"night of the full moon"

Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything. But I did make this story up. This takes place after they got out of school but before the Potters' die and the marauders are broken up. Oh, and check out the song, "My Sundown" by Jimmy Eat World. It's good for Remus and Sirius, but a word of caution, it's depressing. It could be Sirius as he's dying. If you picture him falling through the veil while it plays, you cry big time.

Chapter 1: discussion with Lily

Remus' POV

It was the full moon. Never a happy time, especially not for me. I had a horrible cold; my immune system was always a little low before the full moon. But none of these was the thing really bothering me. The thing that was bothering me was the fact that tonight, for the first time in about seven or eight years, I was going to transform alone. No Sirius, no James, no Peter. James and Sirius had to go on a secret mission for Dumbledore's order and no one knew where Peter was lurking about these days. So, I was left alone. I'm always the last one, the last one with nothing to do who's always abandoned. I was convinced I would live though.

I shuddered and pulled my tattered old blanket tighter around my thin shoulders as shivers racked my body. I sneezed violently and went into a horrible coughing fit. I gasped and took a swig of water as I calmed down. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. I got up warily, my head swimming, and tottered to the door. I peeked through the peephole and saw Lily Evans Potter. What a saint.

I opened the door and went forward to hug her as she came in. I ended up collapsing into her arms on my unsteady and weak legs. She caught me and helped me to the couch again, and then she pulled up a chair and sat next to me.

"So," she began. "How do you feel?"

"Not very good."

"I can see. Are you sure you'll be all right alone tonight?"

"No, nothing is for sure, but what are you going to do about it, Lils?"

"I wish I could bundle you up in my arms to stop you from going through so much pain. Or turn into an animal myself to help you."

"Oh don't be silly Lily," I said, through hacking coughs. "Heh, that rhymes."

"Oh Remus, you can even bring humor out of something like this!" Lily said, giggling. "And by the way, those are very nice pajamas." She giggled more and gestured to my plaid pajamas.

I chuckled. "Sirius gave them to me as a sort of a joke last year. Mary likes them though." Mary O'Reilly and I had been going out since our sixth year at Hogwarts.

"Oh, that's good. I expect she sees a lot of them, right?" she said, giggling harder still.

"If you're implying that I have girls overnight here," I lowered my voice. "Then you're right. But don't tell Sirius, he thinks I'm a good boy and I wouldn't want to ruin my image." I chuckled. "But only Mary."

"I figured. I never thought of you as a player like old Sirius!"

"I would never be like Sirius in any way! But he is a good friend." I leaned over to my table and took a drink of water that was spit out just as soon as I had raised the cup to my lips.

"Remus! What's wrong?" Lily asked, for I had just doubled over in pain. Then she looked out the window and saw that the sun was beginning to set.

"Oh, I had better go. Good luck." She kissed my cheek that was beginning to get a bit hairy and let herself out. She turned around and performed a complicated sealing charm on the door so the werewolf wouldn't get loose. Then, she apparated.

I let out a rather animal-like scream as my bones broke and reformed themselves into the shape of the werewolf. I began to get considerably hairier. I felt the world slipping away from me and the wolf part of my mind taking over. Soon, it had, and all I wanted was blood. I wanted to kick in all the windows but when I tried to, the glass wouldn't break and I was rebounded back. I felt a few ribs break as I hit the floor. This was not going to be a good night.

A/N: yes, a new story. This is the much I have ever posted in a week! I'm proud of myself! Well, please review and let me know how it is so far! This isn't a Remus/Lily fic but it isn't slash either, I hope you noticed the mention of his girlfriend. Keep in mind that he has girls overnight in the next chapter when your mind strays to the possibility of slash. Well, stay tuned!