Hello! I just saw Breaking Dawn and this came to me... It's from Bella's perspective in New Moon reflecting on how Edward left her. Not happy stuff. Enjoy!
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And I lost my mind
I fell too fast
My head hit your chest hard like cement
My mouth hit your mouth hard like dying
or drifting, whichever,
and the red all over wasn't insanity
everyone was wrong
they were all wrong
red must have been bliss
It had to be. This didn't taste like blood,
no. It didn't taste like watching it all spiral down like a bird with a bullet through its wing or like trust plucked out of body -
careful now, please, it's heavy –
and thrown down until it splintered and shattered and died all over the floor of this home.
I guess the pieces split my tongue open, because
that tasted like heaven,
right?
Remember?
Remember?
. . . I remember.
And I lost my mind.
Left was right and up was down and I thought I was skipping rocks on the shore,
thought I was walking on water, thought the ocean opened up and I was swimming with you up to heaven but I was really digging down in the dirt and knocking my shovel on hell's door
Do you remember the leaves in hell?
They were orange and yellow and brown like autumn
And the trees were green like always.
And you were there
It felt beautiful and whole like always.
The forest was here for us like always.
Always.
You swore you'd be here always.
It hurt like never before.
...
I curled up with the leaves and the fires.
Funny, how it smelled like you
It cried like you - maybe your fingers dug me my hole here in hell (maybe that's why you wouldn't touch me that day, because your fingers were still burning. Believe me, I know. I've been burning for months) –
Funny, how you smeared your hand print all over the walls
but you're not here.
Except Edward,
I don't blame you.
Except Edward,
I love you.
Remember?
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