First of all, I don't own TVD. Secondly, if you're curious, the second chapter of Cosmic Love will be up tomorrow. My tomorrow. Whatever that means. Also, the next chapter of this fic will be up tomorrow too. Yups. Enjoy!
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Bonnie smiled, leaning in to kiss her boyfriend Jeremy. It felt strange, sometimes, that she was dating her best friend's kid brother. Except, it wasn't strange at all. It felt nice.
She cared about him so much. It had taken some time to get used to her feelings, but she finally had.
She was happy. They'd been together for six perfect months, and now they were beginning what would be a wonderful summer together.
She shook herself free of her reverie and looked up at the sky. "Jer, I love you, you know that right?" They were outside, just sitting outside on a blanket in the grass.
"I love you too," he said softly, smiling. "Something wrong?"
Bonnie sighed, "You're sitting on my purse," she replied. She fought the desire to giggle. She lost. "Sorry, Elena and I are having lunch, and I kind of need my keys."
"Now?"
"Now. Sorry. As much as this impromptu sky-gazing was fun . . . I have to meet your sister."
"I'm going to be big here and not complain, but I do want a day for just the two of us. Soon."
Bonnie smiled, and kissed Jeremy on the cheek before quickly jumping up. "Do you want a ride?"
"I'd love one," he stood up, grabbing her bag and handing it to her. "What is it with girls and purses anyway?"
Bonnie raised an eyebrow. "That's one of those questions that if I answered . . . I'd have to kill you. Girl code of honor."
"No way, I thought that was a myth," he joked. "Anyway, let's go, it feels like there's going to be a summer storm or something."
Bonnie looked up at the sky. "No, we're fine. The weather is perfect."
Jeremy looked at her strangely. "I have a feeling."
Bonnie rolled her eyes, "In the car, doofus." She grabbed her car keys and opened the door, pausing momentarily.
She kind of felt that feeling herself, but she wasn't sure what it was. She shook her head and got inside. She'd worry about it later.
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Bonnie wasn't sure when she lost control—but the sky darkened, and it started to rain, and she jokingly teased Jeremy about how he'd wanted to go out to the middle of nowhere to have a that day he'd been so excited. He'd just perked up, "Let's go," and they'd just driven for a while, just because they could.
But now—suddenly it almost felt like she'd completely lost control despite herself. She fleetingly thought that she really ought to have been capable to stop it magically, but when she tried she seemed blocked—something she would later chalk up to fear.
They crashed moments later, and Bonnie felt everything turn to black.
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"I love you," Jeremy said. He sat next to her bed, holding her hand. "Wake up, Bonnie."
Bonnie opened her eyes. "Jeremy?" she asked cautiously. Everything was bright, and she blinked. "I love you too."
Jeremy smiled down at her. "Hey," he squeezed her hand. "You're okay."
Bonnie smiled slightly. "And so are you. I'm sorry, I just—I lost control."
Jeremy's smile disappeared at that. "I'm sorry."
Bonnie narrowed her eyes. "Why are you sorry? I'm the one who should be sorry, Jeremy."
"Wake up, Bonnie," Jeremy said again.
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Bonnie's eyes opened quickly and suddenly. She'd felt like everything was swirling, and the brightness of the hospital had dimmed and she was in a dark hospital room. She heard the beeping of the machines around her. She felt confused, unsure.
Something was wrong.
She felt tears slide down her cheeks, and she wasn't really sure. She felt a little weak, but not as weak as she thought she might of felt considering that she'd just been in a car accident.
A car accident that was her fault, she realized. She'd just . . . lost control.
She shook herself free of that thought and looked around, just then noticing the sleeping body of Caroline in the chair next to her bed.
Bonnie carefully tried to undo the equipment that she was plugged into. "Don't—" she heard.
"Caroline—" Bonnie started slightly. "You scared me."
Caroline smiled weakly and grabbed her hand, squeezing it tightly. "You scared me. You scared us."
Bonnie didn't smile back. "I need to see Jeremy."
Caroline's face fell, and then Bonnie realized she'd been crying. Crying-crying. "Bonnie—"
Bonnie started to breathe heavily. "I need to see him now. Where's Elena? Is she with him? Is he okay? How did—"
Caroline placed a hand on her friend's shoulder, looking into her eyes. "Bonnie—I think you should go back to sleep."
Bonnie started to cry heavily at that. "I want to see Jeremy. Now."
Her anger seemed to pop at that, causing one of the machines near her to emit smoke and a noise that told Caroline that the hospital was definitely going to replace that.
"Bonnie," Caroline tried to say calmly through her own tears. "Damon found you guys in the car—" her voice caught on the words. "And, you were almost dead. He just. He gave you blood to strengthen you, because you were—" Caroline looked down at her hand in Bonnie's. "You almost died. But Jeremy—"
Bonnie shook her head vehemently. "No."
Caroline just nodded through her tears. "Bonnie—he's dead."
At that Bonnie screamed. She pinched herself. She wept openly and freely. She curled into a ball, and Caroline just crawled into the bed with her, holding her. "Bonnie, I'm so sorry," Caroline cried with her. "But you need—you need to rest. You need to—" Caroline realized that the last thing Bonnie wanted to do was sleep. The last thing she wanted to do was sleep, and it had been two days since—since—"Sleep," Caroline finished, pushing that thought from her mind. "I'm so sorry."
Bonnie didn't want to go to sleep. She wanted to wake up from this nightmare.
But this wasn't that sort of nightmare.
This was real.