Moonlight Musings
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. ( I wish I did though)
Moonlight reflects off the mirror, causing a shadow to fall across my face. Looking at myself I want to laugh. I see a tall, skinny........kid. Black hair sticking out all over, glasses pushed up hiding green eyes. I've got clothes three sizes to big for me, and they think of me as some kind of hero. Me! A hero of the wizarding world, their one hope. I grip the sides of the sink, my knuckles white. I just stand there staring. Staring at a boy. I see nothing special. But, of course, I can change that. I lift a hand, slowly, putting it up to my forhead, pushing back the hair that covers it. There, there it is. My scar, my curse. Shaped like a bolt of lightning this is what makes me unique. A mark givin to me by fate, by destiny, by a madman with eyes like fire. Voldemort. When I should've died I lived. I'm a hero for that. For sitting there, a baby, and living. You don't know how many times I wished that wasn't the case. Dead I'd be with my mom and dad. Dead I'd be with Sirius.
Sirius.....
Another person I loved. Another person dying to save the fucking boy-who-lived. My hands drop to my sides as I feel a jolt of pain so deep it's all I can do not to scream. It was my fault. All summer that thought had plauged my mind as I sat there at the Dursleys. If I'd just done something different he'd be.....
Stop. Stop it. It's no good thinking about something you can't change. My fist pulls back and slams into the mirror. It breaks, glass crashing to the floor. I look at my fist, see the shards of glass sticking out of it. The blood running. Pain. I know pain. It's all I feel now. It's all I'll feel 'til this is over. This war that's coming. Dark vs. Light, Good vs. Evil, whatever it is. I'll fight. I'll fight Voldemort and I'll win. Why? Because I owe them. I owe my mom, my dad, Cedric, Hermione, Ron, Dumbledore, Sirius. All those who believe. And then, when I've done my part and the world is right again, I'll have my release. I'll stop feeling the pain. In fact, I'll feel nothing at all. My world will fade into wonderful...oblivion.