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We'd been patrolling when we stopped to sit by the stream, Jacob had looked so distressed and I knew it had something to do with this swan girl. "Hey, Lee? I've been thinking-" I cut him off before he could finish, my bitterness and care for him taking over. "Dont think. Dont fucking think because when you think you realize just how fucked up everything really is. You realize you dont know how you got where you are and you dont know where you're going and you dont know what to do anymore." I regretted the words almost imediately as I saw his face turn to one of anger.
"Not everyone is as messed up as you, Leah." ouch, that one stung a bit. "You can't just tell me not to think, I love her and he's ruining everything I've done for her."
I rolled my eyes before standing to grab a rock, Jacob flinched as I turned. "Relax Jacob, I'm not going to throw it at you." I lied. My arm pulled back as I threw the stone full pelt at his head.
"Argh, fuck! What the hell?" he moaned.
I smirked as I sat back down and watched him rub at his head furiously. "Don't compare your problems to mine Jacob, you have no idea. She chose to be with the bloodsucker, you can move on from that. Me? No. Sam left me because Imprinting made Em- her his fate not because he chose her. How do you think it feels knowing that he's still in love with me but neither of us can do a damn thing about it? Huh? It feels like.. I'm dead, I am dead, fucking bury me now Jacob for I no longer live." I threw my hands up above my head as I growled in frustraition.
Jacob tilted his head before opening his mouth to speak. "How do you know he's still in love with you? I mean, he's happy with Emily, all you have to do is look at them to know that."
I stared at him in disbelief, was he that dense? Was I the only one who saw it? "Seriously Jacob? How can you not see how he's changed? People don't just change over night. He loves me, I feel it." I shook my head quickly. "Just leave it alone." and with that I phased.