Staring up at the ceiling, Joel wasn't sure what to think. While he had recently realized that he had feelings for Mike, actually doing something about it wouldn't be easy. The hardest part would be coming out and telling Mike, because as far as he knew, Mike was completely straight. Then again, it had been over a year since he had made any physical contact with another human being, so maybe he would be okay with it...
Joel shook his head. Something as big as this would obviously cause tension between them, and possibly ruin their friendship. For now, at least, he was going to keep it to himself, and decide what to do later. At the moment, all he needed was a good night's sleep.
Looking over at Mike one more time, he noticed a little snore every time he took a breath. Small things like this were what caused Joel's feelings towards him. Smiling, he figured that as long as Mike was asleep, he could at least cuddle up close and feel his warmth. Pulling himself as close as he could get, Joel put his arm around Mike, resting it on his stomach. They were basically spooning now, so Joel moved his face right up to Mike's neck and let out a slow, shaky breath before breathing him in. Squeezing Mike just a little bit tighter, Joel couldn't help but plant a soft kiss on his neck before slowly making his way to Mike's ear. Sticking his tongue out, Joel began to lick and kiss him up and down the neck, with an occasional peck on the cheek.
By now every ounce of fear had escaped his mind – all he felt was love for this man.
"Mike?" He whispered softly into his ear, then went back to the kissing.
"Hmmph?" Mike mumbled, probably in his sleep.
"I love you." He finally said, before giving Mike one last squeeze and kiss. It was late, and even though he wanted nothing more than to continue, he needed sleep.
A few minutes went by and Joel had almost drifted off.
"I love you too, Joel. Now go to sleep."