This is my first attempt at a fanfic, and it's actually a fanfic OF a fanfic since someone else wrote a beginning and I just stemmed off of it. I know Bella would never cheat on Edward, but the beginning of this, that was written by the lovely Eleanor (it won't let me post the link, but here's her user number: 1402071) will explain it a little more as to why she is making this decision. Even so, I prefer Jacob to Edward which is why I chose this for her.
We walked the first mile in silence while I continued to radiate anger. It was as if a nuclear bomb had gone off and I was now experiencing the fallout. I just couldn't believe Edward would do such a thing. If it wasn't just for the fact that he knew it would make Jacob jealous, he didn't even seem to care how it made me feel.
These past few months I had been trying relentlessly to get him to give in to me and I thought that finally I had gotten through. Waste. That's all my efforts had been, just wasted time, effort and humiliation. I had even agreed to go shopping with Alice for something sexy to wear, thinking maybe Edward would not be able to say no.
I even wore it to his house one night, uncomfortable as I spoke with Carlisle and Esme. I could only imagine what they would think if they knew what was underneath my t-shirt and jeans. Edward had been all but excited when he got a glimpse of what was there, I had never been one to wear lingerie but here I was wearing a black, lacy push up bra, the tiniest pair of black matching underwear I'd ever seen, complete with straps that hooked on to the garters of my thigh high panty hose. The only thing I seemed to be missing was the stripper shoes. Edward drove me home immediately and made me change; needless to say, I could have died right there out of embarrassment.
"How are you feeling?" Jacob sounded strained when he asked this and I felt like I should be asking him the same thing.
"Beyond pissed, betrayed, humiliated, upset; take your pick. What about you? I'm so sorry; I never thought he would've taken it that far."
"I'll be okay, it's not the first time I've had to over hear things that I didn't particularly like."
In my mind I pictured Edward and I in a tent talking about our future plans, and then the sound of a pained cry.
"Well, I'm about sick and tired of his condescending attitude and his manipulative and dishonorable ways." As I said this I realized how true every word was.
"I would never do that to you," He paused for a second and then let out a small laugh.
"I don't think I'd have the self control to deny you if you were trying something with me. Plus, I love you and I hate seeing you so upset."
I almost told him I loved him back, but I was too busy contemplating more important things. I imagined Jacob and me in his room, him holding me up against the wall. I shuddered with excitement. I was still a little worked up and felt the pent up tension at a high inside me; I wanted nothing more than to release it.
I knew I should feel guilty about what I was about to do, but Edward deserved it, and so did I. I had no idea how to start and we were still about a mile and a half away from his house. As always, my shy nature suddenly threw up a wall between us at the first thought of Jacob and me together.
But I wanted this so bad, and I knew he did too, and it took all the strength I had to push past that wall and slip my hand into his.
To say he was shocked would be an understatement. He was the one who always grabbed my hand, I had never initiated this before and I could see the excitement behind his eyes. We stopped walking suddenly and stood in the woods just staring at each other. Every time I looked into his eyes I realized how much I truly did love him; it was a different love from what I felt with Edward. With Edward it was always an innocent and pure love, the way you should feel the first time you fell. But with Jacob, it was fire and passion and longing.
As if he read my mind he cautiously bent down and kissed me.
Just a peck at first, as if he was testing the waters, but I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck letting him know that this is what I wanted. His excitement and longing peaked and I felt myself being pressed against the nearest tree. The heat from his body was intoxicating and I only hoped I had the same effect on him. Our lips pressed together and our tongues found an unfamiliar rhythm quickly. It felt so natural and right, and I easily put Edward out of my head. If he wasn't going to give me what I wanted, what I needed, then I was going to find other ways.
Just like Edward had said in the car, Jacob whispered in my ear, "You want this, Bella?" Only Jacob's had been a question, whereas Edward was sure of himself.
I pushed myself against him as he reached down and gripped my butt lifting me off the ground and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He removed my clothing and I marveled at how he was able to not rip anything with the speed he had used. His hands groped and caressed and explored my entire body, the tension inside continued to grow.
I was able to get his shirt off easily but had problems with his pants since his hips were pressed so hard against mine. He pulled just far enough away where I could slip my hands easily into them and undo the button. I could feel his boxers becoming wet has he pressed against me. With one hand behind my back holding me up, his other slowly traced from my breast, down my stomach and began rubbing my lips, as if I needed more teasing. He slowly entered me with one finger and I thought I was going to collapse as a loud moan escaped me. This seemed to encourage him as he began pumping inside me and my moans continued.
He suddenly pulled out and I was about to protest when he pulled me away from the tree and laid me down on my clothing. I expected him to continue what he was doing but instead he crouched between my legs and spread my thighs apart. His mouth was on me instantly, his tongue flicking my clit and driving me insane. I never thought it could feel this good and I had to cover my mouth to keep from screaming. He continued to lick and suck as he once again pushed a finger inside me and picked up rhythm. The tension was becoming unbearable and just when I thought I couldn't take it anymore I climaxed intensely.
As my muscles continued to contract, Jacob slid off his boxers and gently laid on top of me. I leaned towards him and kissed him tasting myself on his tongue. He repositioned himself and looked into my eyes.
"I love you, Bella." And before I could respond he pushed inside me, breaking my seal. The pain was instant and intense but quickly subsided, and once he could see it was over he began gently moving inside me.
I was getting pretty sick of this "Bella's made of glass," idea everyone seemed to share and began moving my hips against him. He let out a deep growl and began pumping faster and deeper. I grazed my teeth against his earlobe as he kissed and lightly bit my shoulder. I felt the now familiar tension building up inside me as Jacob continued pushing deeper and harder into my core. I could feel him getting more rigged and shaky and knew he was close too.
His mouth came down hard on mine as we both came at the same time and I was unable to contain my scream.
Jacob collapsed beside me, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me towards him. I was staring into his eyes feeling my emotions and feelings for him growing when he suddenly became very stiff and looked at something behind my shoulder.
I turned to see Edward standing a few yards away with a look of horror on his face.
(P.S.- I changed the ending, or more or less taking some stuff out to make the second chapter make more sense.)