Author's Note:
This story is InspiredbyFyre. ! :D :)) :) Who is one of the most funny/inspirational Authors ever! :D :)) :) What if Azula wasn't able to use that plan she used to save herself? Would Zuko save her? Would the Gaang even let him? Would this be her tragic death? Sure Azula wasn't really the best person to have around. But she was still human. And every human needs a second chance. This story is not only about that but also about Azula's thoughts on what she was thinking while she was falling. Her thoughts mostly include the thoughts about her past.
I do not own ATLA or anything that has to do with it. :( It belongs to Mike and Bryan. Sadly I really don't own anything. I just got this idea from one my favorite authors: Forever Fyre.
BTW Sorry a lot for the long wait...If someone's waiting for this. It was really supposed to be a story, but I got carried away with the words it became a poem-ish (it really does not rhyme that well).-My inspirations are weird that way. Believe me I get my poetic inspirations from the weirdest places. Time to stop the A/N here or I might get carried away again-as usual. Hope you like it and enjoy! :D :)) :)
Azula's POV:
As I fell from my airship I closed my eyes and trembled in fear.
I couldn't die.
Not here and especially not now.
I had a mission to do. An important one that included killing my brother.
Although I hate to admit it, it is true.
Before when I was on the hunt for the Avatar and on the hunt for killing my brother to bring him back to the fire nation as a prisoner.
My eyes and my heart were never really on the goal for killing him.
I only thought of bringing him back home and taking him in as a prisoner.
I never had the heart to kill him.
Honestly, I never had the heart to kill any of them. Not even the Avatar himself.
For a reason that I never knew, when I see the Avatar, here's something about him that prevents me from killing him.
As if we were related or something.
As if that would ever happen.
But now,
With what Zuzu did to me. I would never let someone hurt me like that ever again.
No one may know it but when I found out that my best friends, the two friends in the world that I ever had, betrayed me because of him it hurt me in more ways than one;mostly because they liked him more than me and because I felt like he stole them away from me. Like he got almost everything I have ever had, everything that I ever earned. He took them away from me ; and put them somewhere in the world out of my reach.
He never really understood how lucky he was.
He had the love of our mother. And I had the fake love of my father.
To be honest, I knew that the love of my father was real. But I guess I just needed to feel someone's love.
Whether fake or not, I just needed someone to love me.
But now, I have no idea of love, but to think that the love he gave me was real.
I have never experienced someone's love before. Not even how it feels.
Now in my life, with my father's 'love' things are in some sort of trance wherein there's nothing else I could do but just accept the love.
Whether it's real or not.
But going back to my mission.
Suddendly out of nowhere a plan formed itself in my mind.
Using my firebending I could propel myself towards the cliff side
From there I could use my hairpin to pin myself to the cliff side and hopefully find a vine or ledge to where I could hang from or stay in until somebody helps me.
While I was falling I quickly executed my plan.
And it worked perfectly. Just like how everything else is.
While I was still on the cliff side I quickly spotted a vine and clung to it.
Success! I thought. But little did I know that this was all where my luck would run out.
The vine must have been to weak to hold my weight since it snapped right in half!
This was definitely miserable!
I can't...I can't die!
Tears began forming in my eyes.
I was not going to cry;not just because I knew I was in the doorstep of death but I did not want to cry.
I had to be brave. Hopefully there was still some way that I could live.
I was so distracted by my thoughts that I never noticed that there was a ledge below me.
I tried to hold on to it but it was just pointless. I heard my nails scratch against the rocky surface.
There was no way that I could live now.
There were just so much things I still wanted to before dying.
My father said I would become Fire Lord one day.
An excellent one at that.
I had dreams of doing things no other Fire Lord has ever done.
I had goals higher than the sky.
I had dreams of being the most powerful being and firebender on the planet.
Would I really die like this?
Nearly lost to my failure of a brother and fell off a cliff.
Would I really die to a hurtful death?
My body crushed at the depths of the end of this seemingly endless cliff. I just wondered how much it would hurt when death and I met.
Would I really die alone?
Nobody loves me at all. Not even my brother. Not even my friends and not even my own parents. It crushed my soul.
Would I really die friendless?
My friends betrayed me. Sometimes I still think "Were they ever my friends? Did I ever even treat them like they were? But did they ever treat me like one?" And besides without my friends I was a real mess.
Would I really die a harsh and painful death?
I should never die this way at all! Just by the thought I already know it's going to be unbearable once the hurtful part happens.
Would I really die as a failure in my father's eyes?
Besides this trip to my brother was not only because of my obsession to kill him but also because of the fact that lately I've been looking like a complete failure in his eyes. Especially during the fight when I was on the Boiling Rock. Just so many things went wrong then.
Especially, would I really die as a monster in my mother's eyes?
A tear spilled out of my eyes. When she left, I felt more alone than ever. People expected me not to care. But it proves that no one ever knew me well enough. My mother's love is one of the things I never had and no matter what I did I just could never earn. It was one of the things I've always wanted. Yet she just thought of me as a monster.
Mom, wherever you are now. I just want you to know that I miss you. And that I love you. But I will always still love you and hate you for not loving me. I hate you for leaving me. I hate the fact that you favored Zuko over me. But I still love you and I will always still crave for your love. No matter what happens. Whether you would still love me or not.
Suddenly my head hit something. Hard. Interrupting my thoughts.
I soon realized what it hit: A ledge.
I was rapidly slipped in and out of consciousness, that; the light of the sun was looking like flickering lights. I was nearly tempted to scream "Zuko save me!" But I knew I couldn't do that. My pride blocked me from saying such a thing. But I really did need him. But it was too late.
I was already dying and death itself was just about to take me in whether I would like it or not.
I was already on the doorstep of death.
With no way to escape.
And for a split second I thought: Will Zuko be sad or happy about this?
I had no idea what happened next.
No idea what would happen.
No idea if I was going to live.
No idea if I was going to survive.
No idea if I was going to die.
No idea if anybody would save me.
No idea if anybody even wants to save me.
No idea if my dreams would be fulfilled.
No idea if my head was bleeding.
No idea if Zuko would be sad or happy about me dead.
And lastly and most importantly: No idea if my mom still thinks of me as a monster.
I honestly and completely don't have any idea of what happened next. But the last thing I heard was a voice so familiar yelling, "Azula no!"
And everything went dark black as I slipped into complete unconsciousness I whispered one last thing. "Zuko?"
Author's Note:
Yep, I know. The ending of the story is sad. If I get 10 reviews I might put a chapter#2. Why? Cause I only put cliff-hangers at fanfics with chapters. (Aside from the last chapter) But if it's only going to be a story with no chapter then you can most definitely bet that I would not put a cliff hanger there. I'm not like that. Besides, I know how it feels if you know, it says COMPLETE then when you read it there's a cliff hanger at the end. Believe me it took hours until I got over the- what the? I'm getting off topic here. So please review! I only got 7 reviews for my other story and that took up only 2 chapters! Srsly! Anyways REVIEW!
Ohh and I forgot to put this:
Thank you to my beta-reader/PM buddy/YAY! buddy (There's a thing called YAY buddy! Use your imagination!): Jiao-Jie because without her...well let's just say that none! or probably most of you guys would understand what I was saying! I had so many typo errors! More than 10!
Anyways Review! (it's for a good cause! So that there's gonna be a chapter#2)!