"Weak"
"Useless''
"Fangirl"
That were the things that they thought about me. Am I realy so weak? I became depressed but I wore always a fake smile.
They think that I am an useless cilvilian brat that I am only encouraging my team mates and that I self do nothing, that I feel that Sasuke is more important than my training. They think that I never hear them talk, they think that I have no reason to cry,that it is a weakness. I wear a fake smile so they don't see my feelings, they don't deserve to see my feelings ... my weakness.
But I've had enough from this. I will not be useless, weak and staying behind. I will be strong. They will see that I don't need them.
If I was not weak. If I had something special,something like family techniques (eye technique,shadow thing,Ino's thing etc.)or something strong inside of me or pretty strong techniques that I could learn. But no I came from a small clan with only cilvians in it, I am not strong and who would learn me (that useless thing) something. If I had only the chance.
I had woke up this morning pretty early (3:35). And I knew that I couldn't sleep after my dream.I had these dreams often since the mission too mist. They were not normal dreams, they feel real. My friends don't know about these dreams. No one knew about those dreams. The dreams where I'am strong. I want a chance. A chance too shine.
There is training with my team tomorrow. I hope that Sasuke-Kun is nicer.
This is the first time that I write something so I hope that you like it.
I am going to make chapter 2 if I have 2 or 3 comments. So comment because I realy like to know what people think about my writing.
Sorry for my bad Englisch.