Disclaimer: Pot doesn't belong to me. Too sad, isn't it?
Rating: T
Summary: Ever wondered what Yukimura wrote in his letter before committing suicide?
A/N: English is not my first language; feel free to point out the mistakes I made.
Side story to "A life without you"
The letter
Genichirou,
If you read this letter it means that I am no longer alive. I know you are sad and even angry but you have to understand that I could not go on living.
Yes I was selfish, not thinking about your feelings. You must be asking yourself why I decided to die. Of course you are. But before I tell you my reasons you have to know that I love you. I love you more than anything, more than my own life. I hope you will not have doubts about that.
If I had the choice I would have gone on live and we would have been able to live together and maybe adopt a child. But it is impossible.
Genichirou I am ill. You knew about that dreadful Guillain Barré Syndrome. I was cured but now I am suffering from cancer. It is all over my body. It is linked to the medicines I was given after my operation. It can not be cured. I tried everything. Doctors do not even know how many years I still have to live. Maybe ten years, maybe ten months, weeks or days. I may even die tomorrow.
I can not ask you to cope with this situation. I do not want you to live with the fear of waking up next to my dead body. I can not ask you to take care of me, to give up all your dreams just to look after me. I would hate myself for preventing you from fulfilling your dreams. I know you want to run your family's dojo and to become a lawyer. Taking care of me would mean being with me all day long.
I could have broken up with you. But knowing you, you would not have let me go. The only way to free you is my death. Nothing can make me change my mind.
I hope you will forgive me. I want you to be happy, to find a new person to love. I want you to understand that I killed myself because I love you. I always will.
Please live you life to the fullest. Do not look back. You must go on. For you. For me.
Seiichi.
A/N: Here's the letter. Some of you wanted to know why Yukimura committed suicide. I hope you like it. ( well not the fact that Yukimura killed himself. I was talking about my fiction ;) )