Title: For God
Author: Tsuki Kami Kira
Rating: PG
Summary: Just a quick one-shot on the chapter 103. Mikami's feelings after rejection. Or rather, what should have been his feelings. If anyone knows Mikami as well as I do, you'll know he'd never spout out the stuff he did in 106. Fake endings really suck. Hope you enjoy, none the less.
kami no tame ni
Kami...sama.
He said it..those words. "I don't know that guy" "He has nothing to do with me." Those words ..as few as they were..etched with the blood of betrayel. My life is exempt. My existance now meaningless.. Did he really mean such a thing. My god..? Did he really mean such a thing..
At some point I had slumped my entire body down, being held up only by my captives who should have died but didn't due to my carelessness. It's my fault Kami. If you said those things because you know of it as my fault.. For that, I am sorry. I watched as he fell to the floor and crawled away and up the side of the sliding shed door. It almost brought tears to my eyes. Get up Kami! Don't show weakness infront of these petty fools who don't understand you! Don't understand us! That's right Kami.. they won't acknowledge you. Because they're weak and give in to 'what's right'. Such an immature kid couldn't possibly understand the concepts of changing a world for the greater good. A brilliant plan to off a few people in a sacrifice to better our world. Even I.. I understood you. I understand you. I wanted myself to be all you needed. Takada too, understood you. But she was too naive and stupid. But just me alone...is not enough? You need such a fallible kid to approve of you.
Kami. I alone, am not enough? That is.. that can't be true. In such a world with morons who follow out of fear or wish to choose the winning side, aren't I your one true adherent? Your vessel for the future? The person you picked out of thousands if not millions to carry out your will. It is I who understand your will. Iya.. maybe I had no choice but to understand it. Why..why is it we have to abide by a world that supports those that pick on the weak, that use cheap tactics to have one up over the other and like vultures, gain something from the people they consume? Why don't these pettiless fools understand us kami? Why do you need them to? Idiots like them...they will never understand..no matter what you say. I'm lifting my head to look into the eyes of your confession. What are you thinking right now Kami...? It's best to leave them to their own ignorance. Even if we shall perish and die by their hand. I'm glad it was was for your sake.
As I made contact with his alluring yet reflective eyes, feeling myself lost in them, I suddenly knew. No, He didn't.
I am forever by kami's side, as long as my body is alive on this earth.
owari