I don't own any of these characters. Stephenie Meyer does. Thank her for the excellent characters and all that good stuff.
PREFACE
I WAS FREE. THANKS TO SAM I WAS FREE. NOBODY COULD HEAR MY thoughts and I didn't have to hear theirs. So I ran. I ran so far and hard that I didn't know if I would be able to hear the other's if I wanted to. Did I want to? Did I want to hear if they had seen or heard from Bella? Bella the only girl I ever loved and now she was gone from me forever. No, I didn't want to hear, at least that's what I told myself.
I didn't care either. That's the other thing I reminded myself. She made the choice and so I didn't care. The girl I love, the girl I wanted to make happy, the girl I wanted to be mine was going to be someone else's and soon. Not only was she going to be someone else's but she was going to belong to that leech, Edward. I was never going back. What was left there for me besides heart ache and misery? The memories of her would hurt too much I could never go back. I could never be human again, and so a wolf I would remain forever. It was when I decided this course for my life that I did hear something. I tried to ignore it.
It was Sam. What does he want from me? Doesn't he know that I want to be left alone, that I want to die? He called me again. I finally answered him. I guess he wasn't going to give up.
"What do you want?" I growled.
"Come home," was all he said.
"Why should I? Bella is lost to me forever. What is there left for me, heart ache misery, no thanks," I barked back at him. Immediately I felt guilty for taking this out on him but he was here. He brought this on himself, trying to talk to me. Who was I kidding he was just the one person who was trying to reach out.
"Come home now. That's an order."
"NO! Why don't you come and get me if you want me that bad."
"Don't tempt me Jacob."
"I dare you come and get me," I said being smug not knowing how close he really was.
Next thing I knew a huge wolf came out in front of me. How the hell could this be? I had been running for days, maybe weeks, I didn't know anymore. Yet here he was in front of me.
"How the hell did you get here so fast?" was all I could manage.
"When you didn't come home I followed you," he said so calm and cool.
"How did I not know?"
"I was careful not to think at least not when I was like this. If I did need to think I turned back."
"Why do you want me to go home?"
"It's Bella. She is looking for you."
"Why would she be looking for me? She has EDWARD now."
"She found out about the invitation and wants to talk to you about it."
"Well, it's a little too late for that. I'm never going back, not to La Push not to being human. I can't it would kill me to be human to have to deal with the loss."
"Suit yourself. She really wanted to talk to you though. She seems really worried about you."
"Like I said I am never going back. So, it's just too bad for her. As far as I am concerned she can worry about me forever. It would serve her right."
"You know Jacob you can be a real jerk sometimes. I don't know why she wastes her time with you. I hope you are happy with yourself." At that he turned to leave.
"Wait," I called. "What day is it?"
"It's the 12th," he said turning back to me. "Bella is getting married tomorrow. Don't you want to see her one last time before?"
Why did he have to ask that? The one question I didn't want to answer because of the flood of hurt it would let in. Of course I wanted to see her but what could I do? I was so hurt when I got the invitation from Edward and found out she wasn't going to invite me. How could I go back and face her?
"Jacob, do you want to see her or not?"
"Of course I do," I yelled back in response. "But, I am a good weeks run away from Forks I'll never get there in time."
"Yes, you will."
"How the hell do you suppose I can get back in less than twenty four hours?"
"With these, they are from Edward. He will meet us at the airport and get you to Forks to talk to Bella tonight." I looked and he had two tickets tied to his back paw.
At that I stopped dead. I became human again for the first time in over a week. I didn't want Sam to be able to hear my thoughts anymore. Sam turned back not long after I did and pulled me into a bear hug. For the first time since I became this monster I saw how Bella felt when I would hug her like this. No wonder she chose Edward over me. She must have been scared for her life whenever I hugged her.
I had so many questions but decided on just one. The answer he gives to this will make my mind up on whether I go back now or not. "Why did he send tickets with you?"
"Your guess is as good as mine, but I have a feeling it has to do with the fact that Bella hasn't been the same since she found out you left. She doesn't go anywhere or talk to anyone but Charlie, and Edward when she needs to. She doesn't even go over to the Cullen's place. Charlie told your dad that she is almost back to the way he was when Edward left her last fall. He is really upset that you left without telling her good bye."
"Are you serious. I didn't think she would care that I was gone now that she has that leech back. I didn't think I meant that much to her. Let's go!" For the first time since that letter from Edward I felt hope.
Before I knew it we were landing in Port Angeles. Just like Sam told me there was Edward waiting for us. He smelled just as horrible as I remembered. I didn't know how I was going to ride home in a car with him and not get sick. He must have had the same thought because there in the back of the jeep was my bike.
Now it was time to see Bella. What the hell was I going to say to her?