Warnings of rape and sex mentions
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Stinger headed down toward the voyager docking bay. It had been a long day and he just needed a break from everything. He enjoyed it down there, it was always quiet and empty.
As he entered though, he heard a quiet sniffling noise. He followed the sound until he came to the hebitsukai voyager. He peered in and noticed the owner crying in his seat.
"Naga?" Stinger asked quietly to not frighten the silver ranger.
Naga looked up, eyes red with tears streaming down his face. He quickly wiped them away and said, "I'm sorry if I bothered you, I can head up to my room."
"No, it's fine, there's just normally no one else down here," Stinger commented before asking, "Are you ok?"
"I come down here because it's quiet too. It's a good place to get away from Balance," Naga said slowly as he tried to calm down his crying.
"Why don't you tell Balance what's wrong? Maybe he can help you," Stinger suggested, feeling a little awkward.
"He worries about me enough after what happened, he says it's all Akyanba's fault, but I know he blames himself. I don't want to add anything else to it," Naga admitted.
"Do you want to talk to me about it?" Stinger offered, a bit surprised at himself.
Naga shook his head, "It's just something personal, I don't know how I'd even begin."
"Sometimes you feel better after talking things out, but I do understand not talking. I tend to keep things in, but eventually they tend to eat you away. It's been a few months since the Akyanba incident, if you keep coming down here to cry, you're letting it eat at you."
Naga nodded and offered, "Do you want to come in? There's enough room if you'd like to sit."
After Stinger climbed in next to Naga, Naga took a few moments to try to calm himself.
"Please don't think of me any different, and please, please don't tell Balance," Naga begged.
"I will just listen then pretend like we never had this conversation, alright?" Stinger suggested.
"When I was overcome with emotion, I know it wasn't entirely me. I was being controlled, but it was still my body. I felt so many emotions, it was hard to process everything," Naga paused a moment before blushing, "One of those emotions I felt was lust. I did so many things, including things with Akyanba."
Naga started crying again and Stinger put his arm around him for comfort. After a couple minutes, Naga calmed down enough to continue, "I've looked into how I'm feeling now, trying to understand things, but I don't know. I don't know if it counts as rape if my body wanted it, or if I really willingly felt those things. My planet doesn't feel emotions, and we have ways of mating that don't involve feelings or sex. I guess I knew by searching for emotions I would eventually get there, but now I'm unsure if I could ever do that with anyone. Even every time I take my clothes off to shower, I'm reminded of those times and I start panicking."
"Hey, you weren't in control of your body, it was all Akyanba's control, she raped you," Stinger comforted. Naga was using his jacket sleeves to try to wipe tears off. Stinger whispered, "I've never told anyone this, but when I was young, after my parents and brother were gone, I had to fend for myself. There were times I had no money and had to do questionable things just to get food to survive. Really, I didn't mind it. There was one time though, an old man stung me, just enough to stun me for a while so I couldn't move. I could see and feel everything he did to me that night, but I couldn't fight back. I was left there naked for a few hours until I could move my muscles. I was covered in bruises and my whole body hurt to move. I knew he was to blame, 'but I could never bring myself to do anything sexual again. I didn't eat for days at a time, just so I didn't have to sell myself. Eventually, I learned to live with myself and live with what had happened to me. If I ever find someone I trust, I might try sex again, but it's something each person has to give and to share. If you don't want to have sex ever again, that is your choice, but don't let Akyanba continue to control your life and your feelings."
Naga nodded in understanding, still wiping tears from his face, "I didn't think it would have happened to someone strong like you."
"Naga, you are strong too. I was young at the time, but it can happen to anyone, depending on the circumstances."
"Thank you, Stinger," Naga finally finished crying. He knew it would take a lot of work, but he had hope now that he could get past what he had gone through.