a problem or just needs some space.
"I just thought about my past. I've been asking myself a very difficult question lately. Shinn, will you be able to forget your past and look forward to a future with Luna?" he said then Lunamaria placed her hand in his and held it tightly.
"Shinn, you don't have to forget about the past, it's a part of you. Even though it's painful, it helped us become the person we are today" she said as she smiled softly
"That's what I thought you'd say" he said as he smiled so lovingly at her.
Lunamaria laughed slightly and soon found herself in the arms of her soon-to-be husband. She returned the hug and he kissed her. Soon they found themselves rolling down the hill and into the field of flowers. Shinn was ontop of Lunamaria and he kissed her once more before lying next to her and to watch the sky.
"It's so weird…" said Lunamaria suddenly
"What's weird?" asked Shinn
"The sky. It seems to be the same. Even though a lot has happened and many years have gone by, the sky remained the same"
"That's because the sky has to remain the same. Even if the rest of the world changes, the sky has to remain the same" replied Shinn as he stood up and offered Lunamaria a hand and helped her stand up then they made their way to their home hand in hand
"Gee, I hope nothing wrong goes tomorrow" said Lunamaria
"Honey, don't be so worried. Everything will go smoothly" said Shinn as he placed a kiss on her forehead
"You're right. But I can't stop worrying" then Shinn pressed his lips against hers passionately
"Did that took care of your worries?" asked Shinn with a big smile on his face. Lunamaria smiled once more and kissed him again. They walked hand in hand towards their home, knowing that everything will be okay as long as they have each other.
Author's notes: WEEEEHHH!!!! It's my first time to publish a story so I hope that everything will go well. I'm currently working on Chapter 5 right now... I'm really excited to finish this story.
Anyway, the song I used is Akatsuki no kuruma performed by FictionJunction YUUKA from Gundam Seed. It's one of my favorite songs and it really suits this chapter. I used the english translation of the lyrics (Admit it, only few understands nihonggo)
As for the next chapters, I'll publish it whenever I have time (sometimes I too lazy to upload)
And lastly, please review. Reviews make me realize my errors and inspires me to work harder
(*^o^*) Peace out! (*^o^*)