Disclaimer: I do not own Pretty Little Liars. The only thing that is mine here is the idea for the plot; everything esle... Well, it's not.

There's a note at the end of the story, if you get there, check it out.

Enjoy!

Emily's room. It has been their favorite place for the longest time, they spend most of their time there; doing homework, watching movies, talking or just laying in the bed next to each other. To them it was a safe ground, especially for Paige, she really loved that room, she loved how comfy it was and how welcomed she felt there, she loved Emily's window seat, it was her favorite thing in the room. It was their spot. That room was the place she came in terms with herself, accepting the fact that she was gay. It was also the same place where they first shared their "I love you's", Paige said it first when she assured Emily that she was the only person she had feelings for; and then Emily said it, weeks after Paige did, on a night when her girlfriend convinced her to go after her dreams and try to get into Stanford with her. She loved that room, every memory that took place there and everything what it meant to them.

And that's where they are right now, in Emily's bedroom, once again. Paige was sitting on the window seat, looking through the glass with Emily staring at her, waiting for her to say something. The past seemed so simple, even with -A, the fights and break ups, when they were together it always felt right but now... Paige missed how things used to be, how difficultly easy their relationship was because she knew that at the end of the day, their genuine love was worthy. But after that kissed at school, two days ago, everything else has felt... Phony.

"We need to talk" She heard Emily say for the second time that night.

"I know" Paige replied, she took her gaze off the window to look at her girlfriend.

"Then why do you keep avoiding it?" Emily replied tiredly "I know it's not going to be easy but if we're gonna try to make this work, we need to start being honest and direct with each other".

"I don't think I'm ready" Paige stood up "I don't think we are ready".

"Why?" The dark-haired girl uncomfortably adjusted herself in the bed she was sitting on.

"I'm scared, ok? I don't want any of us to get hurt". Paige looked down and Emily gulped, now worried about how Paige could possibly hurt her. "I'm afraid this will end up like that time on the shcool's bathroom, or the night you said goodbye or the night on your porch when you made it clear we were done".

"Ok, I get it. But, that's exactly why we need to talk. Do you wanna have these awkward moments because we're too afraid to say what we want to say rather than face this and talk about it? This isn't sane. If we don't do this there will be resentments between us. Being together is incredible but we need to this right for both of our sakes".

Paige got annoyed in that moment.

"Ok" She snapped "You wanna talk? Ok, let's talk. Where'd you want to start?" Paige heard her own voice rising with every word leaving her mouth "In the moment you decided you were done with me because Alison was back? Or when you held against me a mistake I made just because I wanted to keep you safe?"

"I didn't leave you because Alison was back!" Emily shot back, in the same harsh tone Paige was using.

"Oh, didn't you? Because that was sure as hell what it felt like, Emily!" She threw her hands in the air. "Ever since the minute you knew Alison was alive our relationship went downhill. You started lying and keeping stuff from me. Admit it, you basically chose her over me". She got her hands down just to rub her temples, apparently to calm herself. "I know I screwed up, telling the police wasn't the best idea I have had, but I swear I wouldn't change my decision, not even if I had the chance".

Suddenly the room got dead quiet "You wouldn't?".

"No" Paige assured "Wanna know why? Because I was right. Alison meant no good and I knew it. I always have, that's why I told, because the only thing I was thinking about in that moment was in how to keep you safe, and you weren't helping at all. You still went and put yourself in danger. You left New York in one piece by work of a freaking miracle, Emily; -A could have killed you that night if it wasn't for Fitz, and he got shot, he's lucky he survived". Paige was breathing heavily after that and Emily looked at her for a minute before shaking her head.

"I knew it would be dangerous going after Alison. But that was the right choice at the moment. She was still our friend; at least we thought she was. We needed to know her part of the story, Alison still is the main piece in this game, I thought that the sooner we got to her, the sooner this would end. I wanted this to be over." Emily took a breath and stood up "I think I know what you must have felt, you were just looking out for me, I think I get that, but that's the thing, even though I know you wanted the best for me, you promised me you would keep it a secret. I just couldn't help but feeling betrayed and lied to. You gave me an ultimatum, and I hated it. I've always hated the thought that you, in any way would want to control my life. My parents did that, Alison and -A did that… I was wishing you were the exception. I thought that you would give me enough credit to trust my decisions. And besides that, it seemed like you were taking this as excuse to getting revenge and I still wonder if that was what happened".

Paige stayed quiet for a few seconds and then shrugged.

"I really don't think I did it for revenge…. But I don't know. I d-don't think I did .Maybe I was scared; I was scared of what her return would do to us. I don't know" She massaged her temples "I do not regret my decision, Emily, but I truly am sorry it hurt you". Paige sat on the end of Emily's bed, right where the other girl was sitting moments ago.

"I know you are" Emily said, her voice more soft now.

"Do you have any idea of how did it feel to see you choose Alison over me? How much it hurt me to see you walk away from me because of her?" At this point Paige's voice was weary.

