Author's Note: This is told in Ino's Point of view. xD I randomly decided to write some angst, WOOP. Don't care if there are things that aren't coherent with their setting or what happened in the manga/anime. This was just of boredom. And what you get from reading other angst. xD Enjoy? Oh, and I don't own Naruto or their characters. Bummer, eh?
I hated being emotional. Hated it. Hated it. Hated it. Especially starting a week ago, when Asuma had passed away. Now all I do is cry. And every time I cry, I think about who I could go to when I just needed a release of my feelings. And I'd realize that I always went to Asuma to vent about anything. Boys, drama, family, missions; you name it. Which brought on another round of tears.
I usually can count on Shikamaru as my other form of release, but not now, not for this. He was in terrible shape. Even worse than me. And I'm god-awful. I feel bad for him. I want to give him a hug. But I know it'll just make me bust out into tears. I don't know if Shikamaru can handle my grief when dealing with his own.
I would go to Choji since he is another close friend and teammate of mine, but he's also very emotional. He won't eat. He doesn't go near the barbeque place Team 10 went to for a meal treated by Asuma. He doesn't dare.
When I was younger, I would have gone to Sakura. She was my best friend then. I regret the stupid fight we had. And I'm glad we have reconnected. We're slowly getting back into the groove we used to have. But, she has her own problem right now. And that's Sasuke. It tears me apart to see Sakura having to deal with this. It enrages me that Sasuke could have done that to her. And makes me sad when I know I can't help her through it.
When it rains, it pours.
Eventually I think my eyes will run out of tears. There's too much to be sad over. Everything, anything. Everyone has problems and being so emotional makes me feel empathetic and sympathetic towards everyone. I want to help them, but I can't. I can't do anything. I'm weak. I can't even do the things I could before. I'm letting everyone down. I'm neglecting my duties as a ninja, as a daughter, as a friend, and as the determined, motivational girl.
Hot tears trickle down my face, joining the hot water pouring from up above. I turned the water off. I'll tell them I got soap in my eye. I'll tell them of course I took so long, beauty like mine needs tender love and care. But no one will believe me. It's written on my face. They know. And I know they do. But at least I try. I try to fulfill my duties. I try to keep on going. I try to make it through the day without breaking down. It's my training. One day, I'll get there. Hopefully he'll be proud. I try to keep my lip from quivering and eyes from glistening whenever I get even close to thinking his name.
It'll take time. Ages. But once I'm there, I'll help the others. We can get through it. Together.