I sadly do not own Harry Potter, but oh well there is always the choice of making fanfiction about it.

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Many students at Hogwarts knew that James Potter loves Lily Evans, but Lily doesn't like James at all.

It had first started in first year when James first laid his eyes on Lily, but sadly she didn't fell the same.

No one could of guessed what would happen in their sixth year at Hogwarts. Amazing thing really is

what a few careless remarks can do to a person even a strong one. It can cause doubts and cause

change in a person for the best or worst. In James Potter's case it was for the worst and causes him

to fall. His life has gone down hill and keeps on going down. One may wonder how since after all James

Potter is a pure blood, rich and has loyal friends, but even when you have all that it can still happen.

After all we are human and have feelings.

James Potter was walking with his friends (Sirius, Remus and Peter) to the compartment. Sirius and James were planning a prank, Peter was listening and Remus was reading of course. Remus soon had to go to the prefects compartment and the others bought candy to stuff themselves up. Then James's crush or as he calls her the love of his life was walking by going to the prefect's compartment.

James said quicky to Lily "Hey Lily how was your summe---"

Lily stopped and turned towards James then snapped "Shut it Potter."

Before James could say something she was gone and Sirius said to him "Oy bad luck Prongs."

James muttered "Shut it Padfoot."

Peter said in a hopeful voice "There is always next time."

James nodded and then asked "Why does she hate me?"

Sirius rolled his eyes and stated "Why not ask Evans the next time you see her."

James muttered "Good idea."

James, Sirius and Peter were dressed in the Hogwart's uniform. James was day dreaming about what Lily would say and maybe this time she will tell him that it is because he was being too bold since she is shy. Sirius was thinking of a new prank to pull and who to do the prank one maybe some Slytherins. Peter was eating the candy that they bought and was thinking of nothing at all at the moment. This is all that they ever do when they were on the Hogwart's express nothing much to do really expect playing some games,thinking, reading, talking, or eating something. Time seem to go by slowly and finally they arrived at Hogwarts. New kids getting sorted into the four houses Gryffindor, Ravenclaw, Hufflepuff and Slytherin. James yawned and decided to just stare at Lily. Sirius was checking out the lady's (Not the first years, second years, third years and fourth years). Remus of course watched the sorting and Peter also due to the fact that there was nothing else to do.

Finally the sorting was over and soon dinner was served. James and Sirius ate the most. Lily rolled her eyes at how messy those two always ate. Afterwards James walked over to Lily and asked her "Why do you hate me?"

Lily repiled "Because your annoying and a jerk."

James nodded and then asked "Is it about how I look?"

Lily rolled her eyes and answered with sarcasm "Oh Yes Potter. Your fat and ugly. So yeah it is the looks not your annoying personality. After all why would I date you. I mean I will not ever date you. You have been trying since first year."

James looked thoughtful then walked away thinking 'So it's because of my looks? I change that plus my personality. Maybe then Lily would love me like I love her.'

Lily's friend said to her "That wasn't really nice you know. He could of took that to heart because he does love you. James Potter is good looking."

Lily stated ",But his personality reeks."

Lily's friend repiled "Just because he pulls pranks you won't date him."

James went back to his friends and said to them in a matter of fact voice "She finds my personality to be quite annoying. So I have to become less annoying and more charming."

James thought to himself 'I need to loss weight and become more focus.'

Sirius said to James "You look a bit sad."

James repiled "Of course I'm because the love of my life said to my face that my personality is annoying."

Sirius stated "I do not know what is so good about Evans. She hates you and for no reason. I mean you have not dated any girls due to the fact of you wanting only Evans. Just forget her already cause she is not ever going to say yes."

James sighed and thought 'Maybe I'm not good enough for Evans..Maybe I should date someone else to see how it feels, but then I'll compare her to Evans..I don't know, but I'll become better for Evans.'

That was the start of James Potter's fall, starting to doubt his looks and being not good enough for Lily.

From then on James started to skip meals and of course his friends noticed, but thought it was a phase and besides James could be at the kitchen eating something the house elves gave. Every day James checked his weight and noticed the decrease. He was not sure how thin he should become in order fot Lily to like him, but knew not to the point of the bones. James needed a girl's thoughts on the matter and seeked one out.

