Do you recognize me?
Um... Where to began from? Okay… I should probably begin with the first time I came from the hospital. I felt so bad. So fucking bad about myself. You can't imagine! I felt like I wasn't worth a shit. Seriously I wanted to die. Of course I had to try to make it trough because of my dad. He had done so much for me. I couldn't just throw all that away. I had to try. So I decided to go back to school. I had to lie though, otherwise he would not let me go back there. I told him I broke my arm in a smash with a cyclist.
First thing I see is Karofsky. Yep, my favorite person in the whole world… I run to the nearest classroom. Classroom is a safe place. At first I thought I'm alone. Then I turn around, and see this new very handsome, curly haired short boy with Mr. Schuester. Oops, I shouldn't be looking at him like that… He probably thinks I'm ugly and disgusting… And even if he is gay, he wouldn't ever take someone like me. Never ever in my dreams. He is gorgeous actually! He could get anyone he ever wanted to! Oh damn, I'm still standing here like some idiot.
"Um Kurt? What are you doing in here?" asks.
"I… Well… I just don't want to be late from my class. That's all!" I lie.
"Okay. Well I was just talking to this new student." he says lustily.
"Hi, nice to meet you. My name is Blaine Anderson. I transferred from Dalton Academy." the cute one says smiling at me.
NICE TO MEET YOU? What the..? Oh and those hazel eyes! So attractive!
"Um… I… Yeah nice to meet you too. I'm Kurt Hummel." I answer glancing quickly at him and trying to smile, but I'm sure I look like shit anyway…
"Well Blaine, l'll show you a couple classrooms, and then your ready to go. See you at glee Kurt!" says happily.
And like that, they are gone. Okey, I really need to forget all about that boy…
"I'm gonna ask Mr. Schuester if I can sing Just give me a reason from Pink with Finn. It is made for us. " Rachel says with a self-confident smile.
Oh great. I forgot I have glee… I just want to go to home already!
"Yeah you will sound amazing." I say without thinking my answer.
As we sit down to our places, Mr. Schuester comes in. "Say welcome to our newest member. Here is Blaine Anderson everybody. He came from Dalton Academy Warblers."
I froze. What? This angel sings too? Oh my, I bet his voice is great! Oh shit why do I like him so much?
"I have heard so much about you Blaine!" Rachel says as Blaine takes a seat next to her.
"I have heard about you guys too! We are so gonna win nationals this year!" he smiles adorably.
Stop looking at him! He doesn't like you. He hates you lady face. You are such a girl! I force my eyes on my lap.
"Okay we gotta practice now! Today…" Mr. Shuester keeps speaking.
After glee I hurry to my car and drive to home. Finn will go to Rachel's today, and my dad and Carol are at a date tonight. Yay I have the house for myself. I go straight to my room. My hand finds the razor easily. It feels so good. I can finally breath. I'm actually able to feel something. I have the control.