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Chapter 1

BellaPOV

"For fuck sake!"

"Push it!"

"BELLA!"

"Oh god…"

"Fuck"

I sighed and fell backwards, sitting on the hardwood floor and staring at the confusing manual I held in my hands, while my best friend Alice tried to fit a screw into a plank of wood marked 'Part D'.

"Why do you need another dresser Ali? I mean, u have a freaking room dedicated to your clothes as it is" I grumbled, picking up a screwdriver and tried to figure out which nail was type 3...

"FYI, it's a vanity table dumb ass, not a dresser. And you can never have too many clothes" Alice, in her frustration, slammed the wood down on the floor and crossed her arms, glaring at the half assembled drawer she had laid out in front of her. I didn't blame her, I already had 3 band aids on one hand.

"Whatever… I say we wait till Jasper gets home, cause its obvious we just weren't meant for DIY" she agreed and stood, brushing herself off before helping me up.

We ended up on her sofa, with ice tea and marshmallows while watching re-runs of Friends.

Alice had been my best friend since forever. I cant remember a time when we weren't friends. Even though we were complete opposites. Alice being hyper and a shopaholic, and me being the calm, nerdy one who prefers to read rather than check out what the latest fashion was. Knowing each other forever, and now she was marrying her high school sweetheart. It was like something from a fairy tale. Anyone who saw what they had would be envious.

Even me sometimes, but I would never say that. Alice deserved everything she got and more.

"You working tomorrow?"

"Unfortunately yes, but after that, I'm free for the next 3 weeks while we prepare for your wedding. Excited?"

"Yes! I mean, I knew it would happen eventually, but now its here, and it's just like… wow!" I laughed, watching the faraway look cross her face.

"Earth to Alice" I chuckled, waving my hand in front of her face.

"Shut up. You'll be the exact same when you find that special someone" She grinned and turned back to the TV. I could only offer a fake smile in return.

I wished she was right, but I knew the truth. My chance and been and gone. I had what she had. The boyfriend, the home, the flawless life with the one I loved. But I threw it all away, and I will never stop regretting it. It had been a year since I last saw him. I wasn't the only one to blame for the mess we got into, he had as much to do with it, even if he didn't know it.

We met in Seattle, when I was on one of my many shopping trips that Alice dragged me on. Her car had broke down, leaving us with no way home, so her brother dearest had to pick us up. When he pulled up in that silver Volvo, and stepped out wearing dark wash jeans that hugged his hips, and a grey t-shirt that outlined his abs perfectly... I had been obsessed ever since. I shook my head to clear it. I wasn't going back there.

"We fly out Saturday, you packed?"

"Alice, I have 2 days. My suitcase is lying open on the floor, empty. I have plenty time" I scoffed, throwing a marshmallow in the air and catching it swiftly in my mouth. One thing I could do without embarrassing myself.

"WHAT! BELLA!" I cringed. I should know better with Alice…

"Calm down Ali! I'll start tonight" She gave me a deadly look, and I knew not to push her.

"Fine, I'll start now"

"You better. Now go! Hurry up!" She yelled, pointing towards my bedroom door. I grimaced but grabbed a handful of marshmallows and went to work.

Because Alice's mom and dad lived in Washington, where we grew up, Alice wanted to be married where it all started for her and Jasper. I thought it was sweet. Just now, we lived in New York. The two lovebirds shared a flat across the hall from me, while I lived by myself. After high school, we wanted a taste of the big city, so we moved over here. It turned out to be a good thing, as Alice had her own boutique, and I had an amazing job as a column writer for The New York Times.

It didn't take me long to fill half the suit case within' half an hour. Most of it was comfy jeans, t-shirts, sweaters, sweats, and one of my warmer jackets. I knew it wouldn't be as warm there as it was here. After a while, Alice came in, and after catching a glance at my case, sighed heavily and picked it up, tipping its contents onto the floor.

"Alice!"

"Don't 'Alice' me. Did you think I would let you get away with this? I don't think so. Have I taught you nothing?"

"I'm not letting you pack my case for me. You'll end up packing things I never even wear!"

"And I have no idea why you don't! You would look fuck awesome if you just wore the outfits I buy you" she whined, fingering a brown leather jacket I had with wool lining. I just glared at her, but all I got in response was a puppy-pout. It didn't take long (though it never usually does ) and I huffed in aggravation, and threw the jacket in the case.

Knowing she had won, Alice continued going through the items of clothes I owned.

"On one condition Alice! I get to pick some of my own things"

"Fine fine" She waved me off, and went back to examining my collection of shoes. I didn't fail to notice her subtly shove my chucks to the back, out of sight.

"The converse come with me. No arguments or you can forget about helping" With that, I left to get one of my many doses of caffeine.

"Hurry up! The flight leaves in 10 minutes!" I yelled, running as fast as I could with Alice and Jasper hot on my heels as we ran to the gate our plane was sat at. We had slept in this morning, with our building suffering a power cut last night which reset all our alarms. What cheered me up though was waking the couple, and both scampering out the bedroom looking like hell. Alice, with her short spiky black hair, half was flattened out while the other stuck up at an odd angle, while jaspers shaggy blond hair was matted against his forehead and a slight stubble gracing his cheeks and jaw. It was a funny picture to see them standing there dishevelled.

