Based on Joey by Sugarland
Traci and Sam's thoughts about Jerry's death.
A/N: This is only my second fanfic so please review and let me know what you think. I have two more chapters planned and more will come. Thanks to my Sister for beta'ing for me!
Disclaimer: I do not own Rookie Blue or the song Joey
What if I said yes?
What if I'd gone out that night?
What if you turned left
Everything would've turned out alright?
What if I spoke up?
What if I took the keys?
What if I had tried a little harder
Instead of always trying to please?
Joey, I'm so sorry
Oh, can you hear me?
Joey, I'm so sorry
Sam's POV
Why didn't I take that call! I knew that he was lying to us; there was no brother. And yet I trusted a rookie's instincts over my own. Just because she was my girlfriend and I was trying to be less controlling. 'let us make our own mistakes' she said. Well I did and look where it got me! I'm the TO; I'm supposed to make the decisions. I'm so sorry Jerry. You were just starting your life again. You had a great girl and a son. You were planning on getting married and now you are gone. If I had only trusted my gut over her, you would still be here and instead of planning the funeral, we would be planning a wedding. I know we were joking about me not wanting to fly for the wedding but man, I would rather fly around the world than watch you be lowered into the ground.
What if I'd said no?
What if we'd never fell in love?
What if we'd gone slow
Or a little be faster and broken up?
Would I know this hurt?
Would I feel this pain?
Do you know that with all I have left
In my very last breath I will call your name?
Joey, I'm so sorry
Oh, can you hear me?
Joey, I'm so sorry
Traci POV
Oh Jerry, how did we get here? I remember when we first met. As one of my instructors, we weren't allowed to be in a relationship. I was so impressed that you even worked up the nerve to ask that I couldn't say no. If I had I wouldn't feel this pain now. Or what if we hadn't gotten back together after Dex? We wouldn't be engaged and living together now. I wish we had gotten married already. Why didn't I say yes to try for a child. Then I would have had something left of you. I know you would want me to be happy but I can't see myself ever being able to live with…love anyone but you. I'm so sorry I wasn't there with you Jerry but I will make sure my…our son knows how much of a hero you were. I hope he is just like you.
Were you sad? Were you scared?
Did you whisper a prayer to be free?
Was it quiet and cold? Was it light or too dark to see?
And did you reach for me?
Joey, I'm so sorry
Oh, can you hear me?
Joey, I'm so sorry
Oh, can you hear me?
Joey, I'm so
Joey, I'm so sorry