Heartless:

A/N: Hi! This is my first attempt at a fic, so I'm taking wild stabs in the dark! Yay! I don't think this sucks, but others might. Either way, feedback is appreciated, but flames will be scoffed at.

Summary: Allen is confused. Ever since he met Lavi, he's had a strong pull towards the other man. Almost like…an attraction. His feelings don't matter anyway, because Lavi, as a proper Bookman's apprentice, has no heart. Or at least, he's not supposed to.

Warnings: (mild) boy x boy love. Laven. (very mild) cursing.

Disclaimer: I don't own –Man. Obviously.

Chapter 1: In too deep

The long train thundered by, whipping up fallen leaves and whisking them into the air, only for them to be caught by gravity and dragged back down to the dirt. Inside one of the train's compartments, a white haired teen with a black exorcists' cloak draped over him sighed dejectedly.

Its sad how well those leaves describe me.

I, Allen Walker, supposed Destroyer of Time, was feeling, much like the leaves, like I was being dragged back down after a brief high. The reason for my high was sitting next to me, looking for the entire world like he knew no sadness while he pestered the Japanese exorcist, Kanda. Lavi.

"Yu-chan! Whats your favorite color?" Lavi asked in a childish voice.

"Che. Don't have one. Now stop asking these stupid questions." was Kanda's answer. Their exchange made me smile.

It took me forever to accept it. Many times I argued with myself (and one mortifying time with Lenalee), trying to convince myself that I wasn't attracted to my red-haired fellow exorcist. But I was. It wasn't even his physical attributes (though I never tired of looking at him).

There was just something about him, his smile, his demeanor, I don't know, that never failed to cheer me up. I relished in his attention and craved for our regular 'arguments'. This information, recently dug out of my minds' deepest hidden desires, made me feel light as air. Then, heavy as a rock.

Lavi was a bookman's apprentice. He made no attachments and liked no one. He was here to record history, nothing else. Not to fraternize with a stupid "bean sprout" as most liked to call me (yeah, thanks so much Kanda). I tried to push these depressing thoughts out of my head.

It didn't really work. Oh well, I'll try to at least act happy, not like I—

"Hey! Stupid bean sprout! Pay attention, we're almost there. You're daydreaming like a girl or something."

My thoughts were interrupted by none other then Kanda.

"Well, at least I don't look like one!" I shot back, annoyed.

"WHAT did you just say, damn Bean Sprout?!" he growled. There was a telltale hiss as Mugen was drawn.

"I'm sorry, could you not understand what I meant with your lack of brain cells? You. Look. Like. A. Girl." I was grinning like a maniac as I said this. Kanda lunged, but was brought to an abrupt halt by Lavi. Gah, just looking at his perfectly sculpted face and amused emerald eye sends shivers down my spine.

"Hey, hey. Yu-chan, you shouldn't kill Allen." I beamed. "Until I have a camera or somethin'~!" Lavi finished, smiling cheekily. I scowled and cuffed him over the head. "Oww…Allen," he whined, "I was kidding!" I showed no signs of relenting.

"Forgive me! Pleeeeese!!" he begged. I kept my scowl. Then he started pouting.

My resistance crumbled.

A light blush covered my cheeks as I swallowed nervously. He looked so damn cute when he did that! "S-sure Lavi." I stuttered. The cheeky grin covered his face again.

"I knew you couldn't be mad at me! It's cause you love me, right! Or is it just my dashing good looks?" his visible eye sparkled with merriment. I gaped like a fish. I quickly clapped my mouth shut and looked away nervously. "No, neither. Of course not." I muttered, blushing even more and fiddling with my fingers nervously.

Lavi blinked and cocked his head. Hell, even Kanda looked at me suspiciously.

"Che. Bean Sprout, Rabbit, were almost at our stop so quit being stupid, even though that would be a great feat." Oh thank god for Kanda. All attention was off me. "Oh, and don't call me 'Yu-chan', stupid Rabbit, or you might suddenly find Mugen buried in your side one day. Bean Sprout, I'll definitely spill your blood later for the girl comment." Yes, thank god, if only Kanda wasn't such a prick.

I collapsed under the weight of my depression. Lavi would always just kid about things like that. Love. Attraction. He'll never take them seriously, because, to him, it never would be serious. He'd never return my affections.

Then it hit me.

I just had to be saved from an awkward social situation with Lavi by Kanda.

I was in way too deep.

A/N: This is probably just gonna be a few chapters. I'm not really sure yet. Anyway, sorry 'bout the shortness, I have to work on that. There's not gonna be any hardcore yaoi stuff. Only fluffyness. Rated T because I'm paraniod :D.