"Stupid suitcase! MOVE!" Jasper and I laughed, watching Alice try to keep up while her case swayed from side to side as she ran with it. We finally made it to the gate where the stewardess was busy counting boarding passes and about to make her own way onto the aircraft.

"Wait! Wait! We're on this flight!" I called, rushing up to her and just about ploughing down the stand she stood behind. Her eyes went wide for a second as I adjusted myself before plastering the required fake smile on her face and asking for our passes.

Jasper caught his breath, leaning forward on his knees and holding up one fingers. I started tapping my foot quickly, wanting to just get on, find our seats and settle for the long flight.

"Stop tapping Bella, we cant all run as fast as you can. Nor can we fall down as many times as you did" I glared, and jerked my knee upwards, but stopped it a few inches away from his crown jewels as a threat.

"Wow! Dude! Not the goods!" he automatically covered his crotch while handing over our passes, his eyes watching me while I shot daggers at him.

"When you kids are quite done…" Alice moaned, dragging her carry on behind her as the stewardess held the door open for us. I poked my tongue out at him, before jumping ahead and walked through before him. Suck that bitch.

We were lucky enough to have 3 seats beside each other, at the window too. First me, then Alice and then Jasper. I suppose it made him feel better if he was on the outside. A protective thing I guess. Pfft, men…

"Could all crew members please take a seat and buckle in for take off"

I watched as the runway stretched out ahead of us, and gripped the arm rests for my safety. I could feel the pressure as I was slowly pressed into the back of the seat as the plane gained speed, and with a small bump, we had lift off. Everyone clapped and cheered before calming down and sorting out their gear for the journey.

I wasn't the biggest fan of flying, but it was mostly just the take off and landing that freaked me out. As I settled down, ignoring the mini make-out session happening beside me, I pulled out my worn copy of Wuthering heights and started at chapter 1 of my favourite book.

"Oh Bella, I need to talk to you"

"Hmm?" I mumbled, too engrossed with my book.

"Its about the wedding"

"Don't worry. Everything will be fine" Turning the page I started on chapter 9.

"Your not listening to me"

"Yes Alice"

"Edward is Jaspers best man" Okay, well done Alice for finding the best way to get someone's attention. Was she freaking kidding! He was going to be there! No way.

"And you didn't think to tell me this, oh I don't know, a few MONTHS ago!"

"Would you have come if I did?" She had a point. I hated Edward. I had managed to avoid him for a whole year, no tears shed because of him for just as long!

"Yes"

"Yeah right. Your like my sister, and I wanted you there for my special day. Edward is Jaspers best friend and my brother, did you think I wasn't going to invite him?"

"But Alice you know how much I cant stand him…" I whined, slapping my book on my lap and pouting slightly. I didn't know what I hoped to achieve, but I was pissed!

"I know, but can you just get though these next 3 weeks? Then you never have to see him again. You'll be too busy with me anyway" She grabbed my hand and lifted it to her chin, in a begging fashion while she fluttered her eyelashes at me.

"I don't have much of a choice really, do I? I'm already on the plane…" I huffed and took my hand back, picking my book up and turning my back to her (or as best I could in an economy seat).

"Don't be mad"

"Shhh!"

"Bella-"

"Shut up!" I snap, plugging my ear plugs in and turning the volume of my ipod right up so I can block out every other noise.

When the plane landed, I made sure to stay a few steps ahead of Jasper and Alice, heading straight through customs and straight towards luggage claim, and after standing for a few minutes, my black duffle crawled along the conveyor belt. I didn't fail to notice the hot pink plastic case behind it. Alice never knew the meaning of simple. Rolling my eyes at her vibrancy, I grab my bag and headed outside, looking for the two people I probably missed most.

"Bella! Alice, Jasper!" Esme waved at us from the sidewalk, jumping up and down to grab our attention. Her caramel hair tossed around behind her, her green eyes twinkling with excitement as we made our way over. Behind her, leaning on the black car, was Carlisle. He hadn't changed in the 3 years since I seen him last. His hair was still cropped short, and still the amazing blonde, except now there were a few noticeable grey hairs highlighting it. As he grinned at us, his age became more obvious, with the small creases in the corners of his eyes. These people were like second parents to me, and treated me the same way they did their own children. I could honestly say I loved them just as much as I loved my own mother and father.

"Esme! Oh my god, I missed you so much!" I exclaimed, dumping my bag by my feet and wrapping my arms around her, jumping up and down with her on the concert.

"I know Bella! It's been too long! I missed you guys so much!" I knew it was only time before the water works started, and soon we were both blubbering.

"Now now, enough with the tears. Where's my other daughter and son-in-law!" I passed her on, swapping Alice Esme for Carlisle.

"Hello darling" I smiled up at him, and jumped up to wrap my arms around him too. He was always really tall, surprising how Alice came out so tiny. We hugged for a good few minutes, and I felt the welcome radiating off the both of them, along with the happiness that was obviously shinning from their eyes.

