FEELINGS
Chapter One (?)
A/N: This is to make up for the time I've taken to write the next chapter for 'The Replacement'. I should be working on my literature practice exam responses at the moment as well a whole bunch of other stuff but being a procrastinator and feeling terrible for taking so long to write the next chapter I thought I'd do this instead. I think I have what they call 'a writer's block' but that would mean I am actually a writer so I dunno. anyway the other purpose of this fic is to also make me start writing again and possibly an idea will hit me and I'll be able to write the next chapter of my first fic. If there's anyone out there that have any suggestions for my first fic it would be greatly appreciated (email me at moonlight_jos@hotmail.com) - read and review that too please!! It's my first one. Anyway I dunno if I'll add more chapters to this or leave it. really depends on people's reviews *hint hint*. Anyway enjoy and don't forget to review coz you all know how I love reviews and how they motivate me. (I hope the italics work!! If not I'll try and fix it. if anyone knows how to make the italics appear pls tell me!!)
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Numair watched the man brush a brown curl away from her face and saw her giggle and blush. He gripped his goblet tighter making white show in his knuckles. Beside him the lady continued to chatter on oblivious to the fact that her companion's attention had wondered elsewhere.
That's right, a part of his mind scolded. Daine is your student. You have no right whatsoever to stare so jealously over at them. You have no hold over what she does or who she talks to.
At that moment his feelings of jealously were too overwhelming and completely over rode over his common sense, like a huge wave in the ocean on a stormy, windy day. Abruptly he stood up and mumbled his apologies to the lady beside him and she having missed his words looked up at the tall black-robed mage in confusion. He could no longer stand the sight before him. He darted nobles who saw him and were about to approach him for no doubt a lengthy conversation on some love spell they hope he'd help them out with. He let out a breath in relief when he reached the exit of the ballroom. He was definitely not one who was anti-social unlike Alanna and Raoul. Numair was known to spend a long time in his suite of rooms preparing for a social function such as this - much longer than any of the ladies at court even! But as he was too caught up in his thoughts and emotions he didn't realize that many people noticed his departure.
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"Are you all right?" Daine asked him the following morning.
"Why wouldn't I be? I'm fine."
Could she tell that he was lying through his teeth? He didn't know but to him his lie was plausible. What possible reason could he have for not being 'all right'? But on the contrary he was far from that but there was nothing he could say or do. After the Immortals War they had agreed to take things slow and not jump too quickly into anything. Which in other words allowed them to see other people. Numair, however had not so much as looked at another lady since returning to the palace, his heart was decided - he could love no other but Daine but he did not want them to get into a relationship so quickly and have her regret it one day later. No, what they had agreed was the right decision. This way she could know for sure that her feelings were true and not just because he had admitted his feelings for her. He disliked that she had the upper hand as she knew of his feelings for him (and he believed, that she was unsure of her feelings for him) but tried to make it seem as though he was not jealous.
He remembered his reaction to Kaddar showing particular interest in Daine two years back. At first he had convinced himself as well as she that it was no more than a teacher-student feeling of protectiveness that he felt. But later on he could no longer deny that his feelings were not purely platonic - not to himself anyway. When the clerk, Perin, her most persistent swain had shown his interest in her he could not dampen down the explosion of emotions he experienced particularly when he accidentally came upon them at Daine's door kissing. He knew he had no hold over her as it was mainly his suggestion for this waiting period but he was not prepared for seeing men flirt insistently with her and not do anything about it. It was worse now because she knew of his feelings for her yet she was not exactly unresponsive to their flirtations. On the contrary she was almost enjoying the attention and did naught to discourage the flirting.
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A/N: hmmm. should I add more to this? Depends on what you guys say so please review! I know this ended sort of abruptly but I really gotta get some work done coz I have school beginning again tomorrow.
Chapter One (?)
A/N: This is to make up for the time I've taken to write the next chapter for 'The Replacement'. I should be working on my literature practice exam responses at the moment as well a whole bunch of other stuff but being a procrastinator and feeling terrible for taking so long to write the next chapter I thought I'd do this instead. I think I have what they call 'a writer's block' but that would mean I am actually a writer so I dunno. anyway the other purpose of this fic is to also make me start writing again and possibly an idea will hit me and I'll be able to write the next chapter of my first fic. If there's anyone out there that have any suggestions for my first fic it would be greatly appreciated (email me at moonlight_jos@hotmail.com) - read and review that too please!! It's my first one. Anyway I dunno if I'll add more chapters to this or leave it. really depends on people's reviews *hint hint*. Anyway enjoy and don't forget to review coz you all know how I love reviews and how they motivate me. (I hope the italics work!! If not I'll try and fix it. if anyone knows how to make the italics appear pls tell me!!)
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Numair watched the man brush a brown curl away from her face and saw her giggle and blush. He gripped his goblet tighter making white show in his knuckles. Beside him the lady continued to chatter on oblivious to the fact that her companion's attention had wondered elsewhere.
That's right, a part of his mind scolded. Daine is your student. You have no right whatsoever to stare so jealously over at them. You have no hold over what she does or who she talks to.
At that moment his feelings of jealously were too overwhelming and completely over rode over his common sense, like a huge wave in the ocean on a stormy, windy day. Abruptly he stood up and mumbled his apologies to the lady beside him and she having missed his words looked up at the tall black-robed mage in confusion. He could no longer stand the sight before him. He darted nobles who saw him and were about to approach him for no doubt a lengthy conversation on some love spell they hope he'd help them out with. He let out a breath in relief when he reached the exit of the ballroom. He was definitely not one who was anti-social unlike Alanna and Raoul. Numair was known to spend a long time in his suite of rooms preparing for a social function such as this - much longer than any of the ladies at court even! But as he was too caught up in his thoughts and emotions he didn't realize that many people noticed his departure.
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"Are you all right?" Daine asked him the following morning.
"Why wouldn't I be? I'm fine."
Could she tell that he was lying through his teeth? He didn't know but to him his lie was plausible. What possible reason could he have for not being 'all right'? But on the contrary he was far from that but there was nothing he could say or do. After the Immortals War they had agreed to take things slow and not jump too quickly into anything. Which in other words allowed them to see other people. Numair, however had not so much as looked at another lady since returning to the palace, his heart was decided - he could love no other but Daine but he did not want them to get into a relationship so quickly and have her regret it one day later. No, what they had agreed was the right decision. This way she could know for sure that her feelings were true and not just because he had admitted his feelings for her. He disliked that she had the upper hand as she knew of his feelings for him (and he believed, that she was unsure of her feelings for him) but tried to make it seem as though he was not jealous.
He remembered his reaction to Kaddar showing particular interest in Daine two years back. At first he had convinced himself as well as she that it was no more than a teacher-student feeling of protectiveness that he felt. But later on he could no longer deny that his feelings were not purely platonic - not to himself anyway. When the clerk, Perin, her most persistent swain had shown his interest in her he could not dampen down the explosion of emotions he experienced particularly when he accidentally came upon them at Daine's door kissing. He knew he had no hold over her as it was mainly his suggestion for this waiting period but he was not prepared for seeing men flirt insistently with her and not do anything about it. It was worse now because she knew of his feelings for her yet she was not exactly unresponsive to their flirtations. On the contrary she was almost enjoying the attention and did naught to discourage the flirting.
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A/N: hmmm. should I add more to this? Depends on what you guys say so please review! I know this ended sort of abruptly but I really gotta get some work done coz I have school beginning again tomorrow.