I'm afraid to find out,

I'm afraid to find out,
I'm afraid of what I really feel.
I want to reach out to you,
But you might not be real.

You've captured my heart,
Filling it up more each coming day.
Afraid to feel the old emotional pain,
I'm hesitant for you to stay.

Will you be like the rest?
Doing nothing else but making my cry.
I hate the feeling of heartbreak,
The promises that were all a lie.

How will I know,
That I can trust you with all my heart?
You may turn your back on me,
And I'll be the one to break apart.

Each time I begin to fall,
I'm always left alone in the end.
I'd rather you be beside me,
And be nothing more than a friend.

But being just a friend hurts,
Hurts more than I can bear.
To know that I am nothing to you,
And you just don't seem to care.

I'll keep this silent feeling of mine,
While you're out and I'm keeping quiet.
The worst love that is ever felt,
Is the one that is unrequited.

Hey, I'm missing you like crazy,
But are you still missing me?
I'm trying to keep my heart low,
But this hurting is going slow.

Damn, I need you back in my world,
I'm just missing you and being your girl.
Maybe you have a new girlfriend right?
Sorry, but please keep reading as I write.

I want you back really quickly,
This tension is killing me,
I don't want to wait any longer,
I want you back, that's for sure.

I still love you after these days,
It may be short but I have my ways.
Just promise no more lies an love test,
I been through a lot, give me some rest.

I prove so much that I love you right?
I'm hoping you are taking in what I write.
No more cheating and interfering please?
But if this keep happening, I guess I'll leave.

So here is what I'm saying, I hope theres no doubt.
Baby, if you love me, do you still wanna go out?
Please think hard about that question.
Or being best friends is the only suggestion...