Authors Note: Yeay! This is my very first fan fic! :) I really like Kimi ni Todoke, specially the Ryu and Chizu love team. Sorry for the errors. :P –deveraux09

This story is based upon Ryu's perspective.

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"He was sitting alone on the bank of the river. He couldn't help but think of her."

It's summer vacation again. Three months of separation with her. *Sigh*. I really can't help but think of her every day; her smiles, her humor, her thoughtfulness and her clumsiness. The way she acts that she doesn't care, but deep inside she really does. I wonder if I will be able to tell her how I feel. Will I be able to show her how much I love her? It hurts me so much when I see her desperately clinging for my brother's love. I mean, she could have me. Why does it have to be him when I'm always here for her? This is utterly frustrating. It feels like: "I'm missing her even though she's right next to me, yet I can't have her and I'm just watching her fall helplessly in love with someone else." *SIGH…*

"Hey. What was that all about?" said by a soft voice that brought me back to reality.

I was shocked. She was just right there at the very moment I'm thinking of her. I can't find the exact words to say. It was hopeless and embarrassing at the same time. When I looked up, I saw that she is quite irritated with my reaction. Because of that, she gave me my usual punishment. She really messed my hair now.

"What the hell are you doing Chizuru?" I said half irritated, half amused.

"Oh. Ryu-chan. You are so weird today," she exclaimed.

"Shut up. I'm not in the mood for games."

"Ryu-chan! You really act like a kid today. (*laughs*)"

"Why are you here anyway? Don't you have anything to do?"

"I just missed you. Oh well, don't give it a meaning. I was just, anyway. Never mind. (*blushes*)"

She took me by surprise. It was as if I felt that there were butterflies in my stomach. I started laughing and that made her really mad. She was already aiming a punch on my face, when I realized that she tripped on a rock.

"Chizu, watch out!"

"Waaahhhh. I'm going to fall."

Miraculously, I caught her. She was secured in my arms. I couldn't ask for more. She was still shocked. Then all of a sudden, I felt like saying it.

"I love you and I always will."

I have finally said it… Those magical words… I hope it reached her.

"What did ya say?" she asked me.

"Did you not hear it?" I replied.

"No. I didn't I was really shocked for I thought I'm going home soaked. So, can you please repeat what you said?"

"No."

"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!"

"I said no. Are you deaf?"

"Why won't you say it again? I said I'm sorry I didn't hear it. `Come on. Tell me. We're brothers, right? You can tell me anything."

"No. You ruined my perfect momentum."

"I hate you Ryu! You're always like that. Wait. Do you mean to tell me that you have finally found your so-called someone?"

"Well… As a matter of fact, I already found her."

"Who is she? You're a total cheater! (*stomps her feet in total frustration*)"

"Alright... Ask me questions that are only answerable by yes or no."

"Do you love her?"

"Yes."

"Is she important to you?"

"Yes, you're right she is."

"How long have you known her?"

"You're asking me a different question there lady."

"Sorry. I'm just curious anyway. But if you don't want to answer, it's okay. Oh. I have to go now. I still got to buy some ingredients in the shop right there."

"I've known her since I was young."

"What did you say?"

"You heard me right."

"Could it be the girl that we used to play with when we were young?"

"Never mind, you really are the worst."

"Come on, Ryu tell me."

"Why do you have to look for something different when in fact it's right there just in front of you?"

"Ryu. You're so weird today."

"It's you."

"What?"

"I said it's you. I love you Chizuru."

"Well, considering the fact that we're brothers, I love you too Ryu."

"It's not like that Chizu. I love you more than that."

She was stunned. I didn't wait for what she will say. I just walked towards my bicycle and rode it. I realized that I can never be Toru. Maybe I can never have her. Maybe I might as well, give up.

"Ryu!" a familiar voice shouted and I stopped, I looked back.

I saw no one familiar. Maybe I've finally lost my senses. As I was about to go, someone stopped me. It was Shouta.

"Did you tell her?"

"Yes. I already did. But I don't know if we're going to be friends again. I walked out the moment I told her."

"Man. That sucks! But you can tell me anything that's bothering you, right?"

"Thanks Shouta. I'll remember that. I better keep going."

What if things wouldn't be the same after this? What if our relationship crumbled into dust? But still, someday, somehow I really wish that it will reach her.

(To be continued…)

AUTHOR'S NOTE: I do apologize for Ryu's attitude. It seemed like he was the damsel in distress here. Hehe. I'm sorry. Anyway, It is my very first fan fic. I hope that I can do better next time. Till here :)!