James walked over to Sara Tash and she was a seventh year Gryffindor. Sara was tall, long light blond, slight tan, light blue eyed girl and slender. Sara noticed James walking towards her and she was calm about it.

James asked Sara nicely "Sara, How thin should a person become?"

Sara had noticed that James was not eating much even if Lily Evans didn't notice and if he is not careful he might become Anorexia.

Sara repiled "Well, There is a certain weight for someone with certain height and built. Most people talk to Healers or go to Madam Pomfrey."

James nodded and said to her "Thanks."

Sara watched as James left and hoped that he does go see Madam Pomfrey. James thought to himself 'I can't do that because what if I'm told that I'm fat...Then Lily...I have to keep on doing this if I have a chance to have Lily as my girlfriend...I won't give up.'

James didn't notice that his bones were starting to show and Sirius couldn't take it any longer. He needed to know what was wrong with his friend James. Sirius didn't want to lose his friend to whatever is troubling him.

Sirius noticed that James has walked into the common room which was empty due to the fact of it being in the late evening. Sirius walked up to James and asked him "What is wrong."

James repiled simply without looking Sirius in the eye "Nothing."

Sirius stated to him while looking James in the eye "Your terrible at lying."

James sighed and then muttered "I'm fat or at least that is what Lily thought at the start of this year along with being annoying. So I have been losing weight since she is the love of my life and I don't want to lose her."

Sirius thought 'So this is why James has been skipping meals and being quiet.'

James sat down on the red couch as did Sirius.

Sirius sighed and then said to James "Prongs, I can see your bones and your pale. That is not healthy and you were not ever fat. Right now you look like a twig and fragile as glass also pale as snow. You need to gain some weight Prongs and if Evans thinks your fat then she is blind."

James sighed and then said quietly "And she doesn't notice me. I have lost weight plus less annoying. She must be so happy with me not bugging her and I'm glad because I want her to be happy."

Sirius stated "Prongs, Just forget her. She is not worth it and you need to eat more. I'm serious if you do not gain any weight then I will get Madam Pomfrey."

James sunk into the couch and then repiled "Alright I'll try."

James tried to gain weight, but couldn't for everytime he ate he felt sick. So Sirius had to get Madam Pomfrey.

Madam Pomfrey saw James Potter and said to him "I know from the looks of you James Potter that now you are Anorexia. Here is a potion that will help, take it daily for two weeks and soon you'll be able to eat on your own."

James nodded and then took the potion. He walked away and Sirius was about to follow.

Madam Pomfrey told Sirius "Make sure he takes the Potion daily and afterwards eats okay."

Sirius repiled to her "Of course. He is my friend."

After two weeks James was back to his normal and healthy weight. Yet he was still quiet and has not planned any pranks yet.

Sirius said to James "Finally back to a healthy weight."

James smiled and repiled "Yep and feeling better."

James saw the love of his life Lily and decided to go talk to her. Lily noticed Potter walking towards her and raised an eyebrow.

James smiled and then asked "Am I less anoying now?"

Lily said to him "Yes until you came over here to me."

Lily's friend poked on her and whispered "Come on be nice to James. You didn't even notice because you were too busy studying."

Lily sighed and then said to James "How are you."

James smiled and repiled "Fine. Will you go out with me?"

Lily repiled "Uh sure Potter."

James asked "Next week sunday at say 7:45Am meet at the three broomsticks?"

Lily nodded and then said "I'll be there."

James was happy and walked over to tell Sirius the good news. Lily rolled her eyes and then muttered "Dumb dare."

Lily's friend said to Lily "Don't break his heart."

Lily repiled simply "I heard Potter just snogs girls then leave them heart broken."

Sirius asked James with a grin "Think your going to finally lose your first kiss to Evans?"

James repiled while smiling "Of course, I have been waiting for this day to come and I did not lose any hope."

Little did James know that Lily is going to break his heart to pieces. Lily thought he was a player and a jerk, but in reality he is not one. Will this be the last straw for James Potter before he completely breaks down? Will he bounce back or not?

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