This is going to hurt.
Can't hurt worse then it does now.
But won't people notice? Will they understand?
Do they understand now?
The jewish boys mind wraps a web around the idea. Not only does the pain here hurt, but what if the pain never goes away. What if he remembers it later. No one could possible understand the pain that is shoved into the heart of a living being when rejected, not just rejected but banished. Banished from your best friend. The one who was suppose to understand these feelings, the one to never hurt you. That's probably why he loved him. Aside from that, banished from family, from the world. Who thought one could be looked down on based on feelings. They always said to follow your heart, who know a heart could be wrong.