To say Emily felt guilty was the least, she felt horrible, her chest was getting heavier by the minute, and her heart was racing, she licked her lips and and tried to swallow the huge knot in her throat before opening her mouth.

"You didn't deserve to go through all of that and I'm sorry" Hating herself, she continued "Paige… There's something else we need to talk about" She unfolded her arms and moved closer to the bed where her girlfriend was sitting, who looked up to her, expecting her to keep talking . Emily closed her eyes and looked down before opening them again, she couldn't see Paige's in the eyes anymore "When were apart… Alison and I… We kissed"

"Wh-what?" Paige eyes started watering, but she tried to fight the tear blinking forcedly.

"I'm so sorry, I did-"

"You kissed her?" Paige voice sounded so broken it made her hear hurt like it was burning.

Unable to find her voice, Emily nodded, feeling her own tears going down her face.

"I'm sorry, I really am… After I did I felt awful" Emily sniffed "I don't know why I did it. I guess I wanted to know how I felt about Alison, seeing her again after everything that happened was so confusing. I never had a closure so maybe it brought back old feelings".

Paige dried her tears with the back of her hand; she stood up and moved away from Emily "Will I ever be good enough for you?" She asked bitterly and the weight in Emily chest increased.

"What are you talking about? Don't say that, please" Emily tried to take the other girl's hand, but it was pulled away quickly "I'm sorry, Paige, I love you. Don't you ever say you're not good enough for me, because you're the best thing that has happened to me" Neither of them said anything for a while until Paige turned her head to Emily again.

"Was this why you wanted to talk? So you could come clean after I kissed you?

"I'm sorry, I know it was wrong"

"Could have fooled me"

"It's not like you didn't do the same" Emily took a breath, knowing she had right to be mad "Or are you going to tell me you didn't see anyone while we were apart"

"No, I didn't!"

Emily scoffed "Aria told me about that movie night! The night you were dresses up and you came to the Brew!" To Emily's surprise, Paige shook her.

"Not the same thing"

"You went out with another girl, tell me how's that any different"

"You knew what Alison did to me" Paige said angrily "And you still hooked up with the girl who made my life a living hell. I was trying to forget how much I was hurting, I wanted to move on, to stop think about you. Didn't work."

"Who was she? Are you still seeing her?"

"What? No! Do you seriosuly think that little of me?" Paige said hurtfully "Her name is Lauren. She's a friend. We met months ago, in one of my runs." She explained" We've been running together almost every day since we found out we're both into swmiming, we have had coffee a couple of times before, we talk alot. Once she asked me on a date, I declined because I was with you…But she heard we weren't longer together, so she asked again and I said yes. I told myself that what I did wasn't wrong" Paige continued "Then I saw you at the Brew and…. It felt so wrong, all I wanted to do was to kiss you and shout how much I missed you but…" Paige shook her head "A part of my brain kept telling me that we were done that I needed to move on, that there was nothing left for me to do because you just didn't want to be with anymore, so I left you and drive her home"

Emily gulped, she didn't want to hear this, and she wanted to shut Paige up because she didn't wanna hear what happened next, how Paige took this Lauren girl home and- … She stopped herself. Although the last thing she wanted was to her fears to be confirmed, she was the one who insisted to talk and make a clean start.

"And then…?" Emily asked the other swimmer.

"Nothing happened, Emily" Paige snapped again "I didn't do more than buy the girl a coffee, if that's what you're asking. I walked her home and she tried to kiss me but I stopped her. I didn't kiss her, like you kissed Alison" She spitted

"Why didn't you?"

"I couldn't bring myself to do it. She isn't you." Paige looked right into her eyes.

They stayed in silence for few moments, without braking eye contact, and Emily moved closer to Paige, she took it as a good sign when the other girl didn't moved away.

"I'm sorry, Paige" Emily said honestly, she placed a hand on Paige's cheek, who closed her eyes, letting herself enjoy the touch for a moment "I'm so sorry for everything"

"I'm sorry too" Paige put her hand above Emily's but she oppened her eyes and held a serious expression.

"Do you forgive me?" Emily asked hopefully.

"I do forgive you" Paige took Emily's off her face slowly "But I don't think I could ever trust you again, Emily. I'm sorry" with that Paige walked towards the door, leaving Emily with the same empty sensation that once Emily left her with.

So, yeah, that's it. I'm sorry it sucked. I'm still new with this writting thing. And I'm sorry for any typos and/or grammar mistakes, still working on my English. This was just something I wanted to do because Marlene's not doing it for me, man, I need more Paily screen time with serious conversations. Like, this talk needed or still needs to happen.(But of course we get 234 hours of irrelevant, repetitive and useless escenes of Ezria crying and eating pie, but ok).

Maybe I'll make second chapter to get an actual Paily end? That depends on what you say.

If I get people saying they want a second chapter, I'll do it, soon (;

I would like to know what do you think, even if you hated it.

Thanks for reading.

-Alex.-