"My children all home where they belong, god, and about time too! How dare you not visit me for a whole year, Isabella Maria swan!"

"Sorry Esme, you know I would of if I had been able to" I really did feel bad. How could I avoid these people on the off chance I might bump into Edward? Never again would I do that. Simply being in their presence reminded me how much I missed them.

"Well come on, everyone else is at the house and I assume you guys want to relax for the rest of the day after such a long flight" Esme hadn't changed in the slightest. Her loving and compassionate nature showing immediately. Never mind we hadn't seen her in so long, she puts us first, like she would anyone.

Carlisle and Jasper loaded the car with our cases while us girls climbed in. Esme in the back with Alice and I while Jasper and Carlisle sat in front. The car smelled of them, and I found comfort in it. We drove off, heading in the direction of Forks, a few hours from Seattle. Small chit chat was made, and even though I was pissed, I couldn't stay mad at Alice, especially with Esme here now, and she knew it, shooting me friendly smiles or blowing kisses my way with an apologetic look, playing it up as much as possible. And sad to say, it was working.

It didn't take long, but soon enough the busy city streets were replaced with long curvy roads surrounded by trees taller than our apartment building. When we reached Forks, the foliage became more luscious, birds flying in flocks over head, a small lake visible though the undergrowth and the scent of pine woods drifted in through the window. The car turned off onto a dirt path, winding its way deeper into the woods, until it came to a large clearing, and sat in the middle, was home.

The big white mansion looked just as magnificent as last time. The whole side of the house was made of glass, including the front of the ground level, showing the hallway inside. The steps were lined with small tea-light candles, each covered by a fancy looking dish with only intensified its glow. Carlisle pulled up out front, so it would be easier to empty the car. In 10 seconds flat, we were all out the car and squealing in delight.

"Welcome Home guys. Yours rooms are still the same, so feel free to go in. I'm sure the guys can help get your stuff later" Alice and I grinned like fools at Esme, and ran off at full speed towards the house, almost busting down the door and skipping into the main lobby area and then, into the living room, where the noise of the TV was coming from."Hands up who missed me!" We stood by the door as 3 sets of eyes turned to look at all the commotion.

"Could it be! Tweedle-Dum and Tweedle-Dee!" Emmett exclaimed, standing up and running over, scooping up us and twirling us around. It was easy for him, what with his impressive build and 6'6 height. He was like, a full grown teddy bear. And if you didn't know what he was really like? Well, you wouldn't want to meet him in a dark alley. In truth, he would never hurt a fly.

"Ow Emmett! Need to breath man" I groaned out, feeling my ribs being slowly crushed. He dropped us and placed a sloppy kiss on our cheeks. Nope, he hasn't changed, except his dark hair with used to hang down by his ears was cut short and curly, but I could still see the old Emmett in his brown eyes.

"Yuck! Jeez Emmett" Alice whined rubbing her cheek fiercely. I just laughed and gave him a more gentle hug, which he returned, now he had calmed down.

"Move over moron, my turn!" More squealing erupted as Rosalie pranced forward, pulling us together for a group hug. She was Jaspers sister, and one of our best friends. She shared his ultra blond hair and blue eyes, but she had the body that would put any swimsuit model to shame, and she knew she had it, and she made it a point to flaunt it 24/7. Her hair hung in lose curls to her waist, while she sported her signature red lipstick.

"Well, I see the girls have been reunited" Carlisle chuckled, standing in the doorway with Esme.

"You better believe it!" Rose mumbled, never loosening her death grip around our necks.

"I believe someone is missing? Where is my little niece?"

"Oh she's upstairs sleeping. We just flew in yesterday and she's till a little jet-lagged" Rose explained, stepping back and I could see the gleam in her eyes as she spoke of her baby girl. Rose and Emmett had been dating since before we met, and last year they ran off to Vegas and married. And what do you know, 9 months later, we get a call saying Samantha McCarty had been born. It was safe to say she was the centre of both Emmett and Rosalie's worlds.

"Emmett, Jasper, want to give me a hand getting the cases? You know how Alice is…"

"Hey! Don't start with me dad, I'm here for 3 weeks. 3 WEEKS!" the guys chuckled as Alice stomped after them and out to the car.

"Why don't I go get Sammy? I'm sure she wants to see everyone too" I nodded quickly, eager to see my niece.

Soon everyone had left, and I was left standing in the living room by myself, or so I thought.

A throat clearing brought me out of my thoughts and I turned, only to gape at the person in front of me.

He was just as tall as I remember, his hair a mop of disarray on his head, almost like he had just got out of bed, or had just had a good fuck. He stood awkwardly in the middle of the seating area, wearing a pair of black skinny jeans that clung to his legs in a way that made me nearly drool. A white t-shirt that showed off the well defined muscles underneath and a black leather jacket left open, and to top it off, a pair of ray bans hung from his neck. It was like he had just got back from a photo shoot for fucking Gucci or some shit like that. Then he spoke, and I was brought back to reality with a crash.

"Bella"

"Edward"

Finally finished first chapter! I'm writing in bulk, so when this is posted, I've probably got the next few chapters ready, so this is a pretty pointless authors note… oh well :D

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